“Is it now, dolcezza?”
Matteo Ricci. I can't be mistaken. He looked at me the same way he looked at me three years ago. I didn't recognize him.
He’d gotten bigger. Broader. His black shirt hangtightly to his chest. Which made his muscles more visible. His arms had new tattoos. His jaw more defined and beard trimmed tighter. But behind that scary form, he stood in front of me full of regret
He put his helmet on the counter top beside him. When I sensed him about to move forward, I quickly picked up the wrench I droped earlier and grabbed it tightly.
“Don’t you dare.” I warned and raised the wrench. He stopped mid way. “Don’t even think about it.” I repeated.
But he took another step. Then one more. He was only six feet away now.
“Baby—”
“What are you doing here?” I cut him off, voice louder, sharper, more deseperate.
His brows furrowed like it physically hurt him to hear me speak to him like that. “I just wanna talk. Please?”
“There’s nothing to explain.” I snapped at him. “I have a new life now. A quiet one.”
He stepped forward again, and I backed away. His eyes softened. “Dolcezza…”
“Don’t call me like that as if you didn't *cheated* on me.” I said with a heart pounding.
“I am sorry,” he said, voice hoarse. “I thought I lost you. I was angry. I was stupid. I paid the price of that, dolcezza, when I lost you.”
I shook my head. “You don’t get to walk back in here and say sorry and think that’ll fix... everything.”
He reached out his hand. “Please, just listen. I never stopped loving you.”
“Don’t!” I screamed while stepping backwards
I did what my fear demanded. I swung the wrench. He moved quickly and shielding himself using his arm. He hit the ground and he winced in pain. I didn’t even know if I hit his head or not. God!
My body moved on instinct, I dropped the wrench. I ran past him through the back of the shop. My keys were already in my apron pocket so I quickly drove off with my pick up truck. Thank god.
Don’t look back, Giuli.
But even as I left him behind. A part of my heart felt like it had just broken it all over again.
When I arrive at my house I went straight to my Sofia's bedroom. She just got to sleep after Signora Rossi read her a bedtime story.
I sat down at the other side of the bed. I brushed a few of Sofia's dark hair on her forehead. I smiled seeing her comfortably sleep. My baby girl.
“I’m sorry." I whispered to Sofia. “Something happened at the shop.” I said and looked at Signora Rossi.
“Why? What's wrong?” she asked. Her tone full of concern.
My fingers stopped caressing Sofia's hair before speaking. “It's Sofia’s father.” I began. My voice low and shaky. “He found me.”
“How is that even possible? I was careful, I even changed my name. Our peaceful life is all gone in a blink because he stepped into my shop.”
She looked at me with brows furrowed like nothings making any sense.
“My real name… it’s not Diana.” I looked at Signora Rossi before continuing. “It’s Giuliana Bianchi.”
There. I said it.
Daughter of the Bianchi family. An heir to an empire of guns, drugs, and fear. But Signora Rossi didn’t blink. Now, I’m the confused one.
“I know." she said calmly. She setts her tea cup on the table beside her..
I stared at her. “What?”
“I’ve known since you moved here.” She smiled gently. “We all have.”
My heart skipped. “We all have? What do you mean, you all have?”
“I’m sorry, dear. But I can't tell you that now. Soon. I promise.” She said calmly, like it was obvious or something.
“I don't understand. How is this even possible?” I asked, voice breaking.
“We saw who you were with your daughter. You wanted to start a new life. We respected that and gave you that,” she said, finally calling me by my real name. “Soon. You’ll know why we did that.”
I swallowed, taken aback. “I—I don’t even know what to say…”
“You’ve earned this life. Not because you ran, but because you chose to build something better than the world you came from. We see that. Sofia sees that.”
Tears welled in my eyes, and I turned away, ashamed of the relief pouring through me.
“But I'm tired. Tired of running away from her father. Matteo—”
“No—wait,” she said quickly, lifting her hand. Her eyes darted to the floor, then back to mine. “It might not be… Never mind.”
I narrowed my eyes. “What? What do you mean might not be? Who did you think I was talking about?”
She hesitated. “Nothing, dear. I just thought maybe you meant someone else. Matteo Ricci. But… never mind.”
Her voice dropped on the last word like it burned her mouth.
“Yes. It is Matteo Ricci.” I said, confused.
