“Wh…what?” I widen my eyes at him.
The ‘him’ is no other than Beta Stephen, the Beta of our pack.
I had been so shocked when Stefani –the daughter of couple I work for- had rushed into the space I stay in, close to the kitchen to pull me out, while whispering hastily that Beta Stephen was here to see me.
Me? Was the first thought that came to my mind.
Why? Was the next.
The last time I got to be in the presence of any of the pack’s authority was four years ago. That is, the incidence with Pa. One that scarred me by making me a help and making me fatherless, as Pa could not and did not survive the wounds he got from the flogging.
I wasn’t enthusiastic to meet another authority. But Stefani’s enthusiasm was enough for two as she succeeded in dragging me outside the house.
I came face to face with a huge back. And I froze.
Frozen is how I still am even after he has told his reason for being here.
“Do you have a problem hearing me, or is it with your understanding?” he said rudely.
Strangely, his expression does not suit his message. With his eyes repeatedly scanning my up to down, I can read disgust.
“No, none. I ju…just cannot process all what you said.” Me and my silly stutter.
“So, you are not smart, too? Perfect.”
The last part of his utterance was more of a whisper to himself.
Are my ears aching, or did the Beta just call me foolish? Me?
Okay.
“Well, given your condition, I’ll repeat myself.” In preparation, he folds his arms behind his back, making the buttons of his tight silk shirt almost pop with the way his chest puffs out.
“You, Riley Green, has been chosen to be the new Alpha’s mate. His Luna.” He accentuates every word with a raise of his right eyebrow.
“By who?” Falls out of my mouth.
“Do you think this pack is a joke? I am not supposed to answer such dumb question, but keeping your condition…You were chosen by the Moon Goddess.”
I stare, waiting for his eyebrow to come down and for him to break into laughter. From how things have been going with me, I wouldn’t mind having a good laugh.
I wait some more.
But nothing happens.
Meaning he is serious.
“Why?” I whisper to no one exactly.
His arms move from his back to his chest. He has a slim figure but has muscles which he obviously flaunts from his posture and clothing. He is good-looking with a barely-there mustache and two centimeter long goatee. He inherited his looks and position from his late father, but it seems he was born before the manners got to him.
Everything about him screams rude. But who am I to point out who is rude or not?
“I knew you would have doubts. So I brought the Seer so you would here from the house’s mouth.”
It’s not like I don’t believe him. It’s just that it doesn’t make sense. I have not seen the new Alpha before to check if I feel a pull to him, but all he has said does not just sit right with my guts.
Can an Omega become a Luna?
“It has happened in history.” A shrill voice answers my thought.
A fat man with long hair and a long beard now stand beside the Beta. He is in rags, very similar to the ones on me and multiple strings of beads lines up around his neck.
“The…the Seer?” I ask.
“That is me.” The round man answers. “The Beta is right about all he has told you. The gracious Moon Goddess has selected you, out of all the potential and ideal maidens in the pack, to be the Alpha’s Luna.” He avoids my eyes while saying all these.
Why they are this rude with the kind of message they bear raise my suspicion. If I am to be their Luna, shouldn’t I be given some respect?
“Well, that’s enough talk for you. Tomorrow is the coronation night, and the new Alpha would be expecting his bride. Be early and,” he takes his time in looking at me from my hair to my shoes. “You know what? Just come as you are. Just perfect.” He slow grins comes to his face.
Like they were never there, they leave.
Am I a joke to them? I haven’t washed up for a whole moon and my hair was almost now locks as it has been long since a comb had gone through it. Meaning, I look my worst. And I should come this way?
Am I to see this as a good thing? Is this the Moon Goddess’ way of wetting up my dry life. I have had dreams of getting married to a prince.
But an Alpha?
That has never crossed my thought.
I sigh as mixed feelings overcome me.
This is interrupted by Stefani’s screeching. She stops in front of me with a jump.
“You are going to be the Luna?”
I search for disgust in her voice and face. But instead, I am met with the brightest smile.
“Why the frown? Smile Riley.” She pinches my cheeks. “This won’t do. Come, we have a lot of cleaning up and combing to do.”
As she drags me back into her parents’ house, I find myself smiling too.
* * * * *
Cleaning and combing is what we actually do.
“You look so pretty, Riley.” Stefani complements.
I feel pretty.
I feel fresh.
I feel free.
Free, though the gorgeous green dress which Stefani had to search for underneath her pile and give me, makes it quite hard to walk as it keeps falling off my shoulders.
