The decision

September 5, 2024

The past 3 days went by in a blurr and I barely remembered what the doctors said or if Jake came by since I was given the news. I hate that I'm pregnant but I'm free and I don't have to worry about him anymore and now I will have someone with me to care for and love. As crazy as it may sound I came to realize that this baby that is growing inside of me may not be the worst thing but I still don't know if i will be ready to take care of another person like that, especially since I couldn't even take care of myself the way that I was supposed to. The Doctor told me that he would be here even whenever I am released so I know that he will be there no matter what I decide to do. Whenever I was about to make the biggest decision of my life Doctor Rivera walked into the room...

"Knock Knock..... How are you feeling today Alison?"

"I'm as to be expected really but I haven't had as many nightmares as before."

"Well that's wonderful news....Speaking of wonderful news we found your Aunt Sally and she has agreed to take you in after you are released and she will be up some time today to talk to you."

I don't really remember Aunt Sally that much but I'm glad someone would be here for me. Especially since I was getting released tomorrow morning.

"Thank you for telling me this...around what time is she coming"

After the question left my mouth there was a knock on the door and Aunt Sally walked in and made her way to the chair next to my bed.

"Hey Alison, I know you don't remember me but I was your fathers little sister and we will have to work to get to know eachother but i'm here for you"

She grabbed my hand and squeezed my fingers in an effort to show affection and support but I was in shock because she looked so much like my father that it hurt to look at her and instantly I wished that I knew this woman better. She told me that she lives near the high school so she could drive me there and pick me up if I wasn't up for driving whenever I was cleared to go to school. I wish Jake would come by to see me before I was released tomorrow so that I know for sure that everything will be alright but he didn't come.

    Jake didn't know how he could face Alison after the news that she was given. He felt like it was his fault for all of this, if he had known what his father was doing or if he came by sooner she wouldn't have had to suffer for so long. He blamed himself so much that he was subconsciously taking it out on Alison and not going to see her or even visiting her today of all days because she was going home tomorrow and he wouldn't be there to support her.

  By 8 o'clock that night I knew he wasn't going to come to say goodbye and that hurt me but I didn't want anyone to see it so I hid my emotions like most of them these days so that no one is overly worried about me. Aunt Sally stayed with me and never left my side like I was her own daughter and I was finally starting to feel like family with her rather than a total stranger. She told me about when her and my father were kids and how they would go outside for hours just playing like nothing else in the world mattered. We laughed together and when I got in one of my fits we cried together for the pain and the loss that we were both feeling even though she doesn't fully understand what I'm going through. She is there for a shoulder to cry on and to cry with me when I need it. But today I was here to laugh with her because I needed to forget about everything that happened even if it was only for a few minutes. Dr. Rivera came in right after we burst out laughing at a joke that was told and it took us a few minutes to collect ourselves.

"I'm glad you are feeling better today"

"Yeah i know we still have to do some tests before I can go home tomorrow but I am actually doing good today"

"Have you decided what you are going to do about the news that I gave you?"

"I have and if Aunt Sally is okay with my decision I'm going to keep my baby"

When I turned to watch Aunt Sally's reaction I thought she was unhappy with it at first but she was actually excited and glad I was working through all of this so well.

"Oh Alison I'm so proud of you and your father would be to and we will get through all of this and I promise I will not turn my back on you and your baby"

She brought so much joy to me that I started to cry and flung my arms around her and hugged her with everything in me. This child will help bring the light back into my life and I will do everything to ensure that nothing ever happens to cause harm to it and I may not be perfect but will show them what love is and what true happiness is.

September 6, 2024

It's 7am and I woke up with a start and my heart rate monitor going crazy. I had another nightmare but I don't remember anything that happened in it but I know the man was there to haunt me. I wish I remembered more but I guess the police already know that the man that did this owned the house and that he ran off after he found out I was discovered. He was still out there and he knows where I am and he will be trying to find me one of these days unless he finally gives up on me. He was a man that never backed down so I don't think he will give up so easily and if he wanted me back all he had to do was take me. Aunt Sally is softly snoring in the chair next to my bed and I watch in amazement at the women who took me in without hesitation and even here to support the biggest decision that I had to make at such a young age. She tells me that she wishes that I never had to go through this and she wishes we could trade places but she knows there was nothing that could be done to change the past that's why she's here to help with my future. As I lay there I get this cold feeling that someone Is there watching me but whenever I look around it's only me and Aunt Sally and she's asleep so I just rule it out as my paranoia and try to get some more sleep cause today is a big day.

    She's sleeping so peacefully knowing that she's away from me but I will be there to get her back one day soon but I will wait for the perfect moment to take back what's mine and I will make her pay for ever leaving me in the first place. I watch her from afar knowing that they are looking for me but the enjoyment of knowing that I'm right under their noses and they don't even know it is so much greater than any fear I may get from getting caught. So I sit back but only this much and restrain from walking up beside her to caress her check. She will know how much she means to me one day but it will have to wait. I keep telling myself to wait because I won't have to wait for a while if I play my cards right. Because she will be mine and anyone who stands in my way will have hell to pay.