Sarah
The afternoon sun emits its last rays, but we barely catch any between the area’s skyscrapers. Brit’s arm is still looped over my own as we walk, balancing our work- and gym bags in the sea of people rushing to catch the next subway or train.
“So, tell me, how did it go?” Brit implores me ending our silent walk to the gym.
“I don’t know. I’m still processing.” I sigh heavily as I wipe my face with a hand. She has no idea where I'm from, what secrets I have to keep, has to hide to protect others.
“Ok, then tell me who he is," her voice jumps an octave at the end of that sentence as she inclines her head towards me.
“Arrr. Why is he here?” I let out a growl in frustration.
“Maybe if you’d talk to me, I could help figure that out.” She stops in front of me, blocking my way on the pavement.
“Ok, ok. So, we grew up in the same town. I lived there till I was fourteen," I tell her the truth, keeping it as simple as possible. "He is five years older than me, and we never hang out together or anything like that. He was a popular boy, and I was just a little girl watching him every day.”
“Ooooh,” she squeals, “He was your first crush, wasn’t he?”
“Yes, he was,” I utter in defeat. It’s hard to say it out loud because it makes it real, and I’m scared of this being my reality again.
Now that she has her answer, we keep on walking. It is only two blocks from work. We don’t waste our time traveling around.
“So, what did you talk about? You seemed to be in a deep conversation.”
“Mostly about things that have happened since I left the town. His studies, his job, and my life. I don’t know. He was the same, but so different at the same time.” My mind struggles to cope with this situation. I want to tell my friend everything. I mean everything, everything. But I can’t, and I’m scared that if I start talking, I might slip. That is the main reason why I never talk about my childhood in Black River. “Well, he is freaking hot if you ask me. I’m sure that’s not new.” she wiggles her eyebrows at me suggestively.
“No, that’s not new.” Thinking about him makes my face turn up with a blushing grin.
He is hot, no question. When I was 14, I thought he was cute, and his smile made me smile. The thought of him still warms my heart, but now my body reacts to him in a way I never experienced before.
I’ve had many flings, boyfriends, and casual sex partners, but none turned me on with a smile and a mischievous flick of their eyes. None of them shut down my brain with a gaze.
“Ohh girl, you have it bad for him.” she laughs at me, seeing my burning face.
“Yeah. I’m in big trouble. He wants to have dinner tomorrow.” I squint, waiting for her reply.
“I hope you said yes to that.”
“I did.” I cringe at the thought of how excited I am by this. “Maybe it’s a bad idea. I’m already regretting all of it.”
“Don’t. Just live in the moment. He is hot and seems nice. You’ll have a great time.”
Maybe Brit has a point. Even if it turns out to be nothing, I can enjoy our time together.
We step into the heated building, and the tequila and beer hit my head right away, with the realization that Nate could break my heart without knowing what he was doing.
I drink a whole bottle of water to clear my head, but leading a krav maga workout for 20 people when I’m tipsy is not easy.
I even giggled once, especially when my mind went to Nate every five minutes. It was embarrassing.
“Practice was great again,” one of my students says.
“I’m glad you had a great time.”
I’ve spent years trying to forget most things, like my grade school years amongst werewolf kids. However, Nate’s presence seems to open the lid of carefully sealed memories that now flood out without selection.
Like everyone else in the pack, I attended training from a young age. I was doing excellent, as one of the strongest and quickest in the group.
One of my adoptive mums, Amy, trained the youngest pups from age 8. I worked very hard: doing every push-up the way she taught us and running every lap as fast as I could in order to become better and stronger every year.
Until my 12th birthday.
We waited for my first shift and my wolf throughout winter, but she never came.
Everyone was devastated, but I felt relieved. We didn’t understand why I was wolfless. We thought maybe we didn’t know my age correctly, and I was only 11.
I arrived at Black River when I was six. I have a few faint memories of my parents and other wolves living in a small pack. We seemed happy and content. These are more feelings than actual memories. One day a man threatened my parents. I didn’t understand what was going on, and while my dad went to fight him, my mum helped me get out and told me to run.
So, I ran.
As far as I could as quickly as I could.
I ran through forests and fields for days before smelling werewolf scents. I knew instantly that I had entered a pack’s territory.
By then, I was too exhausted to run away. I just wanted to sleep somewhere safe and hoped they might help me.
It didn’t take more than a few minutes for the guards to show up and surround me. They told me to wait while their Alpha showed up. I was too exhausted to be scared. They put me in a house for a few days before deciding I could stay.
I felt fortunate when two women took me in and adopted me later. They raised me with their other adopted girl, Avery, and I was mostly happy with them.
Other kids in the pack thought I was a rogue. Some of them called me different names because, according to them, I was not a pack member but a filthy rogue who smelled disgusting.
I remember Lissa saying disgustedly that everyone would see my red eyes and that the Alpha would kick me out when my wolf arrived.
When I thought about my parents, I always saw them with red eyes. I’m unsure if it was the effect of what others were saying or if I had actual memories of them with red eyes, but I never told anyone. Not that it mattered, as it turns out.
