Lila. It was like I was imagining all this in my head. I had heard him word so strongly how he was not built for family life for kids. How he didn't want to be responsible for another human being for all their love. But now he was ready to do this with me, together and he seemed genuinely excited about it. About becoming a father. Luca’s hands were still on my face, warm and grounding, but my whole body was shaking. I hadn’t realized how long I’d been holding my breath until that moment.“We do it together,” he said again, like a promise, like he was reading my mind and see could see the worry, and everything I was thinking about. I nodded, because if I tried to speak, I knew I’d sob. But he knew. He could see it in my face, the way everything in me was cracked wide open and raw. His arms wrapped around me and I buried my face in his chest, letting myself finally fall into him. Not carefully. Not like I was made of glass. Just… completely. We stood there for what felt like forev
Lila. It had been almost a week since I told Luca the news about my pregnancy. He had taken it so well, better than I hd expected. But it didn't stop there. It was like Luca did a complete one Eighty and he was a whole different person now. Everything was about me and for the first few days I loved it, I loved the attentions and care, but now I was getting tired of it. He was treating me like I was disabled or was sick. I was barely four months and he didn't want me to do anything around the house. He was even arranging for the downstairs guestroom to be transformed into our room since he read on some blog that it's not healthy for a first time pregnant woman to be using the stairs. But it was not all bad, some parts were good. Like him moving into my room and getting to wake up every morning next to him. I liled that part very much.He had insisted on our appointment with my gynae to be today, so as soon as we woke up, he had me in the car ready for that check up. But I knew he
Lila. I loved how Luca was intentional about everything, and how he was transitioning into this whole thing, he was too good that I was a it worried that it still hadn't really hit him yet and when it did he might have a complete melt down or disaapeara on me again. But I couldn't think like that, I didn't want to. I wanted to enjoy this, every moment we spent together as a family. We were now debating different baby names, picking colors for his nursery and cribs, and I could stay in this stage where he was all about us forever. But I also knew he was using us as an excuse not to face his own issues, like his mother and the lies she had told him, but I was not going to force him to face them, Atleast not tonight.Tonight was about us celebrating our news and our baby boy. We hadn’t planned anything fancy, just a cozy dinner, something small to mark the moment. After the ultrasound, I felt lighter, like the air didn’t sit so heavy in my chest anymore. We were going to have a boy.
Lila.It has been a few quiet days since our run in with Vanessa, but she has not been out of my mind since. Something about what she said, and her eyes were still haunting me. But today, I was focused on reading my book and she had no space to occupy my thoughts. I lie back against my pillows, the weight of my book heavy in my hands, my eyes skimming over the pages but not truly absorbing the words. The quiet hum of the room surrounds me, a calm cocoon that I’d wrapped myself in after a long day. But that calm is shattered in an instant.My phone buzzes, a sharp, insistent sound that pulls me out of my trance. I glance down at the screen, Vanessa's name lights up, it was like I had just manifested her into texting me. And how on earth did she even get my number. But her name popping up on my screen makes my heart skip, my curiosity piqued. What could she possibly want?I tap the screen and wait for the message to load.Images. The first one stuns me. A little girl. She can’t be mor
Vanessa. I never thought I would be one of those women that did this, but I had no expected to find out she was pregnant either and the fact that Luca had not said anything about our daisy to her yet. She needed to know. If I was in her shoes, I would want to know if the man I was about to have a baby with was already a father. I hadn't planned on telling her any of the details on what happened, or what happened really. I just wanted to tell her, Luca was a dad, this was not his first rodeo and she should ask him about it. But then she aked about her and my heart bursted open. I hated this woman that was calmly seated across from me, I wanted to hate her and blame her for everything that went wrong with me and Luca, but if was being truthful, things were already bad before she even entered the picture. I looked up at her again, she was beautiful, naturally beautiful, not those ladies that had tonnes of make up on. She was just a natural, I could get why Luca would fall in love
Lila. Vanessa was not one of my favorite people ever, I hated her and her guts and privilege. But mostly I hated her for who she was to Luca, what she meant to him and the fact that she used every chance she got to run it in my face. I knew she was going to eventually find out that I was pregnant, that we were starting our own family, and that she won't like it very much. But never in a million years did I expect this, her to tell me this news. She was so broken, who wouldn't be if they lost their child? I again rubbed my belly slowly, whispering a prayer of protection over my unborn child. I felt so much pain on her behalf and I understood her pain. Why did Luca never tell me he had been a father before? I understood why he didn't tell me before, but now things were completely different between us. We were open and honest with each other, Atleast that's what I thought. So why did he not say anything? It made sense though, why he had said previously he did not want any kids,
