ESTHER POVI dont know what kind of act should I express in the middle of Amber and Caleb, but my eyes were shock seeing Amber walk away, The emotion in me is arising seeing her leavin...I didnt know that my feet is now creating a step to follow her but suddenly Caleb hold my hand that stop me...I look at him and reality hits me...damn...what the fuck am I doing now! The silent I am right now makes my mind shouts and cries for no reason...I dont know what should I feel now!"Here, I am sorry for acting shit last night.."I slowly just accept the flowers, I didnt seem to form any words for him, "Can you please wait here, I just need a washroom"I run towards the washroom near by, as I enter the cubicle, I try to calm myself, I am start shaking for no reason, I always felt this when I am being stuck in a situation that I dont like.I start breathing fast thinking of Amber walking away again from me...now my tears is formed in the corner of my eyes..."Oh Esther, calm yourself...thin
AMBER POVAs I open my eyes and try to find the woman beside me but I didnt see any, Esther did it again, I try to call her but she is not answering it, I dont know what is going on but I dont feel good about it, I quickly prepare and head to the hospital, I cant just go to her office since I have lots of things to do, The days passed and I keep calling her but still she is not answering my call until I saw her with Caleb, I guess I dont have the chance today to talk to her, maybe I can do that tomorrow, I let the day passed on and take my chance tomorrow, I keep messaging her but she is not answering,I woke up early as I could just to get a right time to corner Esther, at least a little explanation why she suddenly avoid me, I dont know what did I do, what I did wrong!At exact 7am I am already at the hospital and waiting for Esther until she arrives with Caleb, they both enter her office seems to eat their breakfast, I stay and keep waiting, I cannot let go of this chance to
ESTHER POVMy eyes were stucked seeing Monica and Amber together, I know I should be okay and this is actualy what I want to happen.Amber should be happy with someone else, she deserved someone who can love her and not a coward like me.I head my way back to my office, silenced surrounds me, I feel like my whole world is crashing down on me, I should be happy that she will be in safe hands of Monica, But...within me, I am feeling weak that I dont know why...I just get all my reports and charts that I need to check and start focusing myself on that, I can see here that Mrs. Albert is not yet waking up, so I head my way to her room and check on her."How is she now?""She is not waking up doc, is there something wrong with her?"I start checking her vitals and her heart rate and everything seems to be normal even her wound, I am not sure what is going on so I dial Mark's number and ask him to go here to check Agie's cognitive state,Minutes pass and he came, he quickly check on Agi
Continuation..."You are right; I hate you, but I can't hate you every day; we both have enough reason why we end up like this; I hate when you suddenly avoid me and stop talking to me; still, I am here on my position which my heart is still trying to understand you, you see even we want to do things because it may or might hurt us, but we can't bring ourself into, even you want to be at the hospital and save him you won't be because things happen no matter how we stop making it happen."Amber said that made me stare at her, and I didn't know should I respond to her.I stay quiet and remain myself staring at the ceiling, "There are still a lot of people who need your help, and you can't just stop right now; David is brave and fight for what he thinks is right, and abandoning your work is not appropriate, he won't want that, Esth."I know what she is trying to say, and I am thankful for how much she tries to comfort me.I didn't say any words after that and remained silent until I fel
Continuation ...When Amber came out I almost fainted because of what she said, I hope three days is enough to think,I was hurt by the way she looked at me, she was full of hope while I was unsure of things,If only I could run away from everyone now with Amber but I can't,I fell down on the bed and just rested for a while, I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep.I woke up to a loud knock, looking at the time it was time to have dinner,As I open the door, it is Caleb,"I'm sorry did I wake you up? I'm worried you might be hungry, lets have dinner"When he invited me and I accepted his invites, so I just put on a cloak and head out with him,There is a restaurant near our hotel and I guess it is also part of this resort,When we entered, I immediately saw their group already sitting and Amber with Monica both looking at us.Caleb ordered for me and I didnt notice what he ordered when Amber stopped Caleb from giving me the plate with food,"What is wrong with you?"Caleb asked cu
ESTHER POVTwo years passed and I resigned from the hospital, even I want to ask for information about Amber I couldn't, until now, I am still blaming myself, I hurt her too much though...my heart filled with regret, I should have chosen her, I should have agreed with her, my heart beats only for her, even time and day have gone too fast, nothing changes with what I feel.I turn my back in surgery, in all medical related work, I need to avoid Caleb as well, I know I hurt him, I left him before because I cant lie to myself forever, I am no longer in love with him, every admiration I have is just plainly childish crush for him and so I had to make a decision, I need to let him go and have the person she deserves."Esth, have you finish all the documents that needs to filed?""Three remaining and I am good""Okay better!"It is Sheena my supervisor though she prefers to be called by her first name and throws the formality but sometimes I cant help myself but to call her Maam which she u
"Tititiiittt...tiiiiitttt"Damn that beeper! I just had my two hours sleeping after the my ER shift last night, yes, it has been one month now after Sheena's case, as of now she is still doing good and her baby.I still remember when Mr. Gilbert talk to me being the new resident here."See, you didnt even get to sleep yet you are here""Well, I guess I am still a doctor after all""That is one thing you can never unlearn once you become one, doctors are not just curing and healing patients, we do it in total package, so mentally, emotionally, and physically you need to be fit, are you?""I just had done a surgery to one of my closes friend and actually boss for two years""So you think that is enough to say you are already fit?""But how can I say it? what should I say to prove it?"Looking straight at me from his sit and then speak."Just say yes Esther"From that point on, his words left me something within...He is right, I guess too much words to elevate myself from a challenging
I am frozen on my position ... she is, she is here but why? my mind suddenly rumbling with my thoughts, I want to walk towards to at least ask her.I am trying hard not to move a step, I might going to regret if I will talk to her but damn if I do, damn if I dont ... shit, every second is running and she is now moving away towards the elevator.This cant be, I need to talk to her!I walk fast to her and hold her hand that seems to startle her.I am now looking straight to her eyes when she stare at me with undistinguish emotion within her.It took a little minute of staring between us before I get the guts to start a simple talk but ..."May I help you ... doctor?"I am stiffined when I hear that, how come she seem to not recognizing me."E-Esther ... doctor Esther""Oh, do we somehow know each other?"At that point I was stunned, she really dont remember me, I was trying to imagine what had already happened to her when I decided to walk away.She was still in the hospital when I left