I sometimes forget to eat, so it’s no surprise I am slimmer than she.
I don’t know if it’s the joy of things to come, but I can’t wipe this big smile off my face.
I just can’t.
“Thank you.” I reply in a small voice.
Smile still on my face, I duck my head to avoid a stray branch. Nothing should ruin the colorful powders Stefani has rubbed on my face.
We are almost at the Alpha’s base, but considering how nervous I am, if Stefani lets go of my hand, which she has in a tight grip, I might run away.
I have never been this confused before.
Yes, I was born an omega. Yes, my Ma died before I could know her. Yes, my Pa has gone to meet her too, leaving behind to clear out his debt. Yes, that debt is what I have been clearing out; cooking, scrubbing, cleaning, rearing, tilling, for four years now.
Yes, this my life for the past twenty years. No, I’m not complaining. But, where does becoming Green Creek Pack’s Luna come in?
With Stefani’s excitement, that could illuminate the whole pack, I have started feeling excited too, but I know nothing about being a leader.
Nothing.
But I still smile.
“Make sure you don’t trip during the processing. Keep your head high and look straight. Discard any nervousness, Luna.” Stefani screeches in laughter. And I can’t help but giggle too.
“Well,” She continues. “In case you feel weird about the stares, just look at your Alpha and think of all he would do to you tonight.”
That stops me dead on my tracks.
How come that never crossed my mind?
Realizing my halt, with her hand still gripping mine, Stefani turns to look me right in the eye.
That has been her very recent way of gauging my reaction and how I felt about things, as I have never complain.
We weren’t this way earlier as it is not so normal to be close to the maid. She was horrible towards me.
Then she stopped.
And through the years, though her mom is sometimes against it, we got closer. Close enough to call each other friends. I had almost cried the day she called me that. I had never had one.
“Don’t tell me you haven’t thought of it. Riley you are getting married to the Alpha tonight. What do you expect? He would want pups everywhere.” She has an evil glint in her eyes.
“I…I don’t think I’m ready for that. Like I haven’t even seen him. Ever.” Panic begins to rise within me.
“Well, I have.” Stefani gives me an awkward smile.
“You have?”
“Yes. And he is quite- big.”
“He is?”
“Huge is the better word.”
“Stefani, you are making it worse.”
“I’m only speaking the truth.” She moves closer and whispers. “If only you had paid attention to me that day I read to you the content of that book I took from Mother’s shelf. If only. Now, you have little knowledge of ‘it’.”
I had listened to her ramble off words from that book, but when it got to a part that had a lot of filthy words that made me feel hot and bothered, I chased her off with a bowl of chicken dung.
“Well, I …I remember some part of it.” I stare at the ground as my face gets hot. If not that it is getting dark, how red my face gets when I blush, would make Stefani laugh out loud; like she always does.
“Perfect. Three is no need to be bothered.”
“You said he is big.”
“I did?”
“Yes.”
“Goodness. Riley, I was talking about his size. Like the size of his body. His physique. Where was your mind? In a pile of chicken shit?” she says in between laughter.
“Oh.”
“Yes. Now we have to hurry. But shouldn’t like a group of Gammas come lead their Luna to the event? I am going to be your second in command and crush them all.” She releases my hand and raises both fists for emphasis.
I laugh. “Silly girl.”
She takes hold of my hand again. “Let’s go.”
And hand in hand, we walk in silence, heading to my wedding place.
I still feel nervous and confused, but talking to Stefani, most times, calm me down. And now, it does. As we walk, she occasionally turns to look at my face, this I return with a smile.
Is she my personal parcel? A winter gift from the Moon Goddess? I don’t know.
All I can’t think of now, is that everyone deserves a friend like Stefani.