Lila. I had no idea how long I had been sleeping, when I woke up, my whole body was tired. I needed a shower, but I was still too lazy to even stand up. I picked up my phone and looked at the time, it was almost seven at night, soon I would be required to go down for dinner and then I would have to talk to Luca. He could read through me like a book and I knew there was no way he was not going to sense something was up with me. I needed to come up with a plan that made me not be in the same room as him. I could easily blame my mood swings on the pregnancy, but it was more than just the mood swings. I hated that he didn't trust me enough with that kind of sensitive information and it made me even more suspicious of his intentions with me and the baby.Was this all an act? Did his father know about daisy? I could overthink and come up with a million reasons as to why he had never brought her up, but I needed a shower. I was about to get up, when I heard it. There was a soft knock o
Luca. I had expected a lot of things from Vanessa but never did I expect this. Her using our daughter to get my attention, well she finally had it. And I had to see her. I had stayed with the woman long enough to know her patterns, I will never take away from her the fact that she loved Daisy, but I also knew she would do anything to get what she wants, and nothing was off limits when it came to her. But that's not really what I was mad about the most, it was the story she came up with and fed Lila. What kind of sick games was she playing this time? I did not sleep at all, I tossed and turned all night waiting for the morning to come so I can go set her straight. Which is why I was up before sunrise. The house was quiet. Still. Maria usually came at around seven and I woke up at almost six in the morning. But I enjoyed the peace and quiet, gave me some time to think things through and come up with my next move. I made coffee just to keep my hands busy. The smell filled the kit
LucaI had tried calling her several times, her phone went straight to voice mail. I knew she was mad at me but this was absolutely pissing me off. She knew I hated it when she never picked her phone, especially now that she was pregnant. I called Maria who answered on the second ring. "Hey, put Lila on the phone Maria." I said as soon as she picked up. "She is not yet home sir.""What do you mean she is not home yet, she left the office a couple of hours ago." something was definitely not right. I checked the watch it had been atleast four hours since she left the office, she should be home by now. "She said she was stopping by the market to pick up some groceries to cook for you sir." Maria said, getting me out of my head, "She said she wanted to make you something special." Maria added. "She should be home by now, I am on my way." I said hanging up. I immediately sent my security her number and told him to track her and find out where she was as I rushed to the car. I had t
Lila. Today had not gone how I had imagined it will at all. First an interruption this morning, then the whole Vanessa scenario and now I was fighting with Luca. I hated when we were on bad terms, and it sucked even more because I was really looking forward to spending some quality time together. But nothing was going to kick me down, I still had some time to turn the day and night around. I had called Maria from the office and given her a list of groceries to get, I was going to cook an apology dinner for Luca, he loved spaghetti and meat balls and lucky enough that was my speciality. The drive home was not supposed to take this long, but there had been a little bit of traffic due to some drizzling. My hands were on the wheel. The road was wet, shimmering in the headlights. A song was playing. Something soft. Something forgettable. Then something happened, something I couldn't really explain. All I heard was metal crunching. Glass exploding. Weightlessness. Screams, my own scr
Luca. I was halfway down the hallway, flipping through emails on my phone, when I nearly collided with someone turning the corner too fast.“Whoa.... Vanessa?” I said, as soon as I saw her face looking around a little confused, "Did we have a meeting?" She didn’t stop. Just brushed past me like I wasn’t even there, eyes glassy and wide, shoulders stiff like she was holding herself together with string.“Vanessa.. wait.” I yelled at her even more confused, she seemed pissed, like she had seen a ghost. She kept walking. Faster. Like she couldn’t get away from me fast enough. And I lte her go, juts watching as she hurriedly walked out. I turned, watching her push through the glass doors of the main lobby, practically running.What the hell just happened?I stared after her, completely thrown. I hadn’t seen her in weeks, since our confrontation at the coffee shop,and now she was here, in my building, clearly upset, and refusing to even look at me? What was she doing here in the first
