Chapter 11 - Chris

It’s getting closer to the time that we have to leave and I’m not sure how to handle it. How can you get this attached to someone in less than 24 hours? How can you yearn for someone who knows so little about your actual day to day life, but you feel like they know you better than anyone? How do you leave behind the person that you feel this kind of deep connection with?

Because I’m struggling with it. Hard.

There have been so many times over the last few hours that I want to say, “Fuck it!” and tell him exactly who I am. To have him come home and stay there with me, build a life with me. Because I can see it so clearly. I can see the happiness that we could give each other.

But that isn’t fair. To so many people that isn’t fair. Esteban turns 21 in a few days and still hasn’t found his mate. What if she’s out there, just waiting for him? What if my mate is waiting for me back home? That’s three other people that would be unfairly affected by my choice to selfishly k