LOGINOne of the reasons I chose psychiatry was there is rarely any kind of emmergency that cannot wait until morning. That means I get to sleep through the night and not worry that my patients may be dying. So when my phone started to ring in the middle of the night, I took a pillow and covered my ears and went back to sleep. In the morning I get up and find that I have two messages on my voicemail. The first is from an unfamiliar number and the calller does not identify himself. "Hello, sorry to disturb your sleep but I was wondering if you think a life should be repaid by a life? If not what do you think is an equivalent of someone's life? Do you think gender,age or the income of someone should be used to calculate the value of their life? And what about the dignity of someones death. As someone who's been experimenting with death yourself how do you measure someones' worth before deciding to send them off to their deaths?"
I look back at my phone. I feel like someone is watching me. Who is that? What does he mean as someone who has been experimenting on death myself? I walk back to my bed where my phone is. I replay the message. The voice is not familiar but it is obviously foreign with a unique accent I cannot place. I feel all the blood rush from my head and I start feeling dizzy. I have not said anything to anyone about the police's accusation. Did that fool detective go around running his mouth. The second message is from Jade telling me all about her date. Honestly I barely hear anything she says. I take a quick shower. I rush out after a quick cup of coffee. I have a feeling today is going to be one of those days.
The police station smells like what you would expect. It does not seem to bother the people there. I walk to the officer who's closest and looks the least terrifying. "Hello sir," he looks up just for a second and goes back to looking at his computer. "How can I help you on this fine day miss?" I do not appreciate the sarcasm but figure I have bigger problems. "Can you please tell me where I can find detective Swindler?" he looks up at me again before pointing to a door with 'SWINDLER' written across it very clearly. I feel a bit embarassed and whisper a small thankyou, which I doubt he heard or has any much use for.
I knock at the door twice before a booming voice from the other side of the door replies. I open to see three guys that is including detective Swindler. They excuse themselves and I am left stading across detective Swindler in what is actually a very neat office. "I did not think you'd come see me voluntarily," he points to the seat that is next to me. I sit and remove my phone from my bag ready to play him the recording. "So, come to surrender yourself already?" he looks at me with a little twinkle in his eye. If he wasn't so damn annoying I might have found him attractive. I cannot help it but roll my eyes, to which he lets out a laugh. "No, I have a complain. Actually I should be talking to your superior but I decided to come to you first," he does not look concerned by the mention of his superior. "Well doc what did I do?" I play him the recording. As the recording plays out his face gets more serious. I notice the way he plays with his earlobe when he concentrates.
"Listen I don't know whether you'll believe me but I have noting to do with it," he looks genuinely surprised. "You mean to tell me you do not recognize that voice?" he looks at my phone and then back at me. "No, I have never heard that voice in my life. " How about this, you go to work and i'll dig deeper. If I find something I will come tell you right way or even call," I stand looking at my wrist watch. I had not realized how late it was. "Fine but what about the recording?" "Send it to me, and i'd advice you to delete the one you have. It will only drive you crazy." I send him the recording and leave.
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kerrick's pov.
I have been at this freaking place for a week now. I suck at remembering people's name so when two detectives show up in my office to invite me to drinks after work I try my best to keep the conversation short. In my head I refer to them as detective leather jacket and the other as detective shortstuff. That way i'll remember them but I cannot say that to their faces. After rejecting their offer as politely as I can they still have other follow up questions and my answers are not so polite. So when I hear the first knock I cannot believe that I can be so lucky. It is until the second knock that I am sure it is not a hallucination.
I look at her as she starts to play the recording and all I can see is fear written all over her face. I have not told anyone about the case. Questioning her was actually a matter of protocol. I do not believe that she has anything to do with murders. After she left I started thinking. Either someone out there believes she has something to do with the murders or someone wants me to believe it.
I hear another knock in the middle of replaying the recording. It is detective leather jacket and detective short stuff. I really have to learn their names. "Hey we thought he left the country after his last arrest,"detective shortstuff says before taking a seat across from me. "Who? the guy from the recording?" "Yeah we arrested him a lot mostly for drinking and driving," said his partner who was standing behind him. "You know him? Where can I find him? I think he might be connected to a case I am working on." The look at each other for a brief moment, "impossible, the last time we arrested him was almost two years ago on assault. It was so serious, the victim refused to settle and insisted on going to court. The morning before court the captain told us to let him go. " detective leather jacket looks so mad as he tells me. His partner laughs, "it always bothered him because we had a solid case and the captain refused to tell us the reason why we had to let him go. After a while we went to look for the alleged victim and he had disappeared." I look at both of them, "he died?" they shake their heads in unison."No one seemed to know where he had gone and the ones who were close to him looked scared to talk."
Detective leather jacket hit replay after the recording had stopped. "You know what always nagged me about the case, the guy did not have enough resources to make all of that happen. Including getting the captain on his side, something was not right." "Why did you stop following up on him?" I asked them. "Because captain made a sort of deal with the person who was backing him that he would never come back to the country," "And you believed him?" detective shortstuff continued "Of course not but the captain said the person who had made the deal had so much to loose to allow him back to this country."
