MasukJasmine
I stood across the street from a renovated warehouse building in Lower Manhattan, staring at the address on my phone for what had to be the tenth time. This was it. Professor Jackson’s studio. My fingers tightened around the strap of my bag as I looked up at the building again. It was the kind of place that belonged in an architecture magazine—all exposed brick, industrial windows, and black steel framing. Quiet, expensive, and intimidating. Not at all what I’d imagined. Every instinct was telling me to turn around and leave before I made an even bigger mess of my life. For a moment, I seriously considered it. I could walk away right now. Go back to campus. Pretend this arrangement had never happened and hope Professor Jackson eventually lost interest. The thought lasted all of three seconds, then a laugh slipped from my lips as reality settled heavily in my chest. He wasn’t going to lose interest. And I couldn’t afford to take that risk. One rumor was all it would take—one accusation. The scholarship committee wouldn’t care that I’d been drunk, or that I hadn’t known who he was when I went home with him. They wouldn’t care about explanations. They would only see a student involved with her professor, and everything I’d spent years working toward could disappear overnight. My throat tightened as I thought about my mother picking up extra shifts whenever money got tight. About every application I’d filled out, every exam I’d pushed myself through, every sacrifice it had taken to get here. Then, because apparently my night wasn’t miserable enough already, my mind drifted to Jason. I saw him exactly as I’d seen him that day—his hand on my best friend’s waist, the guilt flashing across his face when he’d realized I’d caught them. The memory hit like a bruise. If he hadn’t cheated, I wouldn’t be here. If he hadn’t broken my heart, I never would have walked into that bar. And if I hadn’t walked into that bar, none of this would have happened. I closed my eyes briefly and released a slow breath before looking back at the building. Every instinct I had screamed at me to turn around and leave, but I kept walking anyway. By the time I reached the entrance of the building, my stomach had twisted into knots. The front door wasn’t locked. Neither was the elevator. I wasn’t sure why that bothered me, but it did. The ride to the fourth floor felt far too quick. When the doors slid open, I found myself staring down a quiet hallway with only one door at the end of it. My pulse picked up as I approached. The handle turned the moment I touched it. Unlocked. As if he had known I would come. The thought irritated me more than it should have. I pushed the door open and stepped inside, only for every expectation I had to dissolve almost immediately. The studio wasn’t what I had imagined. I had expected something dark and uncomfortable. Something that would confirm every terrible thing I’d thought about Professor Jackson since the day he made his offer. Instead, the space felt strangely lived-in. The studio stretched across most of the floor, with exposed brick walls, enormous windows overlooking the city, and wooden floors worn smooth with age. Warm lamps cast pools of golden light throughout the room, softening the industrial edges of the space. Books were stacked on shelves and tables. Covered canvases stood against the walls. Some sketches lay scattered across work surfaces. The faint scent of charcoal lingered in the air beneath the smell of fresh coffee. And somehow, that unsettled me far more than if the place had matched my worst expectations. “You’re late.” I jumped slightly and turned toward the voice. Professor Jackson stood near one of the windows. Without the lecture hall and the suit, he looked different. More relaxed. More dangerous. He wore dark trousers and a black sweater with the sleeves pushed up to his forearms. The city lights spilled through the windows behind him, outlining his broad frame in shadow. For a moment, seeing him here instead of in a classroom felt oddly disorienting. My pulse stumbled. “By three minutes,” I said, crossing my arms defiantly. One corner of his mouth lifted. “Still late.” I rolled my eyes, grateful for the familiar irritation. It gave me something to focus on besides the nervous energy twisting inside me. He crossed the room slowly. The closer he got, the more aware I became of him. His height. His poise. The steady way he looked at people, as though nothing could rush him. “You came.” I shrugged. “I didn’t have much choice.” A flicker of emotion swept across his face before disappearing. “Fair enough.” I shifted uncomfortably. “Can we just get this over with?” His gaze lingered on me for a moment, then he nodded. “Follow me.” I trailed after him deeper into the studio. The farther we walked, the more artwork I noticed. Sketches. Portraits. Some were finished, while others had been abandoned halfway through. I frowned. “You still paint.” He glanced over his shoulder. “I do.” “I thought you quit.” “So did everyone else.” That answer only raised more questions, ones I had no business asking—yet somehow, I wanted to. Which was dangerous. Curiosity had never been my friend. We stopped near a large open workspace. A raised platform stood beneath several overhead lights. The sight of it made my stomach tighten. Reality was suddenly impossible to ignore. This wasn’t a conversation anymore or a threat hanging over my head. This was real. Professor Jackson folded his arms. “Before we begin, there are rules.” I swallowed. “Three months,” he said. “Sessions happen here. Whatever happens in this studio stays in this studio.” The words settled heavily between us. “No discussion outside these walls.” I looked away first. “Fine.” “And during sessions...” he continued, his voice lowering slightly. “...I need your trust.” I looked back at him. Trust. The word felt almost laughable. A humorless smile tugged at my mouth. “You blackmailed me into being here, and you need me to trust you?” His expression remained frustratingly calm. “And yet I still need your trust. Yes.” I hated how reasonable he sounded. I hated it even more because he wasn’t behaving the way I’d expected. No smug threats. No obvious satisfaction. Just professionalism. It should have made me feel better. But instead, it made me more uneasy because I couldn’t figure him out. My gaze drifted toward him. He was adjusting one of the overhead lights, completely focused on the task. Calm. Unbothered. As if none of this was strange. Maybe he felt my stare because he looked up suddenly. Our eyes met, and something shifted in his expression. “You can still leave,” he said, the words catching me off guard. “You can walk out that door.” A bitter laugh