Vanessa. I watched Lila as she picked up her bag and the file that I assumed had all the information about me before she walked out, banging the door on her way out it echoed. The door clicked shut behind her, and I just stood there. Frozen. Humiliated.The silence in the conference room was deafening. I didn’t realize I was holding my breath until my lungs started to burn. My fingers tightened around the strap of my purse until my knuckles went white. Six months pregnant. She’s six months pregnant.She was six months pregnant! That's what stung me the most of everything she had just said to me because then that would mean, Luca has been lying to me way before I found out. God.I sank into the chair across from where she’d been sitting, like the air had been sucked right out of me. The room still smelled faintly like her perfume, expensive, sharp, the kind that lingered. Just like everything about her.She was so different from the woman I first men a few months ago, she was right,
Lila. I had no idea what had gotten into me, but between Jenny dropping in on us unannounced and ruining everything I had planned out for the day, I did not have any patience left in me. I could also credit my pregnancy hormones. I sat in the cold, sterile conference room, the ticking of the wall clock louder than it had any right to be. My fingers tapped against the glass table, nails clicking in a rhythm that matched the irritation rising in my chest. I’d been here for fifteen minutes already, but I wasn’t nervous. I was angry, no furious was the word. I did not plan on having a confrontation today with my husbands ex, it was supposed to be a chill day for me to take a tour of his office headquarters, but here I was. Vanessa had made my life miserable since the very first time she laid eyes on me. Even just thinking her name made my jaw tighten with anger and fury. What a bitch! She had no idea it was me who had summoned her here. The assistant had kept it vague, just said Lu
Lila. "I am so sorry about her, I promise you she was not part of the itinerary today." i say slowly to Luca who is clearly dressing up now. He looked so pisses off which I can understand given the situation, but I am hoping now that his mother has left we can go on with our day as planned." I know, I'm sorry too, about her." he says kissing my forehead."Are you going somewhere?" I finally ask, unable to hold my tongue anymore when I see him putting on his shoes,"Yes, I have to go to the office, something came up."He says it so casually, like we weren't about to have a us day. "I thought we were going to hang out." i said my voice a little low filled with disappointment."I know, but we can do that another time. Jenny messed up my whole mood, and I really need to be in this meeting." he said, putting on his shoes, "You can come with, you have never really had a proper tour of my office, I could have someone show you around, we can go to lunch after.""Are you sure? I would love
Lila. I heard the front door slam open before I even had time to get off the couch. My heart jumped, instinctively thinking something was wrong, an emergency maybe. But when I saw Jenny standing there, fire in her eyes, I knew this wasn’t a surprise visit. This was a storm. And it had my name on it.I hadn't seen her since the last time se dropped by with two detectives, she had not called in at all or reached out in any kind of way. "Richard," she snapped, stepping fully inside, her heels echoing on the hardwood floor. "What the hell did you tell Luca?"Her voice was sharp, like a blade honed over days of anger and confusion. She was glaring at me like I’d just stolen something from her. I stood up slowly, keeping my voice calm.This was the Jenny I remembered, she always was the victim even back then during our marriage. She never took accountability for anything, and ofcourse she was the same person, nothing had changed at all. "Hello to you too Jenny.""Cut the crap!" she hisse
Lila. I was still standing by the door, trying to wrap my head around the whirlwind that was Jenny, she was in our living room acting like everything was okay between her and her son. It was like she had completely forgotten how things went the last time they saw each other, and the fact that she had lied to Luca, I was still staring at her with a million different thoughts in my head, when I heard the water shut off upstairs. Footsteps. The creak of the floorboards. He was coming. He was going to come down in a few minutes and I still was not sure I wanted him to be surprised. Maybe I should just give him a heads up that his mother was in our living room and by the look of things she planned on staying here for a while. I looked over at the couch, there she was. Jenny was now curled up on our couch like it was her own personal throne, she gave me a mischievous wink and pressed a finger to her lips. “Not a word.” she whispered like I was part of her insane surprise or whatever it
Lila. The sizzle of eggs hitting the pan was oddly satisfying, almost like a little victory in my morning. I was up earlier than usual, the sun barely yawning over the horizon, painting the kitchen in warm gold. I hummed softly as I flipped the eggs with one hand and balanced a slice of bread in the toaster with the other. The smell of coffee filled the air, strong and comforting.I was in my element.For the first time in weeks, I didn’t feel tired. Or nauseous. Or like a swollen balloon about to float away. I felt good, energized, even and I wanted to do something with that. And maybe I missed doing normal things. The bump beneath my robe was getting more obvious now, but today, I wasn’t going to let it slow me down. Not when I had the whole day planned out. Just Luca and me.I was also feeling a little bit guilty about how I had approached things and accused him of keeping secrets from me, I wanted to make up for that. And we needed an us day, where we just lounged together all da