I was so scared her theory might turn out to be true that I wasn’t looking forward to my first shift. I dreaded the day my wolf arrived and begged the Moon Goddess to keep me from being cast out as a rogue.
I wanted Black River to keep being my home, and I thought not having a wolf would be the way to that.
Oh, how wrong I was. They kicked me out anyway. Maybe in a nicer way, and they covered it with lies, but still. I was a kid, and they sent me away.
So, the truth is, at first, I was happy that I was not a rogue, just a human. The downside was that, as a human, I was no longer allowed to train.
My mum and I trained in secret. She always assured me I'd be prepared when my wolf was ready to join me.
I believed her for a while. But when I turned 14, I accepted that it would never happen. I guess that was a turning point for the Alpha because they also made it clear that I didn’t belong there. There was no place for a human in a werewolf pack.
I was surprised but relieved when my teachers informed me about this school and the family I could live with. I was terrified but eager to go.
I struggled for a while and couldn’t find my footing among humans until I joined a krav maga practice. After that, I knew I needed to work out and fight to keep myself sane.
I guess it was a way for me to stay connected to my adoptive wolf family, even if I hadn’t realized it.
While I was in my head, thinking, everyone left the room. I’m picking up the equipment when Manny walks in.
“Hey, sexy.”
“Hey, Manny.” I heave a sigh at his mischievous grin. “I’m not sexy. I’m sweaty.”
We put everything back in place and clear the room to be ready for cleaning.
“How was your day?” he asks me while walking to the trainers' changing room.
“It was weird,” I sigh, thinking about Nate again.
“I see. You look like shit.” he laughs and hugs my waist from the side.
“Thank you, how nice for you to say that.” We laughed in unison. “Well, I’m a bit drunk,” I explain. “Training and drinking do not go well together.”
“Oh yeah. I’ve been there. I don’t want to do that again,” he makes a face at the memory.
When we reach the changing room, he shuts the door behind us and looks around to see if we are alone.
“I’m going to shower first,” I say to him, pushing him out the door.
“I’ll wait outside.” He yells through the door.
While I showered and dressed, everyone left the building, and Manny was ready to close up. We have receptionists during the busiest hours, but she has already left. The last trainer is the one to lock up the building, and we sometimes wait for each other when we have classes simultaneously.
“Hey,” Manny comes closer and pulls me in for a hug by my waist. “Let me make you sweaty again.”
I smile and kiss him. He is good. I like hooking up with him. He is four years younger than me, very lean with stiff muscles. I’m 5’6”, he is 6,’ and we are a good fit.
I know we work together, so we shouldn’t, but it‘s casual. No need to discuss it further because we know where we stand.
He takes me back to the office behind the reception desk as we grab at each other’s clothes. I carelessly kick the door, thinking the front door is already locked and no one is here but us.
His skin warms my palms and fingers, muscles ripping under my touch. I hum contentedly, doing something easy, familiar, and fun after the rollercoaster day I had today. His tongue laps at mine as he presses his growing erection to my core, and my body shudders with delight. His fingers are grasping my ass, pushing me more into him, and I grind myself for more friction.
One of his hands comes forward to reach between my legs. I moan into his mouth when his finger finds my pulsing clit.
He circles my clit through my jeans while I unhook my bra. There is really no explanation as to why I even got dressed.
Right as my top reaches the floor, he attaches his lips to my hardening nipple. I eagerly reach into his sweatpants to stroke his member. He unbuttons my jeans to put his hand inside while licking and sucking my nipple.
I let my head fall back and moan. My fingers slip through his hair, holding his face on my breast. He is rubbing my clit, making my thighs widen on their own accord as I slowly pump him. His fingers slip through my folds and into my wet core while keeping pressure on my clit with his palm.
Suddenly, the door swings open with a bang, and a loud growl penetrates the silent building. Manny’s lips leave mine as his head snaps towards the reception area.
“What the fuck was that?” he asks, but I can’t see more than he can as the office door we are in is almost closed.
“Sarah?” I hear a deep angry voice that I immediately recognize.
Oh, shit.