almost escaped me. We both knew that wasn’t true. Then he turned away and adjusted the light above the platform. The bright beam spilled across the space, sending a nervous shiver through me. “First sessions are always the hardest,” Professor Jackson said quietly. His expression was composed, unreadable. For some reason, that made me more nervous. My fingers tightened around the strap of my bag. This was really happening. There would be no more delaying it. No more pretending it wasn’t real. Professor Jackson held my gaze for a moment before speaking. “Take off your clothes, Jasmine.” There was no cruelty in his voice. If anything, it sounded disturbingly close to reverence. My breath caught. And everything inside me froze. Despite the embarrassment threatening to choke me, I slowly reached for the zipper of my dress.JasmineThe sound of charcoal scraping across paper was the only thing breaking the silence.The noise seemed louder than it should have been, echoing through the studio while I stood under the overhead lights, trying very hard not to think about the fact that I was standing in the middle of a stranger’s workspace wearing far less than I was comfortable with.My arms were rigid at my sides, my shoulders feeling locked in place. Every muscle in my body had been tense from the moment the session began.He hadn’t said much since positioning me beneath the lights. There were no inappropriate comments, no smug reminders, and no attempts to make me uncomfortable.The only sounds in the room were the scratch of charcoal against paper and the occasional creak of the wooden floor when he shifted his weight.It should have made things easier.Instead, it unsettled me more because nothing about this matched the version of him I’d built inside my head. It would have been easier if he’d acted like
JasmineI stood across the street from a renovated warehouse building in Lower Manhattan, staring at the address on my phone for what had to be the tenth time.This was it.Professor Jackson’s studio.My fingers tightened around the strap of my bag as I looked up at the building again. It was the kind of place that belonged in an architecture magazine—all exposed brick, industrial windows, and black steel framing. Quiet, expensive, and intimidating.Not at all what I’d imagined.Every instinct was telling me to turn around and leave before I made an even bigger mess of my life.For a moment, I seriously considered it.I could walk away right now. Go back to campus. Pretend this arrangement had never happened and hope Professor Jackson eventually lost interest.The thought lasted all of three seconds, then a laugh slipped from my lips as reality settled heavily in my chest.He wasn’t going to lose interest. And I couldn’t afford to take that risk.One rumor was all it would take—one ac
JasmineI scoffed.Of course.“A proposition?” I repeated coldly. “You’re a professor. If this gets out, you could lose your job too.”His expression barely changed.“True.”He stood slowly from his chair, the movement alone shifting the air between us.“But I can get another position elsewhere,” he said calmly. “I’m a professor, Miss Buston.”He stopped a few feet away, his gaze dropping briefly to the scholarship badge attached to my bag.“But you?” he continued quietly. “You’re a scholarship student from a poor background. Lose that, and then what happens?”Every word landed precisely where it hurt most. My jaw tightened instantly, humiliation burning inside me because I knew he was right—he knew, and I hated him for it.“What do you want?” I asked. “I’m guessing you want something in return.”He nodded stiffly before closing the distance between us.“I want you to model for me, for a private art series,” he said, his gaze locked with mine. “Nude.”My entire body went rigid.“What
JasmineSomething about Professor Jackson had been bothering me for the entire lecture.It wasn’t just that he was attractive. That much was obvious.It was the strange sense of familiarity that kept tugging at me whenever he spoke.Every time his voice rolled through the lecture hall, something in the back of my mind stirred, as if I were reaching for a memory that refused to come into focus.It was ridiculous.I had never met this man before—I was sure of it.A face like his wasn’t forgettable. Still, whenever his gaze swept across the room, my pulse would trip over itself before settling again.By the time class ended, I had convinced myself it was nothing more than a coincidence.Then he looked directly at me.“Miss Buston.”My head snapped up. The hall was already beginning to empty.“Yes, Professor?”His expression remained unreadable.“To my office, please.”My stomach dropped.Around me, students continued filing toward the exits. Ari shot me a sympathetic look that immediatel
JasmineThe pounding in my head woke me before my alarm did.For several seconds, I lay perfectly still, my eyes closed against the sunlight filtering through the curtains. The brightness felt cruel, pressing insistently against my eyelids while a dull ache pulsed behind them.Every part of me felt heavy, as if someone had replaced my bones with lead during the night.A low groan escaped me.Something wasn’t right.The mattress beneath me felt unfamiliar. The air smelled wrong. Even the silence felt different.My eyes opened slowly. The unfamiliar room came into focus piece by piece. Dark walls, a black dresser, and a chair in the corner with my dress thrown carelessly over it.My brow furrowed in confusion before understanding slammed into my chest all at once.This wasn’t my room.I pushed myself upright too quickly and immediately regretted it.“Fuck.” I winced.The room tilted violently, sending a fresh wave of nausea through me. A low groan escaped me as I pressed my fingers agai
JasmineThe bass from the speakers thudded against my ribs hard enough to feel like another heartbeat.Or maybe that was just the alcohol.I sat hunched over the bar, a half-empty shot glass in my hand, my fifth shot of the night. At that moment, the bar felt like a safe space.Even though it smelled like whiskey, sweaty bodies, and a mix of different perfumes, it still felt better than going home.Home meant silence.It meant my bed.It meant crying until morning with Jason’s groans trapped in my head and the image of Mia’s hands all over him every time I closed my eyes.I lifted two fingers toward the bartender.“Another.”The glass in front of me disappeared, and another one replaced it almost immediately. I stared at the liquid for a second before lifting it to my lips. The drink went down my throat in one gulp, sharp enough to make my eyes water.At least this pain made sense.Because none of the rest of it did.Three years.Three years of believing I’d found the person I was goi







