I Want To Be Human

The winter’s chilling breeze brushing my cheeks as I balance perfectly in my car. My breath is hazy and a cheeky smile drags the edges of my lips almost to my ears. Yes, I am very happy because I ought to after the good news I got from the hospital right now.

After five years of marriage, I do not have anything to show for it but now all that is over because I just found out I’m two weeks pregnant. I really cannot wait to break this heart throbbing news to my beloved Alpha and husband, Liam. As much as I haven’t been pregnant for more than five years, my husband has been supportive.The pack loves me even when without an heir, especially my Gamma,John. 

I sigh and role my eyes as I tighten my grip on the steering wheel and match the accelerator harder. All I want at this point is to spread the good tidings to Liam. I recline on the chair and I can’t help but think of how Liam and I met as it seems reaching home is now more far than ever before. 

It was a dark night and I had left my pack house when I was still seventeen years old. I was in tears then as my heart was broken. 

“Dark skinned Omega as well wants to fight”one of my pack members had said to me while right in front of the others and they made mockery of my skin as though I created myself. 

My lips quirked and my hands trembled while they continued laughing and pointing funny fingers at me. I was dark skinned and my pack members used it against me for mockery. They always  made me feel less a pack member because of it. They never missed an opportunity to pick on me. 

I was better than a lot of them, but I was always regarded as the weakest because of my complexion . Sometimes, Luna would tell me not to come close to her pups because I would scare them with my ugly dark skin. 

That day was the same and I couldn’t take it anymore so that night, I went to the forest close to the river bank  across the mountain that best shows the sunset. 

I sat on one log and cried my life out. That was what I always do to clear my head. But that day was different. Just as I was still weeping over my permanent predicament, I heard a noise. The leaves rustled and I quickly spun and sprouted up from my customized seat. Tilting my neck from right to left, I surveyed around and sniffled to get a scent. I did get a scent and it was strong. I had thought it was a rogue since there was news that rogues were attacking lately. 

“Come out and face me you disgusting rogue!!“ I snarled, looking around while the leaves still rustled. Jane is growling inside and ready to attack whoever it was.

“I’m no rogue” a solemn voice gnashed behind me and held me. Damn, the supposed rogue did have the best voice I have ever had. My body quivered and as much as I tried to turn, the ‘I’m no rogue’ held me tightly. 

“Let go of me now!!” I growled and pulled myself out. I clenched my fist and turned. My eyes beheld the most beautiful man I had ever set my eyes on. He was tall and though it was a little dark, my eyes could scan and gush at his tightened lips and full brows. I stood coldly and a nearly unnoticeable smirk that hurled his left cheek. 

“Quite an energy you got there” he sighed and and rubbed his chin. 

“Who are you and what do you want with me?” As much as my lips were sealed as I gawked at his beautiful face, I got a grip of myself and uttered some words. Though the words seem aggressive, unfortunately my voice was like that of a two months old pup blubbering. I was too engrossed looking at my rogue to focus on my tone.

“Let’s just say I’m your company. You do not have to worry, I’m no rogue and I won’t harm you”he said and sat on the log nonchalantly, placing his elbows on his laps.

“And why shouldn’t I think you are a rogue?“I quizzed. He slowly raised his head and locked eyes with me. He shrugged and sighed.

“Perhaps because you are too smart to differentiate an Alpha from a rogue” he sighed and turned his gaze away. It was then I knew who he was.

“You are an alpha?“ I snapped with my eyes slightly broadened. He looked at me as though disappointed by my question. Actually, I did feel disappointed at myself after the words left my mouth because come on, the answer was glaring but I still chose to be dump and asked a stupid question.

“You’ve said so” he said at last and flickered his blue shiny eyes to red. I was quite dump.

My heart leaped for a second and sunk back down to my stomach on realization that I was with an alpha. I couldn’t believe that I was in a presence of an alpha. The only alpha I knew was alpha  Dan, the alpha of our pack.

“The night seems perfect for introspection don’t you think?” He tilted his gaze at me. “Umm mm” I nodded. I wasn’t prepared for a question because I was still busy swallowing the ‘buffalo’ of being in the presence with the most handsome alpha I guess there should be, down my throat.

The night progressed and we had a fun night. He was very free spirited and we spoke as though we knew each other for a long time. He told me his own reason for coming to the forest and I did as well. He was an Alpha without a Mate. He had no Luna and so had no heart in the pack.

I had to leave even though I didn’t want to because his company was golden. I left but then I couldn’t pull the thought of him out of my head. So, the next day, I still went to the forest with the hope to see him, and yes I did. This little sneaky act continued and I didn’t know when I fell in love with him. 

We both loved each other and some moments I did visit him at his home. One unfortunate thing was that I wasn’t his destined Luna. The moon goddess punished me with a dark skin and also didn’t give the one person who loved me for who I was as my mate. I was devastated but then Liam wasn’t bothered about it. He told me that if not me, then no one else. He hadn’t found his mate and I hadn’t as well. 

We mated as our love was strong and genuine. I had never felt so happy in my life till date. He treated me like a queen and the pack all respected me. It was indeed a family. But then one thing gave me sleepless nights. I had no child. 

I couldn’t conceive, but still Liam didn’t care. I couldn’t imagine a more better man than him. He loved me recklessly still and rather even more. My life was indeed a bed of roses and it is till now. 

At this point, I really can’t wait to spill the good news to my beloved husband.

At last, I am now at home. I jump out of the car with my handbag in my left hand. I am literally running into the house with a broad smile.

“Baby..” I call but no response. 

I look around in the living room but there’s no one. “Oh screw me! Forgetful arse.” I wag my head and laugh at myself. 

Liam did tell me that he will be going for a ride around the city with Sydney, his Beta. There has been some rogue attacks so they needed to check it out. “Oh fuck!“I hit the palm of my right hand on my forehead and frown. I really do not think I can hold back this good-news for long. Nonetheless, I guess I have no other option but to wait for him. 

I exhale and head up the stairs. I want to shower so I can look hot and spicy for my Alpha King. His patience was indeed not a waste and the moon goddess has done her work at the right time. I feel a little dizzy after I climb the stairs frantically. There is this sharp pain that hits my stomach again. I have been feeling this way but I guess it’s my over excitement. 

I smile it off and saunter to my room. I open the door and immediately, my handbag falls from my hand. My mouth is wide open. This can’t be true, no it can’t. My heart stops pummeling. Liam is in bed riding Sarah, my best friend.

“No, no, no this can’t be true” I shudder and tilt my head aggressively.  Liam turns and sees me but then he still continues fucking Sarah. No, this can’t be possible.