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~Bonnie
"Happy 21st birthday, Bon Bon!" Mum screamed happily, balancing a cake in her hands as I stepped out of my room, already dressed for school. I'd completely forgotten it was my birthday. I blew out the candle, leaned in, and kissed her cheek. "Thanks so much, Mum. I'll see you later, I'm late for school." I turned toward the door. "Just like that? You're not going to cut the cake or show a little excitement? It's your birthday!" Her voice caught, half teasing, half hurt. "And I've got you a gift. Wait right here." She dashed upstairs and returned with a big wrapped box, eyes bright. I stopped, chest tight. "I'm sorry, Mum, but I'm not taking any gift from you right now. If there's any gift I want, it's for you to get a husband. I hate seeing you alone. You act like you're okay, like you can handle everything, but you can't." The words tumbled out harsher than I meant. Her face crumpled,sadness flashing before she masked it. "Mum, I'm sorry, I didn't mean…" "No, it's okay." She wiped the tears sliding down her cheeks. "You're right anyway. It's been ten years since your dad left us. Guess it's high time I move on." I crossed the room, pressed a soft kiss to her forehead. "I love you, Mum." Then I left, the weight of her quiet sob following me out. Getting to school early had never been my thing. That changed the moment Professor Marcellus took over our elective, Desire and the Body: Reproduction, Sexuality, and Power in Literature. I used to drag my feet to lectures, but now? I’m always there on time, notebook open, pen ready. Too attentive, maybe. But how could I not be? I’m a 21 year old medical student, grinding through pre clinicals, dreaming of becoming a nurse who actually saves lives, the way I fantasized about since I was small, watching my mum struggle alone, wishing I could fix everything. Reproduction, sexuality, the raw mechanics of bodies, it’s all part of the job I want. One day I’ll be the one explaining fertility options to scared patients, or holding hands through STI diagnoses, or guiding someone through postpartum hell. So yeah, the course matters. But Professor Marcellus? He’s nothing like the professors I’ve heard stories about, the old ones, wrinkled from too many books or too many years, droning on like they’ve forgotten what sunlight feels like. Marcellus is 41 and built like he hits the gym before dawn everyday. Rich looking without trying, tailored shirts, quiet confidence, that subtle neck tattoo peeking when his collar shifts. Hot in a way that feels unfair for a professor. The kind of man who makes you question why academia gets to keep him. I catch myself staring sometimes. Not just at the board, but at him, the way he paces while quoting Ovid on transformation and desire, or how his voice drops low when he talks about power imbalances in ancient texts. It’s clinical, I tell myself. Academic interest. But my pulse says otherwise. The class is small, intimate. We talk openly about the sexual mechanics of reproduction, ovulation cycles in poetry, phallic symbols in myth, the politics of contraception in modern narratives. No one blushes anymore, we’re med students, we’ve dissected cadavers. But when he looks around the room, his eyes linger on me just a second longer than the others. Or maybe I’m imagining it. Either way, I’m hooked. Today’s class wasn’t different. I stared at him the whole time, completely lost in the way he moved, the way his voice wrapped around every word like it was meant only for me. I barely blinked until the lecture ended. As soon as the last student started packing, he turned toward the front row, eyes scanning until they landed on me. “Bonnie,” he said, voice calm. “How do we arrive at a baby foetus?” I stood up, heart thudding. Everyone watched. “Umm… the male ejaculates sperm into the female, and the female egg fertilizes it to form a zygote. Then it develops into an embryo, and eventually a foetus.” The class clapped, like I’d just recited something impressive instead of basic reproductive biology. I felt my cheeks heat. But when I looked at Professor Marcellus, his expression wasn’t pleased. There was something tight around his mouth, a flicker in his eyes I couldn’t place. Not anger, exactly. Disappointment? Irritation? It unsettled me more than the applause did. He cleared his throat, addressing the room. “As I mentioned last week, I’ll be choosing the class head for the remainder of the semester. The role involves organizing notes, coordinating group discussions, and assisting with research materials.” He paused, gaze sliding back to me. “I’m happy to announce that Bonnie has won the spot.” A ripple of murmurs went through the class. Someone whistled low. A few girls shot me quick, envious glances. “So please get your notes in order and meet me in my office in a few minutes,” he added, already turning toward the door. “We’ll discuss your responsibilities.” He walked out without another word, black shirt stretched across his shoulders, the faint outline of that tattoo visible when his collar shifted. Almost everyone swarmed me the second he was gone. “Girl, congrats!” “You killed that answer!” “Head of class? You’re basically his favorite now.” I forced a smile, blushing hard, mumbling thanks while my mind raced. Favorite? The word felt dangerous. I gathered my things quickly, pulse loud in my ears, and headed down the corridor toward his office. The door was ajar when I arrived. I knocked