CHAPTER 59 SEASON 2

When we cook, we mix all the ingredients to make one recipe, we put it all together and we are sure how it will taste and that is how we do cooking. We just mix everything... In human feelings and emotions, we can't just mix everything, we can't do both, we can never do much, we tend to explode within...and that is exactly what happens to me dealing with Esther...I don't mean it, I don't intend to but...I guess I just hate her...but needs to understand her...try to support her, be a friend to her even she don't need it anymore and most is...I just fucking miss her!

Pulling her inside the stock room makes it all non-sense to me at first, but kissing her put me into the reality, that I need to do something...I need to fix myself, I also need to understand my inner me...walking out of the stock room, I just can't believe that I have done it again, doing things that I didn't plan, makes me feel better, touching her again soothes me well.

I was just exhaling and going to the elevator when