Huge Mistake

Lillian's POV

"Why do I feel like you've been avoiding me or something?" Fedora sighed heavily,  her voice sounding distant from her speaker. 

"Me? I am not." I lied. I didn't know how to face her when she warned me about everything.

I was ashamed of myself.

I denied my husband just for pleasure.

"I came back to look for you that day and you were gone." 

Faking a cough, I managed to speak. "I just... I wasn't feeling it and somehow, I fell under the weather. I won't be going out with you for a while too. That world is not for me."

But it was. 

I was attracted to the thrills and I wanted to explore deep.

However, it was bad. I was married and I had to start acting like a married woman.

"I hope you're okay though." Fedora said after a long silence. I knew she didn't believe me though but she didn't press further.

Swiping away the stray tears that fell from my cheek, I replied. "Yeah. I think someone is at the door. Maybe it's my takeout."

She bade me goodbye and hung up.

I wasn't entirely lying.

Someone was at the door but I didn't order for anything.

The knock got persistent, making it impossible for me to rush upstairs to pick up a robe to cover my half exposed thigh. 

My eyes widened in shock when they connected with the familiar green eyes. One I fantasized over for years. 

"Kayden Mellow?" Still not believing my eyes, I called to be sure.

His eyes roamed up and down my body as he slowly growled out, "In flesh."

Fuck. 

His voice was deep.

Feeling a bit hot and nervous, I bit my lips, unable to hold eye contact with him as I stepped away from the door. He was no stranger after all. 

He was my husband's best friend and my former crush. 

"What brings you to my house?"

His shrugged, taking a seat. My mouth went dry as I watched his shirt clung to his body like a koala to a tree, tracing out his broad, nicely sculpture chest and abs.

Damn.

"Your husband asked me to check up on you. You good, Laylay?"

Only him called me that. 

He was just different.

Sighing weakly, I sat down too. "I'm not good, Kayden." No. Don't tell him. "I cheated on my husband with... with a girl."

His demeanor was still the same - calm, p

reserved. His eyes didn't widen in shock at my admission, nor did they hold a judge-y stare.

"Why did you do it?"

Good question. "I... I don't know. It just happened." 

He nodded slowly as if he understood me clearly. His eyes locked onto mine, holding me there as he asked the next question. "Did you enjoy it?"

A scoff broke out of my lips. "I -"

My phone pinged, cutting me off. It was a message from Jude's mum. 

It read: "It's been 2 and a half years and still no sign of a grandchild. This was not the agreement, Lillian. You don't want to test my patience. Hurry up and give me a grandchild, you barren witch."

Typical. I had been getting these a lot since 5 months ago. 

I was trying okay? Her son was the difficult one but she wouldn't believe.

"Laylay?"

Gasping, I snapped my attention back to Kayden. "Yes. Yes."

"Yes you did?"

"No. I mean, yes I was talking to you." I chuckled nervously, rubbing my palm. "The first time, I was drunk so I barely remember it. The second time... It was - I don't know. It was like a bdsm setting and - I don't know, Kayden."

"Would you let Dina fuck you again?" 

Shaking my head frantically, I said, "Hell no. I'm not returning there. I want to tell Jude but I just can't bring myself to do that. He'll be livid."

Kayden shrugged. "I guess."

"I don't even know why I let that happen to me. It's not a valid reason but he has refused to touch me. I was horny and needy and - " Then something dawned on me. 

I was talking to my husband's best friend. His close buddy.

Fuck.

A huge mistake.

"Kayden."

He stood up abruptly, startling me. His jaw was clenched and he didn't look at me as he walked to the door.

"You're good. I've seen you and I'll report it back to him."

My hand caught onto his jacket, making him halt. "Kayden, please you can't tell...you can't tell Jude about this."

His shoulder tensed and then sagged afterwards. He placed his hand on mine, slowly dropping it down, his pupils dark.

"Sorry, Laylay. My loyalty lies with Jude."

My mouth fell, my limbs weak. My eyes welled with tears as I watched him leave.

This was it.

I was in big shit.