RILEY “What? Why?” Stefani questions for the both of us. We had gotten to the entrance of the Alpha’s base and an angry looking Gamma had told us to hold on. It seems he had been told to man the gate, judging from his stance and the dismissive voice he had used in telling us to wait. “I…I was told to come. The Beta told me to come.” I try staring into his eyes as I say this. Well, since I’ll soon be the Luna of this pack, might as well start brushing up my nerves and guts. “I am aware of that.” The sternness on his voice didn’t reduce as he says this, staring right back into my eyes. He wins the face off. I put my face down as my nerves fail me. “So?” Stefani asks, her hand never letting go of mine. “You still won’t let us through? She’s going to be your Luna soon.” The little rays left by the setting sun makes me see him look at me, right from my head to my toes, back to my head. Then a smirk appears on his face. “Are you aw…” Stefani begins, but pauses once she
RILEY“Come in.” I hear the voice behind the door say.Jude’s voice.I have been avoiding this all night and morning. I have been avoiding going to Jude’s room as what Stefani said keeps playing in my mind.We had gotten back from the Hunt hours ago and Jude dismissed the pack, while they still in their wolf form. I guess he didn’t want to see a bunch of naked people.While Jude retired to his room, I asked for the kitchen to go prepare just the grass cutter I had caught, as the antelope Jude caught was used as prize to a man that caught the largest number of animals. In there, I stayed for more hours.This was me stalling, as there was a maid who had collected the animal and offered to prepare the meat herself in the exact way Jude would like it. But I still sat there, with the excuse that I want to learn how Jude likes his meal done. I was able to learn that the help’s name is Theresa.After everything, taking the meal to his room, I had to take multiple deep breaths before knockin
RILEYRight here.On these pile of clothes, laid at a spot far from the fire place, is where I lay for many nights.I have been avoiding Jude like a plague. I feel like when I’ll finally come face to face with him, I might melt from either embarrassment or adoration, as, of course, those words he spoke to me the other night did nothing to the new feelings I have grown for him.I had still dreamt about him that night.In the dream, I saw us in our wolf form, running together in the wild. Then the next thing I saw was me heavy with child. I had woken up with a frown, which very quickly transformed into a bright smile.I want that with Jude.I want that with my husband.But that would never happen if I continue sleeping here.So I waited for him to summon me into his room, into his bed, into his arms.Well, waiting is what I’m still doing now, as he hasn’t still sent for me.He has become so scarce, that I have only seen him once since our wedding. And that once, me being me, I had hidde
RILEYTears begins to form in my eyes from the pain I feel.It is like a thousand termites have invaded my hair and are digging into my scalp.I hesitate and his grip gets tighter. At that moment, a sad whine leaves my mouth as I feel large chunks of hair being uprooted right from its root.“I said, kneel.” His voice comes out, hasher than earlier. Now, a low groan follows it.Slowly, without even realizing it, my knees begin to fold as the get closer to the ground.Slowly.Slowly.Then my knees hit the ground.Could be the tears blurring my vision, or the pain affecting my senses, but as I look up at Jude from down here, I see nothing but pure satisfaction on his face. As he has that smile line at the right side of his mouth stretched, and an odd glint in his eyes.Reading faces and expressions to ascertain how people feel is something that I started for survival, but later on, it just became something I am could at. I can realize how person feels just by noticing the faintest line o
RILEYDull rays from the sun greet my lids, but I refuse to open them.I refuse to wake up.From the faint chirping of birds and the cool breeze, I figure it is morning. But I am still in Jude’s arms, so I will not wake up. Until now, I have not realized how I crave to be held. And Jude’s large build complimenting my small frame gives all this the protective feature.Oh how I love to be held by him.Stefani would go scarlet if she hears about this. That girl is a romantist, if there is a word like that, and lives for all thing romantic.Jude steers, pulling me closer. I smile and go deeper into hi….“Who?” His husky morning voice enquires.And I go still.Getting no reply, Jude immediately withdraws his hands from around me, sits up and yanks the covers away from us both. I turn to him in shock. Then watch as his hard and alert eyes immediately go soft.“Oh. It’s you.” Realization us evident in his voice.“Hi.” I say shyly, remembering last night.“That was you last night?”The pride
RILEYSeveral pairs of eyes stay fixated on me. All holding different mood and questions as I step into the space and take that exact position where I stood to exchange vows with Jude.Exchange?Was that an exchange?Well, lets just call it an exchange.Roughly thirty women stand with frowns on their faces, barely hiding their shock on my arrival.“Hi everyone.” I say with my brightest smile, which I punctuate with a small, very unconscious wave.Uh oh.For a second, I forgot that I wasn’t introducing myself to a group of little pups, or to my age group.These are women.The lines on their faces speak of experiences, decades of existence. Their glares go straight to my brain and register that ‘hi’ is not a greeting for this breed.Hi?Riley this was not the plan.I recharge my confidence and decide to try again. There is no harm in that right?My shoulders go straighter, my head, I put higher, I tighten my chin, wiping all traces of smiles off my face. And hope I don’t look stupid.“I
