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 I throw my head back , my short black hair whips through the air – not as elegant as the models do on television , but just sexy enough to make bite his lip and groan at the sight. I lean back into soft fabric , my back arching. The back seat of his white Toyota Tazz , a place I have become very familiar with over the last 3 weeks – is scattered with clothes , shoes and , of course – cum. My head falls back and are comforted with the cotton fabric that covers his seats. I swear I hear a car go by but I cannot be to sure as I am trying to catch my breath. I suck in air , trying to make up for all the air that I had missed out on. My breathing is hoarse but nevertheless , it seems to be going back to normal. I am so concentrated on getting my breathing in order that I do not realize that my eyes are leaking due to having a bad gag reflex and my mouth…is a mess. Spit and the mixture of his cum slowly drips and drags down the side of m

 It’s been exactly one week since I have last saw him. It has been one whole long week since I had the pleasure to lay my eyes on his perfect form and being ; one whole entire week of nothing but misery….and discovery.The tiny crystal drops gently fall onto my head , sinking down below finding my scalp. I feel as it tinkles down my scalp , leaving a trail of cold kisses – making me shiver from it gentle yet affective feel. Raising my face to the high heavens , I feel the rain showering my face. This feels good….My heart begins to grow heavier and heavier as each tiny drop covers my once dry self. Though a smile has appeared onto my lips , my heart bleeds. I smile at the fact that though I am bleeding on the inside , the weather takes my side by resembling my bleeding heart and soul and showers me.Why am I standing in the rain , when I could easily wait inside the gym?Well….I am waiting for someone

Addiction /əˈdɪkʃ(ə)n/The fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance or activity. ___________________________________________________________________________9 / 7 / 2021Addiction….We all have some type of addiction in this world ; from drugs to harmless addictions to bowl of noodles , nevertheless they are addictions. Some are much more serve than others , and… the wonderful thing is that it is visible to any passerby.   I say it is wonderful because the person gains support – an alcoholic will gain support from passerby or family members while be vomits up his breakfast. They support them , they identify the person’s addiction and pushes them to get treatment. But…. What about women who has an addiction to men please , who are addicted to being used , who are addicted to be treated le

Rock-bottom/rɒkˈbɒtəm/at the lowest possible level.___________________________________________________________________________11  /  7  /   2021 Rock bottom… A place everyone is bond to end up at , at least once in their life. It is a cold dark place where everything is black and white , time feels like it is stopped . Your body feels like it’s paralyzed , no matter how hard to try to pry yourself from under the sheets it feels like you glued to the bed. No matter how hard to try to keep a positive mindset , that one fucking dark cloud hovers over your head – constantly allowing you to feel it’s down pour as it constantly rains negativity , pain and tough times on you.   Some days you are willing to fight back , you wake up feeling like you have it al

Frisson/ˈfriːsã,ˈfrɪsɒn/ a sudden strong feeling of excitement or fear; a thrill."a frisson of excitement"___________________________________________________________________  10  /  08  /  2021 It’s the fear for me. It’s that feeling of fear running through your veins ; the kind of fear that makes you want to giggle randomly or bite down hard on your bottom lip. It’s about knowing the consequences but getting lost in the thrill ; it’s about risking it all for a few seconds of imitation heaven. It’s the fear that gets me hungry , it’s the fear that attracts my interest. Oh , how safe I would be if I did not constantly throw myself into the arms of the beasts that roam the earth. Oh,&nbs