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11 / 7 / 2021
Rock-bottom
/rɒkˈbɒtəm/
at the lowest possible level.
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11 / 7 / 2021
Rock bottom…
A place everyone is bond to end up at , at least once in their life. It is a cold dark place where everything is black and white , time feels like it is stopped . Your body feels like it’s paralyzed , no matter how hard to try to pry yourself from under the sheets it feels like you glued to the bed. No matter how hard to try to keep a positive mindset , that one fucking dark cloud hovers over your head – constantly allowing you to feel it’s down pour as it constantly rains negativity , pain and tough times on you.
Some days you are willing to fight back , you wake up feeling like you have it al
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