RILEYTonight, I look tough without, but within, I flinch at the unrecognizable sound of my own voice.I hear a gasp from the crowd.Okay, the plan is respect, not fear. I remind myself.“Distractions throw me off. It’s something I avoid. I hope you understand and try not to interrupt me again.” My voice is softer this time.“I understand.” Jill replies with her eyes on the ground.“Good.” One conquered.I look towards her pair, Margaret, to read her reaction. But she immediately avoids my eyes.Definitely conquered.Oh the joy I feel.“The apology wouldn’t involve you all, it will be myself and few of you, maybe two or three. This number of people walking into your house would raise an alarm, even before their intentions of coming is made known.”No more objections. No more interruptions. “After this is achieved, we move to the next plan; making a Delivery committee for the pack.”I hear light murmurs as they turn to one another whispering their opinions, but they make sure I hear
RILEYWHAT?I go stiff, saying absolutely nothing, but I’m sure my wide open eyes and wide open mouth relays my shock.Jude obviously notices, as the frown clears from his face.“Okay, that came out wrong.” He lets out an exasperated sigh. “A luna should be able ti stand and face whqtever comes her way. Bloody or not. I too wouldn’t join a group which the initiator refuses to join. I would not advice anyone to do so too.”Okay. I see a lot of sense in what he is saying. Of course, he is the Alpha, so he should be sensible. But…Blood.“Th..The thing is, I…I feel sick at the sight of blood. It’s something I haven’t had any reason to overcome.” I try to sound persuasive. “Well, now you are Luna. You now have a million reasons to overcome it. It’s a thing of the mind.Wait. Do you feel sick at the sight of your own blood?” One of his brows go up, in question.Okay. I did not expect this.“No.”He spreads out his palm. “See? It’s a thing of the mind.”“It...It’s not the same.”“Now it so
RILEY Theresa did the bed wrong.So I ended up doing it myself.As I I did the beds, for the first time in a long time, I felt like myself, as I folded my hair in a messy bun at the top of my head, folded the arms of my brown ‘home’ dress, got on my knees and got to work, tilling the ground with a tiny shovel and my hands.With constant visit to the delivery house and my afternoons I spent practicing with Gerald, it had taken me two weeks to till, water, and manure that hard ground, to make it prepared for whatever I put into it.Two weeks seems like a long time, but there is something about doing what you love. There is an unseen kind of pleasure you derive from it. For me, coming back to this space, by evening every day, feels like being given a gold bottle of grape juice after spending a long day in a desert.That calming effect.The chirping of birds and cold air remind me of how early it is as I bend to dodge the branch of a tree that stands like fingers, blocking my path.My p
RILEYIt has been two months, three weeks since Jude left.It has been two months, one week since I figured that Jude had been cheating on me.Well, I don’t know if I am to regard that as cheating as there is no explicit feelings or even intimate physical touch between us. Well, apart from…that. That intercourse that leaves me hurting in all places.Is it supposed to hurt?After ruminating over it for about a week, it began to feel like he was cheating on her.With me.I felt bad.I still feel bad.But, with the way Beta Stephen said it like a fact that everybody knows, I didn’t let him see how his words affected me. I couldn’t let him see the slight way in which my hands shook from the shock, the way the pulse line in my neck throbbed faster, as I tried to digest the content of what he had being saying.It had taken me a lot of will power to ignore the burn in my eyes and walk out of that room quietly. My head was hurting, my eyes and throat were burning and all I wanted to do was g
RILEY Nothing, apart from that one night I had come to ask about Jude, has ever brought me to this side of the Base. And even now, as I walk towards Beta Stephen's room, like a sheep to the kill, my focus is too occupied to be bothered about my surrounding.Why am I asked to come to his room?Is this proper?Room. Isn't that supposed to be like something sacred and intimate?Questions. Questions.None answered, but I have this nagging feeling that I will not like the outcome of this. The feeling comes like bitter taste in my throat.I had told no one of the previous words Beta Stephen had spoken to me, as there is obviously no one to tell, and I had also tried hard not to think about it. He had spoken in ambiguous words, so what if I was reading the wrong meaning?And why would someone list over me?Me?Like have you seen me?Okay, I have gotten compliments- from Pa, Casey's ma and Stefani- that I am on the pretty side, but with this pile of long black hair, that sometimes feel impo