lightly. “Come in,” his voice called from inside. I pushed the door open and stepped into the dimly lit space. Bookshelves lined the walls, heavy with old volumes. A desk lamp cast warm gold across scattered papers and a half empty coffee mug. There was a small leather couch in the corner, and behind the desk, a narrow door I’d never noticed before, maybe leading to a private study or rest area. He was leaning against the edge of the desk, arms crossed, watching me. “Close the door, Bonnie.” I did. The click of the latch sounded too loud. He studied me for a long moment, expression unreadable. “You answered correctly,” he said finally. “Clinically accurate. Textbook.” I nodded, unsure why it felt like a criticism. “It’s okay,” he said quietly. “You can go. That’s all for today.” I nodded once, put the folder down on the edge of his desk, and started for the door. “Bonnie.” I turned back, swallowing hard. He was smiling now, small, almost soft. “Happy birthday.” The words hit me like a sudden wave. My eyes stung instantly, throat tight. I hadn’t expected it, not from him at all. He reached into his desk drawer and pulled out a small carton wrapped in clear nylon. “Your friend Bianca told me too late,” he said, voice low and warm. “Or I would’ve gotten something… more romantic.” Romantic. The word landed funny in my chest, half laugh, half ache. “Thanks, sir,” I managed, voice cracking a little, eyes glassy. He set the package on the desk between us. “A hug would do. If you’re really grateful.” He opened his arms. I didn’t think. I crossed the space in two steps and walked straight into him, wrapping my arms around his waist and pressing my body fully against his chest. My breasts flattened against him. There was no way he didn’t feel every curve, every inch of what I knew turned heads and broke rules. My secret weapon had always worked too well, boys my age chased me, older men who should’ve known better stared too long. I never cared for any of them. His arms closed around me. Strong. One hand settled at the small of my back, fingers splaying just enough to feel possessive without crossing the line. I buried my face against his shoulder for a second longer than I should have. When I finally pulled back, my cheeks were burning, eyes wet. He looked down at me, gaze steady and unreadable. “You might want to let me see it on you,” he said with a slow wink, then reached into his pocket and held out a small contact card. “Trust me.” See it on me? I glanced at the carton still on the desk. A bracelet? A scarf? Something else? I smiled, small, shy, a little shaky, I took the card from his fingers, and tucked it into my bag. “Thanks again, Professor.” I turned and walked out, the door clicking shut behind me. “Hey girl, how’s it going with the hot dude?” Bianca popped up out of nowhere, nearly giving me a heart attack. “Gosh, Bianca!” I yelped, clutching my chest. She snatched the carton from my hand before I could react. “And what’s this? Birthday present from Professor Sexy?” “I don’t know,” I said, trying to grab it back. “But he said he wants to see it on me.” She froze amidst tearing the carton, eyes wide. “He actually said that?” I nodded. “And you have no idea what’s inside?” She grinned like she already knew the answer. “What?” I asked, suddenly nervous. “In every novel I’ve ever read with this exact setup,” she whispered, leaning in close like we were trading state secrets, “it’s always a pink G-string. They give it so they can see your ass in it. Classic move.” My stomach flipped. “Bianca, stop. That’s crazy. He’s my professor.” She raised an eyebrow. “Uh-huh. And professors don’t give birthday gifts to students unless they want something. Just saying.” I yanked the carton out of her hands and ran off. I didn’t open it the whole way home. My mind was spinning too fast, Bianca’s words, his voice saying “trust me,” the way his arms had felt around me. By the time I got to the house, the lights were off downstairs. Mum was already asleep. I crept up to my room, locked the door, and dropped onto the bed with the carton in my lap. I tore the nylon slowly, heart pounding. Inside were three G-string panties, yellow, blue, and pink. Delicate lace, barely there fabric. I stared, mouth dry. Tucked underneath was a small folded note. I opened it. “I would love to see the pink on you. I love the blue so much, so I want you to keep that one.” I scoffed, hand flying to my mouth to stifle the sound. My face was on fire. Why keep the blue? What about the pink? What was going to happen to it? Then I noticed the second note, folded smaller, almost hidden. I unfolded it with shaking fingers. “I’m going to rip the pink G-string off you myself. So please wear the pink when you come tomorrow. That’s my real birthday present. The panties were just a heads-up.” My breath caught. Rip it off… me? The words stared back at me, bold and clear in his neat handwriting. I pressed my thighs together, heat rushing through me so fast I felt dizzy. I was wet already. Oh my god. What had I gotten myself into?MarcellusThe laptop screen glowed in the dim light of the guest room.I had been staring at the same page for twenty minutes. Flight options. Seat selections. The endless logistics of moving two teenagers across the country. Colette wanted a window seat. Jude wanted an aisle. They had been arguing about it for days. They texted me from their mother's house and treated me like a referee instead of a father.I selected two seats. Aisle and window. They could fight over who got which when they got to the airport.The date was set. Next Saturday. They would arrive in the afternoon. And everything would change.The door creaked open and Clarissa walked in wearing one of my old button downs. The navy one. The one she had stolen months ago and never given back. Her hair was loose and still slightly damp from a shower. She smelled like coconut and something floral. The same lotion she had used since I met her."Still working?" she asked."Booking the kids' flights."She walked around the bed
