Oh God, this dinner couldn't get any worse. I knew it would be a bad idea in first place. Liam had not only caught me drooling about his biceps moments ago back at the table, but now he'd heard me say, well… It all depended on how long he had been listening because, to my very, very bad luck, I had no idea how long he had been standing there, and I knew, for sure, that Liam was anything but deaf. Oh my God. I had been ignoring the buzzing in my ears until a distant, insisting voice coming out of my mobile phone took me out of my trance. “Jules? Hello? You still there?" Ahm… I averted my eyes from Liam’s reflection on the mirror, unable to hold his gaze after knowing that he had overheard part of my conversation with Jeremy.
- Jer, I gotta go. - I made sure I spoke in a lower, whispery tone of voice, the kind of I should have used since the very moment I answered the call.- Is everything ok?- Yes. Talk to you later.- Ok, but call me if you need anything, Ok?- Sure. Thanks.I finished the call with one of my shaky fingers and eyes glued on my screen. I let out an almost inaudible sigh and turned myself slowly to face the guy at the vestibule’s threshold. There he was, that Greek statue, just a few steps away. Gathering all the courage I could, I slowly raised my face and I stopped when I had a full, clear view of his crossed arms. However, I didn't stop to appreciate those well-defined biceps (which I had already looked at a few minutes ago), but because a rather familiar object hanging from one of his hands caught my attention. A light blue scarf. I looked down to my shoulders and confirmed that something was missing. As if he noticed where my eyes were, he started speaking, and his voice made me look up into his eyes again.- You dropped it. – He said extending his arm to hand me the scarf. I turned my gaze back to the blue object in his hands and forced a grateful smile.- Right. - I muttered reaching out my hand to take it, and when I finally grabbed it with my fingers, I could feel not only the pleasant touch of cashmere provided by one of my favorite clothing accessories, but also a pleasant warmth on my fingertips. Very pleasant, actually. Only then I realized that I was touching Liam's hand, without even knowing how my fingers had gotten that far. My body immediately reacted to the touch. The tips of my fingers began itching and an electrical shock was projected from each one of them up to the nape of my neck, down my spine and then through my entire body, until it settled in my skin and in each of its nerve endings. I felt my heart throb, desperate as a lion imprisoned in a jail. I looked up and Liam's green eyes, dark and with both eyebrows frowned, were looking down, stuck in the place where our hands were still touching. I looked down again, holding the scarf in my hand, and instinctively started moving it away from his, while staring at the exact spot that was still burning out of Liam's touch. I blinked in a failed attempt to hide all the whirlwind of sensations caused by that simple touch.- Thanks… - The words came out as a whisper. Scarf already in hand, I turned myself to head out of the vestibule, but his voice, husky and soft in equal parts, stopped me just as I was walking past him.- Baker...I gulped.
- Thanks. For letting us join you for dinner.
I didn't dare looking at him.- It's no big deal. It's just dinner. I would have shared the table with anyone. – Although my words seemed to have the best intentions, deep down, they sought to set Liam apart. To tell him that I did not want his closeness at all. Perhaps out of fear of what he may have heard, and thus misinterpreted, from my call with Jeremy. Or because I desperately wanted him to forget that I had been carefully analyzing his muscles at the table some minutes ago. Or because it was Liam. Or maybe because of all the above. Having said these words, I intended to turn myself so I could find my way back to the table. However, before doing that, I could not ignore the fact that Liam's smirky face slightly vanished after what I've said. And then as I started walking through the tables, a question just popped into my mind, all of a sudden. How did he notice that my scarf fell off my shoulders? Did that mean that… Had Liam been watching me all the way through as I came down to the vestibule? I turned my head to the vestibule once more but he was already gone, to the loos most probably, and one part of me felt disappointed.I left the vestibule with my mind totally adrift. Ignoring the remains of the tingling in my fingers, I continued walking through the tables. My eyes flew back to the large windows facing the street and I saw some people running, opening their umbrellas, or finding some shelter under the restaurant’s awning. The rain had ceased for a couple of hours but there it was again, unpredictable, just the way the whole evening had been. As I got closer to our table, I realized that Roger had moved to our couch and was sitting next to Susie, laughing at something on his cellphone. I hesitated for a second but then turned myself towards the empty couch.- Oh, sorry, Julie... – He said, standing up.- Hey, no. Please, stay there. I’ll sit here. – I said while sliding through the empty couch.- Are you sure?- Yes, of course.He nodded and sat back. - Liam just went to the… you know. – Roger pointed his index finger in the direction of the toilets to explain why his friend wasn't sitting at the ta
A small ray of sunlight made its way through the window and landed on my face. The warmth caused by it made me open my eyes, which I immediately closed again when it felt like the strike of a thousand knives. Argh. My head. It was throbbing. One stab, followed by a second one, and then a stronger one that lasted for a couple of seconds. Momentarily paralyzed by the hammering pain, I took my fingertips to my temples and massaged them in an attempt to relieve them. When I was finally done, my hand flew to the nightstand looking for my cell phone. I had a meeting with my counselor in the morning, so I needed to check what time it was. My fingers touched nothing but an empty surface, so I gave up and brought them back to my face, where they began massaging my eyes this time, encouraging them to wake up. Determined to find a clock or something, I raised my trunk and propped my elbows on the bed with my eyes narrowed yet wide enough to give me a reliable glimpse of the clock in the kitchen