As I take one last look at myself, I can't help but feel excited. It has been very long since I have felt this way. Kerrick is in my living room waiting patiently for me. As I walk in the living room, he gets up from the couch. His eyes wander from my face down to my body, where they linger. Most of the time he is very hard to read, but not now. He doesn't even have to say it, but he does anyway. "Wow...just wow," I smile at his poorly worded compliment. "Are you ready?" I ask, admiring his new look. I have never seen him looking so official and elegant. "Yes, unless there is someting you would like to add," at his offer, I take a step closer to him. His tie is a bit crooked. I straighten it. I raise my eyes to his face and find that he is already looking at me. "You are ready now," I try not to stutter. He nods. I should step back. I really should, but I don't. I feel his hands come up to my back, his eyes never leaving mine. He leans in, and I don't move away. If I am being ho
I have dresses to go to parties, I do. But this feels like it requires something else. Something that only Jade can help me look for. That is why I am having a second glass of wine as I wait for her. I want to say she is never late, but that would be a lie.She pulls over in front of the wine bar. I watch as she gets out of the car and puts on her sunglasses. She parts her hair effortlessly using her hand. I can't stop staring at her, amazed by her presence. Believe me everyone here is looking at her. She is simply magnetic. "Sorry for keeping you waiting hon," she says, drinking the rest of my wine. "Where were you?" she looks around. "The other side of town. I have been trying my best to avoid spending any time at home," she explains. "Why? I thought with Rackel out of the house, you would like it," she takes her sunglasses off revealing bloodshot eyes. "Well, so did I," she looks exhausted. "Turns out my dad is really hard to live with, especially when he is alone. His attenti
I have thought of all the places she might be hiding, only to realize I don't know much about her. Other than the fact that she worked as John's secretary before she got married to him. Kerrick is insuferable when he is feeling frustrated. After the call with Jade ended with no better lead, he took me to work with him. We have been going through everything, and at this point I am almost sure I can recite what is in this damn files. "I need a break," he tears his eyes from what he is reading. He nods at my request before returning his attention the paperwork. "What are hoping to find?" I hadn't thought patnering up with him will be us cooped up in this office going over the same paperwork over and over again. "Something, anything," he closes the file he has been reading and takes another one. I can't be here any longer. It is almost twelve and it is the perfect time for me to head to the my office. I get up. He is too focused on what he is reading to even notice. I am worried he
It has been a week since I went to visit Kerrick in the hospital. I am back to seeing my patients and I have started to enjoy my quiet, undisturbed routine. I have had dinner with Jade twice this week at Rochelle's and it felt just like old times. There is still a lot in my head, but I have decided to deal with issues as they come. Today I had a lot of patients with barely an hour to spare for myself. When I finally finish updating my notes for the day, it is already past eleven and I can't wait to get home. The office building is empty and dark, except for the blinking security lights. I hurry into the elevator and press ground floor. My office is on the third floor. The elevator doors open at the second floor. A guy with a large frame and a hoodie gets on. He moves around me. I try to look at his face, but I only catch a glimpse of his chin. He leans at the elevator wall behind me and the hairs at the back of my neck stand. I can feel him staring at me. I give in and look beh
I am staring at my phone, trying to understand what I have just heard. Why would Kerrick be calling Rackel? Even more importantly why would he need another phone just to contact her? This is all very suspicious. I should visit Rackel soon. I hope her treatment is going well. Today has had enough troubles of its own. *********************************************It has been long since I have woken up this early. I have too much to do. I jump in the shower. I feel my whole body relaxing as the warm water hits me. I welcome it and allow my mind to wander. I don't want Kerrick to die, I know that for sure. But what I am starting to doubt is whether I can trust him. I should be able to get the answer to that by the end of the day if he is conscious. As for the guy I saw yesterday. I don't know what to think of him. Why come to me after shooting Kerrick? Is it just for the thrill or did he think I wouldn't recognize him?How is it that the more I uncover the more confused I get?The las
He is down in what feels like a second. There is commotion as everyone hides below their tables and chairs, leaving just me exposed. I am staring at the bleeding Kerrick, wondering what the hell is happening."KERRICK!". I am screaming like a mad woman. He is clasping tightly onto his chest. I remove my blazer and place it on his wound. "Hold on. The ambulance is on its way," I say, finally kneeling beside him. There is no fear in his eyes. That worries me more. He starts blinking. "Don't close your eyes, okay? You hear me," I am pressing the wound with as much force as I can. "Call the damn ambulance," I scream to no one in particular. "Hold on, you are going to be fine. Just hold on," I plead with him as he closes his eyes. My attention is on him that everything around us seems to disappear.I don't even see the ambulance and police cars that surround the place. "Move back," one of the paramedics says. "I can't. He will bleed out," my once white blazer is now covered with blood.
Avan's p.o.vOne year ago,"Sir, we're being followed," my driver says. I look back and see three identical suvs on our tail. "Can you lose them?" he looks at the rear view mirror. He has a look of uncertainity."What do you suggest we do?" Just my luck, the one day I don't use a follow up car. "Yo
I am wishing for that hotel room right about now. I am on my own in a cold prison cell with a metallic toilet and a hard bed if I can even call it that. I try to sleep but I can't. Other than the utter discomfort of the bed, I am anxious and nervous about this whole situation. I know Avan told me
"How are you holding up?" Avan looks so concerned. It makes my heart break a little. "I'm good given the circumstances. "Please tell me you didn't tell them anything," he says. "There's nothing to tell, I didn't do it," he reaches out and places his hand over mine. I move my hand away. I am afraid
I have been in the interrogation room for what feels like forever. Every thought that I could have, I have had. Still not a single thing about this whole thing makes sense to me. The door opens to reveal detective Kelly and Kerrick. "Hey, this is just protocol," detective Kelly says as they take t