BonnieMy mother's back was killing her.She had spent the entire day at work hunched over spreadsheets. By the time she walked through the front door she could barely stand up straight. I watched her shuffle to the couch and lower herself onto the cushions with a groan then as she pressed her palm against the small of her spine."I am sorry baby," she said and her eyes were already closing. "I do not think I can make dinner tonight.""It is fine Mom. I will handle it.""You do not have to.""I want to."She smiled and thanked me. Then turned on the TV and let the evening news wash over her. The anchors' voices became a low murmur in the background asI went to the kitchen.Good heavens!Marcellus was already there.He leaned against the counter with his arms crossed. He watched me with those dark eyes that always seemed to know exactly what I was thinking. "What are you making?" he asked."Pasta. Something easy.""Need help?""No."I moved around him and pulled a pot from the cabinet
58BonnieI asked Marcellus to drive me to the park.It was a stupid decision. The kind of decision that came from not thinking. From just opening my mouth and letting words fall out before my brain could catch them. My car was in the shop. Something with the alternator. I did not really understand it. And my mother had already left for work. Marcellus was the only other person in the house with a license and a set of keys."Where?" he asked and he did not look up from his phone."The park. By the old clock tower. Bianca is waiting for me."He looked at me then. Those dark eyes that always seemed to be calculating something. Measuring the distance between what I said and what I meant."I will grab my keys."The drive was quiet.Not the comfortable kind of quiet. The tense kind. The kind that buzzed in the air between us like a live wire. I stared out the window and watched houses blur past and kept my hands folded in my lap so he would not see them shaking.He had not asked about the
LucianI had been staring at my phone for twenty minutes.The message was typed out and then deleted. Typed again and then deleted again. My thumbs were hovering over the keyboard like they were afraid of the letters. It was just a dinner invitation. Not a marriage proposal. Not a confession of undying love. Just my mother asking me to bring Bonnie over on Sunday.But it felt like more.Because bringing someone home to meet your mother was not nothing. It was the opposite of nothing. It was the kind of thing you did when you wanted someone to be part of your life. Really part of it. Not just the fun parts like the roller rinks and the almost kisses and the late night texts. The real parts. The messy parts. The parts where your mother asked too many questions and served too much food and looked at you across the table like she was trying to figure out if you were happy.I was happy with Bonnie.But happiness was complicated when the girl you were falling for had shadows under her eyes
MarcellusBonnie was shaking. Not the kind of shaking that came from cold. The kind that came from shock and from adrenaline and from the body's desperate attempt to process something the mind could not accept. She sat on the bathroom floor with her knees pulled to her chest and her arms wrapped around them and her eyes were wide and fixed on nothing.I could tell she was having a panic attack.I had been holding her for what felt like hours. The sirens had stopped. The shouting outside had faded. But she had not moved. She had not spoken. She had not done anything except breathe in short shallow gasps that sounded like they hurt."Bonnie." I kept my voice low and soft. The way you would talk to a frightened animal. "Can you look at me?"She did not.I touched her chin gently and turned her face toward mine. Her eyes were glassy and unfocused. She looked like she was looking through me instead of at me."You are safe," I said. "The police are here. No one is getting in the house. You
BonnieThe bathroom door locked behind me with a click that echoed off the tiles.I leaned against it and pressed my back to the wood then tried to remember how to breathe. My chest was tight. My throat was tight. Everything was tight like someone had wrapped a wire around my ribs and was pulling and pulling and pulling.The drive home had been a blur of streetlights and silence. Marcellus asked his questions. The way he said Lucian's name like it was an accusation. The way he looked at my hands. At the rust still clinging to my palms. Like he was cataloging evidence for a trial I did not know I was part of.I pushed off from the door and walked to the sink then turned on the faucet and watched the water run. Hot and steaming till It fogged up the mirror.My reflection stared back at me.My hair was a mess. Shirt untucked. Dark circles under my eyes that makeup could not hide. I looked like someone who had been running for days and had just now stopped.I scrubbed my hands. The rust c







