9“OK, Jordan,”Brady said, leaning toward his husband with a sly smile creeping across his face. “We need the blood to look like ‘oops, I killed my one night stand’ and not ‘my maxi pad overflowed’.”“How am I supposed to know what a maxi pad blowout looks like?” Jordan asked. He planted his feet squarely and crossed his arms over his chest.“Sid?”The two men whirled around to Sidney, standing in the bright sunlight of their loft apartment. Sidney startled at their attention, still holding the spa robe wrapped around her naked body. Brady moved in wild and sweeping gestures while Jordan followed him in methodical and measured steps, gently guiding Brady back to focus.“Well, this got awkward,” she giggled.“Educate us on wayward blood flow,” Brady said, brandishing his camera over the bed.Sidney laughed again and stepped forward to join them.“OK,” she started. “Well, obviously all that blood would originate low. So maybe keep ours up more around the pillows. And lots o
10“Thank you allfor coming.” Sidney’s voice quivered slightly as all eyes found her. Her heart pounded happily at the sight of all the faces crammed into her home. Friendly smiles turned toward her, yet the attention caused her mind to flicker at the same time. She took a deep breath and licked her lips.Her eyes darted around her party, flitting between guests. She had to consciously slip a breath into her speech and slow her focus between each attendee. She stood on the edge of the kitchen, facing out into their dining room. Kendra perched on the first chair, both shoulders facing her, back aligned in effortless posture as always. Amy and Carla squeezed in behind her, Carla absorbing all the color between the two as she compulsively tugged down the hem of a too-short red dress and Amy reclined in plain gray.“We are here tonight to celebrate the launch of my new blog, Final Girl Screaming. All of you are my inner circle, my support system. My lovely roommate, Kendra, who
11“Ithink theonly reason you bring me to this thing is so that I can drive while you play on your phone,” Wes said from the driver’s seat, the jagged mountain edge of the Colorado scenery sliding across the car windows. “I’m not playing. I’m working,” Sidney replied, her eyes still glued to her phone.Wes shot her a glance from behind his sunglasses.“Fine,” Sidney agreed. “I’m mostly working. Playing a little bit.”“Have to keep those stalkers engaged.”“Stalkers and readers. You know these festivals are a huge bump for me.”“Oh, I know.” Wes snaked a piece of licorice out of the bag and snapped it between his teeth. “I would be tweeting too. If I wasn’t, you know, driving you.”“Driving us,” Sidney giggled. She momentarily set her phone down on her lap. “Damn, I’m so excited. Telluride Horror Show is my favorite horror fest.”“Mine too. Not that I’ve been to as many as you.”Wes smiled as he stared out the windshield. Anticipation vibrated between them and fil
12“Holy shit,” Wes exclaimed as they pushed out of the crowded theater and into the crisp mountain night. “Did you see that decapitation?”“Of course I saw that decapitation,” Sidney said, taking long strides to match his excited pace.“It was so slow,” Wes continued. “So visceral. That’s why horror still needs practical effects. CGI couldn’t capture all the textures of flesh and bone and veins that way.”“I agree completely.”“And the way the eyes just sort of twitched and went dead. Amazing. Just amazing!”“So, you liked that one then?” Sidney joked.“Strong start. It was a very strong start.” Wes finally caught up to himself and slowed his steps. “So, now what?”“Oh shit!” Sidney threw her hands up.“What?”“Adam,” she exclaimed. “I haven’t checked my phone.”“You haven’t what? Are you sure you’re OK, Sid?”Sidney playfully shoved at Wes’s shoulder as she extracted her phone from her back pocket. It had snuggled against her so long it left a dent in her flesh. Her anxio
13Sidney peeled herdehydrated eyes open as the early morning sun pierced into her room. As her consciousness surfaced, she felt the thin, uncomfortable wake of all her drinks from the previous night. The high-altitude air she heaved during her run through the dark exacerbated the hangover spreading through her. Her head ached along the back of her forehead, the painful pressure begging her to close her eyes again. When she allowed her eyes to drape shut again, her subconscious swelled over her like a dark flood. Adam emerged first. The feeling of his arms around her through her hoodie, the sweet abrasion of his rough cheek. She dissolved back into that moment as sleep rolled on top of her. The night replayed through her mind until she was back alone on the trail, hearing something large step through the water. She snapped back awake when that something shoved through the branches to get to her.Sidney groaned and dug her fists into her eyes, her heart pulsing through her ear
14Sidney’s hands trembledas she cupped the steaming coffee mug on the breakfast bar in her condo. She gently touched her palms to the mug then retracted as the heat singed the scabs that had hardened there. Exhaustion lay heavily on her muscles, the painful drain of all her flight response adrenaline, yet her mind sprinted in several concurrent and colliding circles. Her thoughts whirled as she stared blankly into the dark liquid in front of her.Her eyes drifted out of focus, her memory assaulting her in staccato bursts. The weight of her attacker climbing up her. Her heartbeat banging so desperately in her ears. The gravel grating against her and digging into her palms as she clawed. The lights of the condo parking lot so far away. She was back in that moment when Wes opened the door, and her arms flinched so hard she nearly spilled the coffee on herself.“Just me,” Wes said, gently.“Was there anything out there?” Sidney said in a shaky voice.Wes answered by holding up
15“Mommy!” Cameron squealed, bounding down the hallway as Aiden opened his front door. Cameron’s smile stretched so wide and so bright that Sidney did not even acknowledge Aiden. He was a doorstop, nothing more.“Mom, you’re back,” Cameron said as he reached her. Sidney let Cameron plow into her midsection and truly felt the tightness in his hug. She didn’t even care to see if Aiden watched. “I missed you,” Cameron said.Sidney could see that he really had. Maybe he had talked to Aiden about how he missed his mom. Maybe he had made Aiden listen to how great she was, for once. Sidney smiled openly in front of her ex-husband for the first time since their marriage had ended. Aiden was mumbling something as Sidney turned, her arm still around Cameron’s shoulders, and walked down the driveway. But she didn’t hear it. She happily shut Cameron’s door behind him and dropped into the driver seat.“How was your trip, Mom?” Cameron said from the backseat. His voice surprised her. The infl
16Adam: Good morning, beautiful.I miss you.Sidney smiled to herself, reading the messages through bleary eyes. She felt relieved to hear from him, to read the affirming words, like an addict getting a fix.She lay on her back in bed as the dawn painted along her ceiling. No alarm waited on her phone since it was the weekend, but she had been watching the light creep into her window, developing the room out of the darkness. The hours had dragged out above her. She had counted the seconds tick off as her mind refused to plunge into sleep, as her brain flexed hyperaware of every noise and creak inside and outside her room.Sidney let a heavy, frustrated breath dribble out of her lips and lifted the phone to her face to read Adam’s messages again. She typed I miss you toointo the field then tapped the delete button until it disappeared again. The cursor blinked, mocking her.Sidney ran her fingertips along the vacant sheet beside her. She turned her head to look at the empty