She gasped softly, hand flying to her chest. “Oh my god,”
“You know him?” I asked
“My brother… Franco. He’s part of Matteo’s biker gang,” she admitted. “The Diavoli Scuri Motor Club. That man… he’s not the type to give up once he sets his eyes on something.” I nodded and listened. Somehow realizing she's right.
“Giuliana… you need to listen to me. Now that he knows where you are, he won’t stop. Especially once he finds out the truth.”
My heart beats uncontrollably. “Sofia's condition.” she said gently.
“I doubt he gives a care about us.” I said quietly.
She gave me a look so fierce like I know there's an obvious answer to my question.
“Giuliana, that man would move heaven and hell if it meant saving his little girl. That’s the kind of man he is."
I felt my heart beating rapidly again after remembering the look he gave me. It scared me. It was no ordinary look. He looked at me with full need.
“He has every right to take his daughter.” Signora Rossa added. She was right. After all, Sofia is still an heir to both different empires. And if Matteo finds out about her, I'm sure he'll take Sofia. Leaving me with no choice but to come too.
Eventually, even after my encounter with Matteo last night i did fell asleep at some point when I felt like I couldn't thinking it was indeed a long night. I gently woke up as the sun peeked through the curtain. As my eyes open, I saw Matteo's face rather than the ceiling. He was staring at me. Is this another dream? And then that's when I realized he was actually beside me in the bed. He was staring at my face as if he's memorizing my features. "Morning, dolcezza." he greeted. I immediately sat up and gave the both of us some space. He was too close. TOO CLOSE ON MY FACE! I felt my cheeks burning up as I look away from him trying to avoid his gaze. His eyes then dropped to what I was wearing. My brows furrowed and I was confused. I looked down at my body, and then I realized that the straps of the night gown fell on my shoulder. With nothing to hold onto, the dress slipped a little from my chest almost revealing my breasts. I awkwardly fix my dress. "I already saw that, dolce
I wasn’t going to play along. Not yet. I didn’t care how soft the sheets on my bed now felt like beneath me. Or how the food on the tray still smelled freshly cooked as if made just moments ago. He could paint this like some weird twisted version of love but there’s only one thing how I see this room. A prison. I sat at the small table near the window that obviously had bars. I haven’t touch the food he left me. It went cold now but still smells good. But the fact that I don’t know how many hours had I been here stopped me from touching it. My fingers stayed curled on my lap and my shoulders burned with tension. I am worried about Sofia. My baby. I know she couldn’t handle being away from me for too long. She would always cry to Signora Rossa whenever I have to take an overtime at the bike shop. What if she’s crying now? What if something happens to her heart? Those are the questions that bothered me and made the sting reached the back of my eyes. I want to cry right now. But I
Giuli left the clubhouse without even bothering to at lease glance at me. Just the sound of her rubber shoes squeaking against the tiles as she left me standing there. Sofia gave me a farewell wave and it hurted me more than enough not to go after them. But I purposely didn’t call out. I didn’t run after her. I didn’t chase.Not because I didn’t want to.But because something way darker idea popped in my head when I saw her turn her back on me like that again. She made it clear enough that I am nothing to her now. Guess what, dolcezza? You're fucking wrong.I’ve spent nights living in the guilt and hoping to get you back. Now that God gave me a chance, I'm gonna grip on it because you belong to mine. Even if you hate me, Giuli.But she still looked at me. That should meant something.My jaw clenched, and I peeled that woman’s nails off my arm like they were leeches. She squeaked something about me being rude, but I didn’t hear a word. I walked off, my mind already racing ahead of me.
