Chapter 2

Kate

This is me Kate Evans wife of Samuel Evans. Last month I have turned thirty and turning thirty was a bit overwhelming and emotional. You are busy working, learning, surviving and most importantly doing what you need to do instead of doing what to want to do, life passes by.

As they say, time doesn't wait for no one. Guess what, it is right. You know where you are going, you have planned it, worked hard for it and just like that one day you don't. You don't know where you are going or where you are supposed to be going. It just feels like a mess and life seems to be in chaos.

I am a grown up, mature woman who is has the job she wanted and the man she loved but still it seems like something is missing. I am sure I have done everything right, been a good daughter to my parents, a good sister to my siblings and a good girl as a kid, sincere in studies and kind to others. Even if not always right, tried to be right as much as possible that is being good to others and myself as well.

But life isn't right, it is messy and it plays with you in unfair ways. 

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Lately my marriage life isn't going as smooth as it used to. I don't know what changed but there is some bitterness to the relationship. He is still the same and I am as I used to be but things changed around lately. 

We are talking less, arguing more. Every small thing we have to argue and then later on apologize to each other. It maybe because the relationship has become to monotonous and there is no interest left or maybe we are bored. 

I don't know if married people face this phase in life because it's been too tough and overwhelming for me. I have turned thirty recently and I don't know it changed me, everything else what I have done and achieved doesn't matter all I want is a child. I want my child. 

It is one of the reasons Samuel and me have been arguing, I want Samuel to try harder for a child while he is just being ignorant and careless about it. He thinks there is still time and we can have baby later on also while I am desperate for a child.

I think having children will make our marriage more exciting and lively, while we will have some one to come home to, even though we are there for each other but still it would be better if we have a child and it's not like we are young and not ready for children.

Today is our fifth wedding anniversary and Samuel have decided to The Mallz, it is one of the few places where we have lots of memories. We used to hang out there a lot when younger. It was a great place and I was really happy.

I decided to wear something bright and colourful for the occasion, like old times. I choose for bright red  sleevless dress, it was body fitted reaching mid thigh. It was beautifully hugging my body like a second skin. I love the feel to the dress. It made me felt confident and empowering.

I chose light make up with smoky eyes and nude lipstick. I curled my hair and spent time taking care of other things. I want today to be memorable and restart our life with the sweetness. 

I finally looked myself in the mirror before going to the restaurant, I was looking pretty well. It felt good and I purposely wore this dress because it is one of Samuel's favourite colour. He won't be able to keep his hands off me.

It was my way of sparking the flame of desire that was somewhere lost along the way. We took each other for granted and forgot what it was like to make someone feel special. Sex life has been decent, simple and sweet. I wanted to make it a bit more exciting and interesting. I want him to remember the wild time we spent together being young and crazy.

I was really happy leaving for the restaurant, I wanted to make it work between us and maybe start trying for child. I was waiting for him ordered a drink, playing with the earrings, I was expecting Samuel to show up atleast today at the restaurant. I waited for him for almost an hour and finally lost it.

I totally lost it and called Samuel to find out he was still at the office making petty excuses. I can't believe him, he stood me up on our anniversary. He could have atleast called or texted me. Here I am waiting for him like a stupid, wanting to work and save our relationship work and he just totally forgot it. He has been avoiding me lately but this is just too much. I am his wife and he needs to take care of my needs. He can't just ignore and make poor excuses.

I don't know if he is bored of me or is not interested in me, I am not sure if he really wants this relationship or to work it out between us. I wonder if he is seeing someone or maybe having an affair. I know I am being ridiculous with my reasoning but lately something has been off. I don't know if it's the sex because we are having sex very little to none. I don't know if he is getting it done somewhere else. I am just tired of everything happening lately because I am feeling ignored by the only person I love.

"I am done with you," I shouted on the call and hanged up on him. I was super pissed and ignored the people glancing my way like I am some lunatic, crazy bitch.

"Fuck you all," I shouted angrily and flipped my fingers at the ones glancing my way and left the place. 

I didn't know where I was going and just kept on moving until my feet were hurting. I was crying, tears flowing freely from my eyes. I stood there crying for some time and then stopped a cab, telling him to take me to a nearby bar.

I was pissed and angry and hurt and sad and didn't wanted to go home, so I decided to enjoy on my own. I won't wallow up in my own misery, I will enjoy the day. I don't need any Samuel to make me happy.

I was standing before a night club, don't know where in the town. I never knew about this place and the crowd that comes here but since I was super pissed and angry I decided to go in ignoring my rational and logical side. I will have fun with or without Samuel, l don't need any man.

It was huge from the inside, if you see from outside it may seem a regular kind of club but this one was different. It was lavish and exquisite from within, I don't know the things that go on in here.

It wasn't much crowded or teenagers throwing up. The people here were minding their own business. Some were playing cards, pool and other things I couldn't understand. I saw people having discussion or something, it kinda felt like a uhh... I don't know what it is called but it certainly is different.

I didn't bothered myself much over it and went to the bar section ordering drinks, I had quite a few until I was a bit tipsy. I saw people dancing at the dancing with loud music and stuff, I just want to loosen up a bit. I had a few more drinks and went straight to the dance floor.

I guy was dancing with a woman wearing slutty dress with little to none clothing dangling on her while the man was rubbing himself closely on her. The woman pressed herself harder against the man while another man held her ass from behind joining the two. 

The three of them dancing closely, letting themselves flow with the music and rhythm. All of them in their own zone enjoying themselves.

I like their free and wild side. I went up and started flowing freely with the music letting myself loosen up. I was dancing closely with them rubbing myself when the girl left the dance floor for a drink and I was alone dancing with two guys, in between them. They inches closer rubbing their hands over my body reeking of alcohol. 

Letting them continue, one of the guys squeezed my ass while the other was dancing, kneading my breasts with his hands. I was a bit too drunk to stop their brazen groping. I was dancing to the music and they continued their assault.

I didn't realize what was happening until a guy, I couldn't figure out his face as it was getting blurry for me to recognise faces. He pulled me towards a quite corner of the club, pressing myself hard against the wall and in between him.

"Who.. who are... you..?" I stuttered asking the stranger about his identity.

"It's not important," he said in a hard and husky voice. The voice alone sending chills down my spine.

"You are a fine piece," he said staring me up and down making a growling sound.

"Leave.. I.. said.. leave me.." I said whispering and stuttering to the man.

He kissed the side of my lips and started giving wet sloppy kisses on my jaw and then continued kissing my neck and on shoulder. He found a sensitive spot on the crook of my neck and started licking and biting. I didn't intend to but I moaned at the sensation.

He was smirking in response and continued his groping, he was palming my breasts in his hands and slightly moved my dress downwards so that my breasts were bare for him. The cold chilly air hardening my mind, he licked and started sucking one of them.

I didn't wanted it but it felt good, it was so wrong and right at the same time. I am drunk and unable to think rationally what is about to happen next.