Midnight in Oliver's room
I can't sleep. All I can think about is Ryo. I wish she was here. I lie on my stomach pressing my body hard into the mattress. My heart is aching and I don't know how to make the pain go away. We're not broken up but it feels like I lost her. I don't know how to reach her. How can my life go to ruin in less than a week?"I should call her and try to fix things," I say into the empty room like someone can hear me. "But I don't want to fight with her anymore." I continue into the empty room. I squeeze my eyes shut, willing my mind to slow down and allow sleep to come over me. I need to rest. I haven't had a good night's sleep since Ryo came up with that stupid idea. I should have fought her harder on this. I knew the worst would happen.I was hoping Kelly would talk some sense into her but by the judge of how things turned out with Marlene. Kelly was no help. And I doubt she'll be of any help after shIt's the weekend I am back at work and I hate it. As a matter of fact I ahte everything about my routine thesedays. I hate going to school because I see Oliver and I can't be with him. Plus I get to Marlene gloating and prancing around the school. She has found a new happiness since Oliver and I have been "broken up". She's back to her loud abd abnoxious self.And Kelly is mad at me.So we haven't been spending a lot of time together. I'm afraid I'm going to slip up and tell her the truth about Oliver and I.She just doesn't beileve me when I give her my fake reason why we broke up. She doesn't understand what is going on and she hates that I won't give her a valid reason why I won't patch things up with Oliver. I know she's going t kill me when I finally tell her what happened.I hate being at work now because I know it's count down to me going back to being a simgle girl. I am realizing now that big part of my life was taken up by our relation
It's been two weeks since Oliver and Ryo broke up. She walks around the school moping while Oliver is barely talking.I was hoping he would at least be talking to me but he is ignoring me. I tried calling, texting and talking to him but he just sits and stares at the emptiness. Like now. He's sitting in the school garden staring at the flowers.I walk toward him already feeling his dark energy cloud me. I need him to snap out of this. I need him to let Ryo go and see that I'm here for him, everything he's ever wanted."Hey. What are you thinking about?" I say sitting on the opposite bench. He looks at me but he doesn't say anything. "I know you feel like the pain is not going to go away but it will." I say and he scoffs at me."You know my feelings now?" He asks after a long pause."Yes, actually I do." I say meaning it too. There was a time when I longed for him. I felt like I was losing my mind. I felt li
I watch Kelly walk into the shop and I smile. I haven't talked to her since the fake breakup. I imagine she has questions and I wouldn't be surprised if she blames me for everything that is going on right now."Hey." She says coming into the store room."Hey." I say back at her."How are you doing?" She asks her face serious."Hanging in there." I say and she smiles."Everything sucks huh?" She says and I shrug. "Can you take a little break?" She asks already walking away."I guess." I say following her. She heads out of the front entrance and she walks towards her car."What's going on O?" She asks when we're next to her car and out of ear shot."I don't know." I say honest. I don't know what's going on with Ryo and I think I'm getting to a point where I don't want to agonize over this."What do you mean you don't know?" She asks confused. "Ryo is not telling me anything.
"Where are you?" Jameson asks his voice filling up the interior of my car. I have him on speaker as I drive to Ryo's favourite coffee spot. I miss her, need an energy boost and I'm tired of being cooped up in my house. My mother is starting to look at me like I'm crazy. She's two minutes away from asking me what's wrong with me and I don't want that."I'm going to get coffee," I say and I can hear him judging me through the phone."At nine in the evening?" He says when the silence stretches."Yes, I need aboost." I say and he sighs. "What? Say it." I say as I pull into the parking lot of the coffee shop,"Have a good time." He says and en
"Do you mind if I join you?" She asks looking at the chair and then at me."Not atall." I say and she sits down."I didn't peg you for the coffee before midnight kind" She says smiling at me and I shrug."I couldn'tsleep." I say and she raises her brows at me. "I know coffee is not really the answer but I had to get out of thehouse." I say and she looks at me concerned."Well, I'm glad you decided to come here. It's good to see you." She says surprising me.
The next MorningWhen I open my eyes in the morning I am overcome with a sense of calm. I haven't felt like this since my fight with Ryo. Last night didn't turn out the way I hoped for but I'm happy we got to talk. We don't have answers for how we're going to fix this whole mess but I'm glad that we're not fighting anymore.There is aknock at my doorand I stare at it for a moment wondering if I should get out of bed to go answer it. Do I want to know what's out there? Do I want to let the world ruin my moment of bliss?"Yes." I say choosing to not get out of bed but I can't ignore whoever is on the other side of the door."It's mom."
"I was thinking about our break up." She says turning her full body to look at me. "You said I ended things between us and that's not how I remember things going down." She says and I sigh.It's crazy that I'm the villain in every story that she remembers. Every time I heard her or any of her friends talk about our relationship I was the one that did her wrong. I'm the one who was dating multiple girls and flaunting them in her face. When in actuality..."How do you remember it?" I ask trying to hear how she remembers how this story goes. Of course, I've the highlights over the years but we've never talked about it."You met that girl with the long hair. The one you used to meet up with when your family went on vacation and then suddenly I wasn't good enough anymore."She says and I smile a little.
"I don't know who told you what but I didn't do anything with Simon" She says and I laugh because she has to be joking. I can't believe she's denying this."Simon toldme." I state plainly and she shakes her head no."Nohe didn't. You're just trying to get me to admit to something that didn't happen." She says smiling."Marlene you can't deny this. I spoke to Simon before he left and he told me everything." I say and she frowns."He said he had to confess the wrong he did before he had to leave." He wanted to be a good friend. I say snorting as I remember. "I know he didn't tell me for my