I didn’t speak to Matteo when I left. I didn't even want to glance back at him but Sofia probably did. It's only been a day since she met Matteo and she already has a soft spot for his father.I should’ve expected that woman to pull something like that, and yet it still pissed me off. It irritated me how flirty that woman is. Didn't she saw how Matteo and I were having a talk? The way he didn’t shove her away fast enough to blow my mind. He probably like being treated that way.He really never changed at all. That was the truth.I spent the entire day at the motorbike shop with my mood rotting like week-old fruit. Every bike parts I tightened, every wrench I turned, I imagined Matteo’s face. I should be happy that the sun was hot as fuck and it meant I have more customers since it's not dripping outside. But everything just seemed to be irritating for me.Customers came and went. I tried to force out a smile but that smile never reached my eyes. My usual customers' probably noticed my
For the past three years, I regreted every single thing that I did. And if only I could undo it, I would.The weight of the past felt like a burden to my shoulders while I wipe my bike's side mirror. The hum of the morning wind didn't even help to calm the storm inside me. Giuli’s words kept echoing in my head. It was sharp, clear, and painfully true. I can't blame her if she doesn't want me back. I pushed her away.She was stronger now. And I was the reason she had to be. I shut my eyes and took a deep breath.I remember the scent of her hair everytime the wind blows it while she's riding with me in the road of down town n. How she used to laugh when we go over the speeding limit. That laugh—it was my compass. My lifeline.It’s what kept me sane whenever womens threw themselves at me throughut that three years. Whenever they try to hit on me I always saw Giuli's face instead. I hear her laughter echo in my ears. Her dirty whispers at nights.But I was long gone. And it's all because
It's already past midnight and I'm still awake. Sofia's already on her bed. I had to make her sleep first before I have time for myself.I gulped down a glass of water. Heart still heavy with what happened between me and Matteo. We could never really talk without ending it with me screaming at him.While I was drinking another glass of water, the doorbell rang. Who woulf visit me at this hour?My brows furrowed as I put the glass down and went toward the door. The moment I opened the door, my breath was caught in my throat. Shocked for their unannounced visit. How did they even know I was here me?“Mom…Dad?”My voice cracked.For a second, I didn’t know what to do. I had prepared myself for anger. Accusations. Cold stares. But when my mother opened her arms, I broke dowm. I found myself hugging her tightly.“Shh, baby.” Her hand caressing the back of my head. “We’re here. We're here now.”My Dad’s large hand hugged me and my mom. I hadn’t realized how much I missed the feeling of bein
As soon as Sofia got out of the pick-up truck, I went to her. To my suprise, she hid behind her mommy. I laughed a bit as I knelt down.She looks just like my dolcezza. So beautiful. “Hi there, princess.”She hids even more on her mommy when her little mut escaped her embrace. She probably wants to go after it but she was too shy to even move. Giuli picked up Sofia. “Baby? You remember that stranger this morning? He's your daddy.”Giuli pointed at me, and Sofia sucked her thumb as if she's refusing to believe her mom. My heart ached seeing how Sofia turned away and refusing to look at me.“Giuli—”“Sofia? Look at me, baby. It's not nice to turn away when someone is talking to you.”Tears threatned to leave my eyes as I asked, "Can I carry her?".Carefully, Giuli handed her over to me.She was so light. Too light for a two-year-old. I held her gently. “Hi, sweetheart." “Do you like dogs?” I tried to start a conversation with her. I pointed at Bruno who was wagging his tail nearby. She
The sound of frying eggs and little cute laughs are what makes my morning so productive.“Sofia, don't exhaust yourself.” I warned smilingly after hearing her giggle while playing.Sofia has always been so full of life despite her heart condition. Always trying to live her life like the other childrenI turned the stove on low heat and let the eggs cook gently. I looked over my shoulder and saw Sofia sitting on the floor in her pajama set. She's playing with our mutt, bruno.Sofia giggled louder as the dog barked happily who’s now trying to climb over her little legs. She raised her hands in defense and bruno stck her tongue out to lick her.I couldn’t help but laugh. “Alright, alright.” I wiped my hands quickly and walked over. “Come here, sweetie.” I said and carried her up to my arms.Sofia laughed as I carry her up. “He can’t reach me now." she teased at bruno. The dog barked as if offended.I kissed the side of her head and brought her with me back to the stove. “Alright, sweetie
“Is it now, dolcezza?”Matteo Ricci. I can't be mistaken. He looked at me the same way he looked at me three years ago. I didn't recognize him.He’d gotten bigger. Broader. His black shirt hangtightly to his chest. Which made his muscles more visible. His arms had new tattoos. His jaw more defined and beard trimmed tighter. But behind that scary form, he stood in front of me full of regretHe put his helmet on the counter top beside him. When I sensed him about to move forward, I quickly picked up the wrench I droped earlier and grabbed it tightly.“Don’t you dare.” I warned and raised the wrench. He stopped mid way. “Don’t even think about it.” I repeated.But he took another step. Then one more. He was only six feet away now.“Baby—”“What are you doing here?” I cut him off, voice louder, sharper, more deseperate.His brows furrowed like it physically hurt him to hear me speak to him like that. “I just wanna talk. Please?”“There’s nothing to explain.” I snapped at him. “I have a ne