LOGINARREN.
Kade came in and dropped into the chair across from my desk with the energy of a man who'd aged five years in the last two hours.
"Katerina's taken the boy in," he said. "He's down for the night."
"Good."
He looked like he had more to say about the evening's events. After something like the display some of my pack members just witnessed outside, most people did.
I leaned back, folding my arms across my chest, and let the quiet settle while I turned the whole mess over in my head.
Ellaria finding out about Katerina and her son had not been part of the plan.
In fairness, most things Ellaria did weren't part of any plan I'd made.
She had a talent for that. For showing up exactly where I needed her not to be, with those curious fucking eyes of hers taking in everything.
Half a year ago, Katerina had shown up at my door with a four year old boy on her hip and a story I hadn't seen coming.
She claimed we had a one-night stand. She'd kept it from me, she said, because the timing was bad and she hadn't known how to tell me.I couldn't remember that night if I was being honest.
But I took one look at her son and decided a paternity test was going to be a problem I dealt with later.
Because Dalor was sick.
And his sickness intrigued me.
The patterns and symptoms and notable side effects it was having on him and his wolf... those exact same things happened to my father months before he died.
Every healer in the Eastern Sector had looked at my father and written natural causes on the report and moved on, and I had known from the day I read it that they were wrong. Years of looking and this child was the first thing I had found that felt like a real thread.
I wasn't letting go of it and I wasn't letting anyone near it who didn't need to be.
So I had brought them in, settled them at the pack house, and kept it quiet.
I wasn't taking in a woman I had history with and a child I had no memory of fathering out of sentimentality.
I was following the only solid lead I'd had in two years of looking.
What I had not accounted for was Ellaria walking out of that alcove tonight and straight into the middle of all of it.
I knew Ellaria's faces well enough after almost five years of living with her.
That one was new.
And to protect everything was dire, I had told her to stop making a fuss and walked away with Katerina and the boy.
I couldn't afford the investigation unraveling, and those things were more important than whatever she wanted to say right then.
It was the right call.
I knew it was the right call.
So why in goddess name had it been bothering me since then?
I frowned at the table and made a decision. I'd go home tonight.
Whatever she'd wanted to say, she could say it then.
"Her mother," I said to Cade. "Where are we
"There's been some movement," he said. "But I can’t say we can do much with our new leads. It sucks that she barely remembers much from back then, it would be a big help in at least letting us know if were on the right path, because right now... nothing’s verified.”
"Send more people." I supplied.
"We already have a fair number on it."
"Send more anyway."
He wrote it down without argument, "If this lead doesn't hold, it'll be the third time we've had to walk it back," he said.
Another false start will hit her hard.
I'd watched it happen twice already. I hated seeing her hurt like that.
Telling her we’d lost another lead wasn't something I was interested in sitting across from again.
"Nothing reaches her until it's confirmed," I said. “I don’t want to get my wife’s hopes up.”
Kade nodded, made the note, and then sat there with his pen held loosely and that particular expression he wore when he was deciding whether it was worth it to say the thing he had lingering on his mind.
I raised an eyebrow. "Come out with it."
He set the pen down. "You know your contract expires in three months. I’ve been thinking you should give the Luna some kind of severance package. To keep her afloat you know... forever maybe? You can allocate the main guest house her and give her a monthly salary."
I looked at him.
I hadn’t realized there were only three months left.
For some reason I'd been operating as though that number was still comfortably theoretical. Apparently time had other ideas.
There was suddenly this faint, persistent pressure sitting somewhere in my chest that I couldn't quite account for.
"Find her a few houses," I said. And then I frowned. "Make sure they’re in close proximity to the main pack house."
Kade's pen stopped moving. He looked up at me. "Will... Katerina accept that?"
My brows pulled in, "What does Katerina have to do with where Ellaria lives?"
He held my gaze for a moment, and something in his expression shifted. "I assumed," he said, choosing his words, "that you were ending the contract because you intended to marry Katerina. She's your fated mate. You have a... son together by her account."
I said nothing.
Kade continued, delivering information I for some reason wasn't liking, “By every reasonable measure, she’s really your best option."
He wasn't wrong.
“Handle it as instructed.” I ordered anyway.
He wrote more things down.
He really wasn't wrong.
The fated mate bond existed between Katerina and me even if it had never settled the way it was supposed to.
The child complicated things in ways I was still working through carefully.
Katerina was the logical answer to every practical question, and I had always been a practical man.
The problem was that the logical answer kept arriving at Ellaria and stopping there.
She had filled the role of Luna without being asked twice and handled problems before they became anyone else's concern. The children in that clinic followed her around like she was the warmest thing in every room she walked into.
I noticed her more and more as the years went on.
Fucking hell.
I'd gotten used to her being there.
I got up from my seat, and headed for the door. Realizing something jarring as I went.
I didn't want this marriage to end. And I was going to ask Ellaria if she felt the same way. If she did, then we’d continue as man and wife.
