5

When I woke up, I sat on the bed for a full hour and I told myself I wasn't going to marry Alice, I just couldn't.

I'd rather get into a Lavender marriage instead because there's no going back.

I'm fully gay, the way I felt with Mason last night I've never felt that way with a woman, it's embarrassing to say but I don't think I can be with a woman anymore.

For the first time I'm not thinking about what my parents are going to say, or what the world is going to think I don't want to be with a woman, I want to be with Mason.

I know I might sound insane because this is just a one night stand, a fling to him maybe but it's much more to me than that.

He was so different with me last night, we were up for hours, talking and cuddling and kissing and I've never been so myself before, I don't know what to say but all the feelings I've buried for Mason was back.

Younger me would be so Intrigued to find out I had sex with Mason!

I've liked him since we were kids, at first I thought I just loved being around him , but it started developing into something deeper than that.

We were two different person's with two different worlds, he was the popular cool kid I was the class nerd.

Everytime I get bullied he would literally fight for me, maybe that was what made me like him even more.

He had all the women in highschool at his feet and that's what made me impossible to think that he is into men.

Now I finally have the opportunity to fix what I ruined 10 years ago, but I can't.

My family would say I was ruining the perfectly planned out future they had made for me and they will hate me, curse me even and disown me.

So I had a plan, lock myself up in my suit all day and ignore everyone and lie that I got anxious and have the wedding shifted, that way I can have more time to think and talk to Mason too.

When it was time for the wedding to start, people started blowing up my phone .

I turned it off.

A few minutes later it was my door, they started knocking and begging to know if I was in there Alive.

Apparently they were going to break down the door and I didn't want that to happen so I answered i was there and I didn't want to come out.

I heard Alice yelling at a point, screaming about me abandoning her on her wedding day.

It was supposed to be a billion dollar wedding, the most talked about in the country for years, my mother planned it very well, invited all the guest needed to make it blow up.

Me not showing up was worse than the bride not showing up.

Everyone begged me to come out for hours but I kept on ignoring everybody, every single person.

Until I heard a very familiar voice.

Last night, I moaned the name of the owner of that voice countless times.

"Charlie", I heard the very familiar voice call out calmly.

"Charlie it's Mason, can you please open up let's talk".

I was skeptical for a moment, I didn't know if I wanted to, but then I wanted to see him, so I did, slowly.

I saw the crowd of people at my door, including my parents, I ignored them and immediately Mason got inside, I locked the door.

He looked fully dressed in a tux, he actually came for my wedding.

"You know for a wedding to hold, they usually need to have a groom", he pointed out

"I don't want to marry Alice anymore", I stated plainly.

He sighed and rubbed his temple.

"Is it because of me? because of last night? Charlie it's nothing okay? don't ruin your future because of me".

"What do you mean by that? and it's not even that it's... I can't be with a woman Mason, I can't, I'm so tired of this box I'm living in, I've never felt this alive until yesterday, until I saw you and met you and... and I've never been so me.... so real, okay I know this may sound crazy but I've wanted you for years and... and even after I went to Greece I stalked you for years and...I can't get over you Mason, I can't I -".

He started shaking his head vigorously.

"No, no Charlie you can't do that, your parents are the biggest Homophobs on the planet I'm sorry but, you can't ruin your life because of me okay, you need to stop this", he said.

"I'm not ruining my life I'm standing for myself, you've always been the one telling me, how long am I going to keep wallowing in darkness and working on their shadows and I'm literally taking your advice now so-".

"Don't, okay stop it please, I'm not worth the drama that's about to happen ", he said.

"Why do you keep talking like...like... like-"

"I'm sorry Charlie but last night was a mistake, I honestly just took it as a fling to get it out of my system, I'm sorry, I don't deserve any of this, marry Alice she's good for you ", he said calmly and opened the door and walked away with a response from me.

I sighed, I've made a complete fool of myself, maybe I shouldn't have done anything, maybe he's right.

My heart was aching, badly I had gotten rejected and he said it was a fling to get it off his chest..

So I meant nothing to him? I've just made a complete fool of myself.

I went into my closet and wore my suit and came out, I met a whole crew sending outside, waiting for me.

"Charlie why did you lock your self in there for hours? most if the guests are gone, what happened what were you thinking?", my mother asked running to hug me.

I took a deep breath in and then released it.

"I'm sorry,let's go and get married"