I love you ( the victimized )

     Love ! Love ! Love !  I never knew what the word meant , just saying it alone amuses me.

  I have always been depressed , sad , devastated and most of the time I hate myself.

  I always wanted to commit suicide as I felt my life had no meaning , but do you know what stopped me? 

 "Pain " that's is what I hate most and so I couldn't slit my wrist or stab myself , but you know what ?

  After doing a lot of researches I found a suitable method that wouldn't bring me much pain but I found it kinda weird, why because it involves me choking on my own saliva.

  " Gross " I thought 

So from then on I decided to face life head on , I decided to put my past behind me and move on with my life.

  I decided that I will endure all the hardships that comes my way and try as much as possible to stay strong and try smiling.

 Who am I ?

 Am Anna Jones 30years old with two kids twins to be precise , am a tall and slender woman with brown waist long hair and light colored skin, wife to Steven Damien , the CEO of S&D enterprise.

 Funny enough , am a CEO too and also a renowned lawyer , after all I have gone through I decided to be a writer not a professional one though, but I just write down everything about myself as I thought , a lot of people might be going through or might have gone through the same situation I faced in the past so why not write down all my experiences and let people learn from it.

 Good decision right? 

Thought so too , so in this book titled I love you am gonna put down all of my experiences , and note its gonna be in a detailed version.

Question to ask : why was I sad and depressed 

  Answer : I was brutally raped at age ten by my one and only uncle ( Fred )  who happened to be my dad's younger brother , sad right? , but that's the truth really.

  But you know , am not sad anymore why because, the sad incident made me meet the love of my life         " Steven Damien " he is not only a good husband but also an amazing and loving father to our kids  " Daniel and Daniella " i must say , they are the best things that ever happened to me and am really proud of them.

 I also want to appreciate my parents  " Anita Jones and   Andy Jones for always being there for me especially at my weakest times , even though I tried to push them away countless times as I thought they never cared for me as they've got the perfect  " Son "  Jason Jones  but you know I was wrong as I was naive back then , but not anymore as I am a mother of two now I realise that i was wrong all along and I now regret the  decisions I took  back then.

  Not forgetting my best friend and PA  " Ellie " who had always been there with me through thick and thin, I want to say that Ellie even though I don't say it but you are hold an important position in my heart, Thanks Ellie for all the love and Care you've shown to me over the years , I love you Bestie!

 " Avery " My darling therapist I will never forget how you took a place in my heart when I couldn't talk to anyone , you made me confide in you , Thanks Avery I will always be greatful to you.

  Finally to all those out there who experienced what I did , I hope you get over it soon.

   Thank you!!!