Only this time... it’ll be real.
ARREN.She wasn't budging.I could see it in the way she was standing, completely shut off from me, and I knew that if I didn't do something different right now she was going to walk out of this room. And I was never going to get her back.I looked at her and felt something sit heavy in my chest.She had been in pain for so long and I hadn't once stopped to ask myself if I was right. She had stood in front of me and told me the truth and I had decided she was lying because it was easier than the alternative.I wanted to put my fist through something.But that wasn't going to keep her here so I pushed it down and tried to think."You're not well enough to leave." I kept my voice level. "Your body just went through something serious and you have no wolf and no pack clearance. You know what that means out there." I watched her face. "I'm not saying it to keep you here. I'm saying it because it's true."She didn't respond."I want to offer you another contract." I said it carefully. "Thr
ELLARIA.I hadn't seen him since he walked away with Katerina on the porch. And now he was standing in the doorway of my clinic room like he had any right to be here at all."Mirela." He didn't even look at her. He was looking at me. "Give us a minute."I grabbed Mirela's hand so fast I probably hurt her.She didn't pull away. She squeezed back and stayed exactly where she was and I could have cried just from that.Then Arren looked at her. Really looked at her, with the full weight of what he was behind it. An alpha. "I gave you a direct order."Mirela's whole face tightened. She turned to me and she mouthed ‘I'm so sorry’ like she meant every letter of it. She squeezed my hand one last time, stood up, and said quietly, "I'm right outside that door." She said it loud enough for him to hear.I made myself let go, and then she walked out, leaving us alone.Arren took a step toward me and I got up and moved to the other side of the room without thinking. My body just did it. I needed
ELLARIA.Mirela was wringing her hands.I noticed it the moment she walked in. She was standing in the doorway watching me fold my coat into my bag and her hands were twisting around each other the way they did when she had something to say that she knew I wasn't going to want to hear."What," I said."This is a bad idea."I kept folding. "Help me or don't. But I'm leaving.""Ellaria." She came further into the room. "I need you to listen to me for a second.""I've been listening all day." I picked up my things from the bedside table. "I'm done listening. I want to go.""You can't just go." She stepped in front of me. "That's what I'm trying to tell you. You're a pack member, and not just a regular one. You're the Luna. You can't leave without Arren's permission or you become a rogue."I looked at her and let her say her piece."No pack will take you in," she said. "Not without papers. Not without clearance from your Alpha. You'd be completely alone out there with no wolf and no prote
ARREN.Katerina's wound wasn't deep.The clinic staff cleaned and wrapped it. The whole thing took twenty minutes, and I stood by the window the entire time with my hands in my pockets and my mind somewhere else entirely.When they were done I drove her home.She invited me in and I went because it was easier than standing on the doorstep and having the conversation that would happen if I didn't. Her place was warm and she moved through it with the ease of someone who had already decided how the day was going to go.She turned around gave me her most practiced, sultry look as she lowered herself on her leather arm chair, exposing enough skin that would have made another man fall at her feet.Sensing what was coming, I warned, "Katerina.""You've been so stressed." She got up suddenly and crossed toward me, trailing a long red fingernail down my chest. "You don't have to be. I can take care of you, you know?""Get some rest," I said. “You were hurt.”She faltered, but she didn’t back
ELLARIA.The twins were gone.I pressed both hands against my stomach and the sound that came out of me didn't feel like mine. I curled onto my side and sobbed hard, somewhere in the middle of it Mirela climbed onto the bed behind me and held on. I let her, knowing I had nothing and no one else. When the worst of it had passed, I was completely empty."It's going to be okay," she said.I stared at the wall. "Where's Arren."She went quiet for a second. "He's... with Katerina."I nodded slowly.I lay there breathing, lost in all the ways I could have done better. After a while I said, "I should have protected them.""Ellaria—""I didn't though." My throat was raw. "I couldn't even do that one thing." I pressed my hands back against my stomach. "It’s just like... how I killed my mother,” I buried my face into my pillow. “I don't know why I keep expecting things to be different."Mirela sat up. "What do you mean you killed your mother.?"I shook my head."What do you mean," she said ag
ELLARIA.I tried to speak.My mouth was opening but nothing came out. The pain in my abdomen had taken everything as well as my ability to think properly. My body was practically flat on the floor with both hands pressed to my stomach as I tried to breathe through it.All I could think about was what she had put in that bottle.And what it was doing to me when I heard her hysterical cries across from me. "She attacked me." Her voice broke on cue. "Arren, I came to check on her and she just flew at me. What the hell happened to her, Arren? She used to be so kind to people."I tried to defend myself but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do anything because it was taking everything in me to keep myself from passing out. Arren's footsteps crossed the porch. I looked up at him and tried to get him to see me, really see me. My hands were still pressed to my stomach, and I needed him to look at my face and understand what had just happened here. He ignored Katerina’s guards. But he didn’t look at