wake up with a start.There is sweat running down my back and I can as well feel goosebumps rising on my legs. I feel weak and it takes me a moment to realize where I am.The kitchen, of course.A ragged sigh leave my chest as I fold back into my resting place.I had vomited a lot today. There had been two very pregnant womene up for delivery and they had fallen into labour almost simultaneously. Being that the midwife could only focus her acre and attention on one, we had to split into group. Cleaning the woman’s sweat was my own duty, as they were fully aware of what a disaster it would be if I was involved with the bloody part of the business.Seeing the woman’s face had given me a whirlwind of emotions, as whike I try to be stong and focus on inanimate objects in the room, the woman wouldn’t just stop wailing.Moved by the ferocity of her screams, I had once barked at the midwife, which I was oaired with, to hasten up. My shout had made the room go sklent. Even the women kept qui
RILEY I have never been materialistic, or moved by materials, as I don’t remember owning or receiving gifts from anyone. I can also vividly remember that it was in a bid to get me a gift that my Pa ended up the way he ended up. So this overwhelming joy I feel as the pendant hang around my neck, is totally foreign to me. There is a permanent smile plastered on my face as I continuously look down to check if it’s real and not just a play out of my imagination. Beta Stephen is saying something to the crowd, I know. What he is saying, I don’t know. Is this how everybody feels on Winter nights? No wonder the happiness written all over their faces, both Young and old, as they try tone it down and concentrate on listening to Beta Stephen. I don’t blame them. I am not listening too. After getting the information from Gerald that this beautiful thing hanging around my neck is my Winter gift from Jude, my husband, I had grabbed the box, and read a deeper meaning of love and consideratio
RILEYMy fear continues to manifest.Three days turned into a week, with no word or sight of the love of my life.Slowly, the days have blended into one week. And one week into two.Two weeks of my boredom intensifying and leaving me with the most terrible imaginations of what could have befallen Jude. As often as it comes, I try to cleanse it with positive thoughts.But the bad thoughts won’t just go away.It has someway gotten into my dreams, so that I no longer see Jude and I in rosy, sunshine filled places, where the sun shone very bright and the wind blew very low. No. I now see myself in tight rubber jumpsuits, as a warrior. Always the same costume. And my mission in those dreams are always the same.There is no one giving me this mission, but I see myself going to rescue Jude from all manner of dangerous places.From a fire filled bottomless pit, inhabited by big scary looking dragons. From dark dry desert, where I have to combat with huge dinosaurs that had large noses. From
RILEYEver heard of the saying that what you fear, taunts you. And as it taunts you, from just your imagination, slowly, without you even realizing it, you breathe life into that fear and it becomes reality.I know this is not how it’s said, but my brain settles with understanding it this way.This happens to me.My fears have become reality.One day passed. Understandable .Two days. I’m still waiting.Now three whole days.And no sign of my husband. I have, earnestly waited for his return. Prayed that he is safe. Hoped that he has all thing under control. Wished to be in his arms every night.These, I have been doing for two full weeks.It’s been three whole days and the only place I am given the liberty to see my husband in in my dreams. In my very lengthy dreams, as all I do these days is wait and sleep.In there, he is more handsome, calmer, speak to me softly, holds me tenderly, looks into my eyes regularly and kisses me very often, in a world where only two of us exist.But in
RILEYI force a smile, trying to dispose every feeling of awkwardness I had felt when I marched into the room. Okay. The messenger had called it a meeting, but I had thought, maybe, it will be just an official kind of discussion between myself and my husband, while we share breakfast.I was wrong.The room is packed with about twenty hefty Men, the Beta and the Alpha himself. I see no sign of anyone in the same gender as me. So, it is very normal to feel awkward while stepping into such a space.But…I am Luna.So I throw my head higher while stiffening my shoulders as I walk majestically, without hurry, into the space.As I walk, my eyes scan the room. The last time I came in here, I had been so excited about having breakfast with Jude, that ignored my surroundings and paid very little attention to the glaring details of the room. There are about twenty five rows of benches occupying the far left of the room. Or should I say, hall? Just like in the space outside the Base, the Alpha
RILEY My eyes travel to where Beta Stephen stands. I am eager for response as that would determine a lot of things. From the silence, I don’t even to look at the crowd to feel the tension they feel too. I can bet, I am not alone in this. “The neighboring pack…,” He begins, but stops halfway as Jude’s voice interrupts him. “Stanley Pack?” Is that tension I hear in my Alpha’s voice? I was not even aware that we had a neighboring pack, until now. And how strong could they be to make my powerful man fret at the mention of their name? Stanley pack? What sort of name is that? Well, it is decided. I don’t like them. Don’t ask me why. “Yes. Them. As you all know, I live in very close to the silver store, so I spend most of my time guarding it. At the initial stage of being Beta, I had literally slept in front of it every night, as I was still very anxious at that time.” Beta Stephen had a strong grip on the side of his coat, which he adjusted every second. Am I the o