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Sarah I’m in the forest. Running and running. This feels like the only thing I’ve been doing for a while. The surprisingly chilly weather already made my face sensitive and my feet numb. Running. The untouched nature in this forest would be dangerous for hiking, but I can safely travel on the ground full of leaves. Every color the fall weather can bring surrounds me as the seeds and leaves from the trees cover the ground. I love this season. Not as much as I love winter, but its beauty is undeniable. It is then that I smell wolves around me. I bend down to smell the ground, seeing my paws sinking into the leaves. How do I have paws? I look down at my body and my brown fur. Since when do I have fur? Then the realization hits me. I’m a wolf. I don’t even have a moment to think it through because the wolves I smelt have arrived. They surround me before I can blink. I look around, seeking an escape route. When I turn to run away, a silver-white wolf approaches me. His eyes lock wit
Sarah We sit in silence for a while, and I start eating again as a cover for my awkwardness away. He finally loosens up and continues with his food too. “Do you go to that gym often?” Nate asks, and I brace myself to look at him again. “Yes, I’m a coach there and take classes as well. I teach krav maga twice a week," I nod, and the memory of last night's encounter surges through my brain. Dante's angry growl, then his puppy eyes, before Nate's confusion. “That sounds interesting. How did you come to do that?” he puts his forearms on the table, keeping his gaze on me once again. Being his sole focus still makes me squirm in my seat. “I loved training back in Black River. After I left, I missed the exercise, so I tried a few different sports, and krav maga is something I really enjoy. I became a trainer two years ago.” His face lights up at my answer, and he dives in with questions about training and teaching. He obviously has much more experience in both but seems interested in
Nate “I think we should go. I have to take Abby home,” Sarah says while standing up. “Can’t you stay any longer? She is still having fun with her friend,” I reply. My heart stutters from her sudden coldness. “We have to get home before her mum leaves for her date," she averts my gaze, picking up her bag and searching in it. “I didn’t mean to make you sad.” My curiosity took things too far. She looked indifferent, not a tiny sign of hurt or anger, and I pushed forward with more questions. I know now that I shouldn’t have done it. She was clearly masking her emotions. “It’s okay. What happened has happened. We can’t change that. Plus, it is definitely not your fault. So, don’t worry. I’ll be fine. I’ve been fine for years,” she says, slightly lifting her chin at the end. I try to look into her eyes, but she avoids my gaze successfully as she motions for Abby to come closer. “Yes, but I feel like I just tore up old wounds.” “Well, if you put it that way…” she sighs, and her shoul
Sarah As we step into the apartment, I glance from Nate to Eleanor and back, waiting for their explanation. “We are related – second cousins, I think,” Nate answers first, and Eleanor nods. “What?” I ask as my face scrunches up in disbelief as the thoughts this means storm my brain, rapidly increasing my heartbeat. Beth always told me that Eleanor doesn't know anything about werewolves. But she knows Nate. Was she lying? “My mother and Nate’s mother are cousins,” Eleanor clarifies, glancing from Nate to me from a crouching position in front of Abby. Words get stuck in my throat as I’m gaping for air. I turn around and step back to the corridor, closing the door behind me. What the hell? It can’t be a coincidence that I won a scholarship to the same school Eleanor attended. That means all my suspicions about the previous Alpha and Luna kicking me out of the pack could be true. They knew Eleanor’s mum. They are cousins. The clicking sound of the door interrupts my whirling thoug
Nate The barbell rolls away from me as I let it go wincing from the burning in my muscles. I stretch my shoulders, one after the other, sighing heavily. I did an extra round because I was too agitated to stop. Early morning workouts are what I like the most, and because of the lack of nature here, the gym is the only place where I can burn up my muscles. In the last few years, I developed a feeling that meeting my mate would change my life in a significant way. It will be worth it if I have to wait for someone that long. This is what I’ve been telling myself. This is far from how I imagined meeting her and spending the first few days. Since Sarah’s eyes met mine, I’ve been trying to figure out what that change will mean for me, for her, or even for Black River. My mate should be the Beta Female and take a significant part in the pack leadership. I’ve come to the realization that she might not want that. What am I supposed to do, then? I’m not forcing her to do anything except mayb
Sarah Oh, shit, I hit him. Did I break his nose? I think his ego wouldn’t let me check him. As Nate leaves, the floor screeches under his black boots, clearly not made for gym practice. I finish stretching with the group and wave everyone goodbye. As usual, Manny walks in to help me put away the mattresses and equipment, companied by his flirty smile. Nate turned my life upside down in two days. I can’t even flirt. Manny touches me, and I shake his hand off. His face shows all the confusion and hurt he feels, and I don’t understand myself either. Nate and I are not a possibility. Not ten years ago. Not now. Not ever. The pack is everything to him. But it’s useless. My brain repeats the way he took off his jacket and stalked towards me with his mischievous smile, and things inside me wake up again. When he rolled up his sleeves, and the tattoo on his forearm came into view, I heard gasps around me. The moment he held me close, I froze. Goosebumps appeared on my skin, and a shiver
Nate “Hey, we are here,” Sarah yells from the door when we enter the apartment. As soon as I enter, the cinnamon aroma hits me in the overly heated apartment. Overly heated for me, I remind myself. They are not werewolves. Brit walks towards us from a room that seems to be the kitchen. “Hey, Babe. You’re here. I'm starving. What have you brought?” she asks excitedly. “Sushi, lots of sushi, pasta, and beer,” Sarah explains while handing her the bags and taking off her jacket. She then turns to me and takes the rest of the bags. “Hello again, Nate,” Brit says with a coy smile that makes me wonder what my mate told her about me. “Hi, Brit.” I take off my jacket to leave it on the hanger, where I spot the origin of the cinnamon scent, a huge light brown candle in the shape of two people kissing. I follow the girls to the kitchen, where they unload the sacks of food and start eating from boxes right away as they stand around the table. I look around the kitchen for plates and cutler