It had almost been two weeks after the Margarita's episode. Since then, I had been unwaveringly working, day after day, in Peter’s project, reading materials and book chapters specialized in the subject. I had also met with Hilda twice and made some progress on the computing project as well. I had attended a few classes at the university, done sporadic visits to the library to check out or take a few books home, and made some space as well to have ridiculously brief yet invigorating coffee sessions with Susie or Jeremy, separately of course, to catch up on our lives. And I had dedicated the rest of the time to writing project reports, watching fifteen minutes of rom-coms or sit-coms at night, tidying my apartment up, and well yes, basic and necessary survival endeavours such as sleeping, bathing and eating froot loops. Susie still couldn't get over Jeremy seeing her totally plastered in tequila, and even though I swore to her that he would never dare to judge her (or anyone, but actua
We stayed for a while in the patio sitting on the armchair, talking about this and that. The sun had already been fully set and we remained still and quiet while the lights from the party flickered upon our skin. The music was filling the air and I closed my eyes for a moment to appreciate the last wafts of the summer nights that would soon be replaced by the cold autumn breeze. Fall was my favorite season, especially in Boston. Terracotta-bricked buildings framed by trees full of warm-colored foliage would adorn the streets of the city, while the nights would be guarded by an incredibly starry sky. Still leaned back on my seat, I slowly opened my eyes, and I could see that the thousands of stars were already there, dazzling in all their greatness. A few or almost no clouds were wrapping the sky since the rain had subsided for the past couple of days.When I was 12 years old, my parents took my sister and I for a short trip here to Boston. It was the city where my father was born and w
He kept his eyes on the road and I did the same. Ever since I have learnt about the missing file, I had been feeling a rush of adrenaline running through my veins. The lights passing as we moved were helping me soothe the feeling. Rain droplets pouring down the window. - Thanks. And sorry. For all this… – I said. – I don't know how I could have missed it. – I muttered in awe for those words were intended for my very own consideration. Liam's eyes were still stuck on the road ahead of us as we slowed down, waiting for the next car to take a left turn at the cross road. - Not a problem. We are on it. - He said with no hint of a smile whatsoever. I nodded and smiled as shyly as I could. To myself. Five minutes later we were driving through my neighborhood’s main street, and I could see Café Orly’s awning and its charming french windows in the distance. A couple of turns later we were parking at an empty spot in front of my building, right across the street. We both hopped off of the ca
Officially Autumn. That's what I thought when a few leaves danced and whirlwinded by the widnow. Two weeks have passed since my last interaction with Liam. That day of the missing file ended soon after the file successfully left his outbox. He asked if I intended to go back to the party and offered to take me in case I wanted to, which I gracefully turned down since I started feeling extremely tired. I blamed it on the dancing. With a hint of a smile, he vanished through the door, carefully closing it behind him, and I let myself drop onto my bed. It turned out that Val's party was actually over shortly after, according to Susie, due to the rain which transformed itself into one of the heaviest ones of the year. I felt sorry for Val. Susie wouldn't believe me when I told her what happened that day, and that Liam actually offered himself to take me home, to then quickly vanish into a mist of yummy perfume. Yeah, I didn't mention the perfume part. I managed to skip telling her that his
It was 7:50 in the morning. I had arrived earlier than Susie had explicitly decreed. Maybe to buy some time and order a coffee to prepare myself for a certain inquisitive interrogation. Maybe because I hadn't been able to close an eye ever since I laid down last night. Maybe both. Because having dinner with Liam, the mere act by itself, had been something totally unexpected. Too much to take in, to say the least. I closed my eyes while the aroma of freshly ground coffee traveled, against all proven laws of physics, at something fairly close to the speed of light, making its way through my nostrils like a true elixir of the gods. And I couldn't help but revive the previous night. The chill that ran through my skin when I saw Liam get out of his car and fix his eyes on me for what I felt was an eternity. A pleasant eternity, by the way. The closeness at my apartment, the tingle I could not ignore when he looked down at the hem of my dress, and how I wished for the bit of a second that h
I ran down the corridor at full speed. I felt how my blood boiled as my temples throbbed, as if my head was about to explode. Damn it, I thought. I had never felt this much rage before. Well, probably I did. It was eleventh grade when Jessica, my bestie and later ex-bestie (yes, teenagers can be very dramatic about it), spilled a whole cup of blue, raspberry slushee onto my favorite Back-to-the-Future white t-shirt. According to her, accidentally. According to me, totally on purpose. I hated her because she knew it was the day Isaac had invited me to play Mario Bros on his newly purchased vintage video game console after school. I never forgave her for that. Isaac asked her out the next week. Mind back at the corridor, I rushed my pace and then quickly turned into the lab area. My destination was just a few feet ahead, I knew because I had already come here a couple of times. Or maybe just one. A nauseous feeling washed over me and suddenly the corridor seemed to narrow and lengthen