Chapter 26

Sanya...

I don't want to hurt Adam but I can't promise him anything. I don't want him to expect that something more could happen between the two of us.

That's what I've realized this morning, kung patuloy kaming magiging ganito kailangan malaman ni Adam ang mga bagay na kaya ko lang ibigay at limitasyon namin sa isa't-isa, hindi kasama doon ang pagmamahal dahil unang-una, wala akong alam pagdating sa bagay na yun.

How will I be able to give something to someone when I don't even have it? Pakiramdam ko hindi ko magagawang mahalin siya dahil ako mismo hindi ko magawang punan ng pagmamahal ang sarili ko, pakiramdam ko laging may kulang, pakiramdam ko habambuhay na akong kulang.

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