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Chapter 19: Robbie's POV
"Why? Just tell me? Why did you read that?" I ask?
I don't want Sam to know my thoughts. I read her diary back in middle school, and she got pissed. Back then, I wanted to know what was going on with her. Then, she would crawl into my bed in the middle of the night. I didn't question it. I just knew she needed someone to hold her as she cried.
Her parents fought over the little things, food and money mostly. Her father tried to make her mother change her diet. It didn't end well. Well, intentions led to fights, arguing, and rumors of a divorce. The worst it got, the more I held Sam. I would hold her as the nightmares consumed her. That's when I fell for her. I didn't get to act on it until prom night. It was easier being friends. It was safer for both of us. If we meant something to each other, it would mean I couldn't hold her when she was scared.
"Because...I...love you," Sam says as her eyes find mine. She wasn't supposed to fall for me. I have Missy now, and
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