LOGINTAKUMI WILLIAMS
I’d been beginning to think the only expression Noah was capable of wearing was a frown. But in less than twenty minutes, he proved me wrong, a chuckle escaping my lips as I replayed the whole encounter in my mind all over again. He sure looked way better than I expected, considering how he’d staggered into the house the previous night. He looked a drunk mess and seemed completely oblivious to the fact that I was in the living room the entire time, watching him ramble on as he struggled with his balance and eventually made his way to his room. Another chuckle escaped my lips as I turned around, my eyes roaming the couch in search of my phone. I found it easily, the buzzing sound coming from it giving away its location. The screen lit up as it sat in my hands, a new message popping up. Caleb: Where are you? Caleb: Your first class and you’re gonna be late again? Glancing at the time, I shoved the phone down my pocket and lazily made my way out of the living room to my room. I had morning classes scheduled to start by 9am but I’d never been a morning person. On good days I woke up by 9am and on even better days, 10am. But for the first time since Japan, I was up by 8am all thanks to Noah Mason. I wasn’t offended though, the sunlight peeping through the curtains oddly not disturbing. I looked around the house one more time and made my way to the room I’d chosen myself to get freshened up for the day. Majority of my things were still in my suitcase and like I was waiting for Noah to say something, I was yet to fully unpack. Regardless, I found a hoodie and faded jeans to throw on, leaving the house with another bag of chips several minutes past nine. Caleb was already in class by the time I got to school, seated at the middle row. I spotted him from a distance, pretending to be focused while he actually mindlessly swiped through dating apps, a chuckle escaping me as I slid into one of the seats at the very last row. “You’ll have to be sneakier than that if you don’t want to be noticed, Takumi.” All eyes turned in my direction, the professor crossing her arms as she watched me uselessly try to hide my face. In defeat, I flipped my hood and met her gaze, my signature smile appearing on my face. “I’m sorry, Mrs. Adams,” I flashed her the smile. “I lost track of time. I’m still a little jet lagged.” “A whole week later and you’re still jet lagged,” she shook her head, the class bursting into a fit of chuckles and laughter. “No one indeed does it like you, Takumi Williams. I guess I should be at least glad you decided to show up in class this semester even if you’re forty five minutes late.” Students chuckled again and with a final comment from her, her lecture continued. I could still feel a couple of gazes in my direction as I pulled out my notebook and pretended to begin paying attention. It had always been that easy for me. Professors adored me and students loved me. My popularity made it easy for me to use hockey as an excuse to easily miss classes and my charm made it impossible for anyone including classmates to ever have a problem with it. “You privileged bastard.” Classes were finally over and Caleb announced his presence by my side by throwing his bag at me. I caught it and rose to my feet, quick enough to stop him from throwing a punch at me too. Caleb Jones was my friend from my first year at university. He was also on the hockey team and with a lot more in common including our majors and dead fathers, we easily hit it off becoming so close we kept contact the entire time I was out of the country. “Welcome back to America baby,” he gave me a fist bump, pulling me in for a quick hug. “I can’t believe I missed your stupid ass. How was Japan?” “Boring,” I returned his bag to his shoulder as we walked out of the class. “I’m so glad I’m back.” “Oh yeah?” I was almost a meter taller than him, Caleb struggling to wrap his arm around my shoulder as always. “If you’re so glad then why didn’t you text me the minute you got back? Where are you staying? Why don’t you move in with me and the rest of the guys? Right your mum remarried before you left. Don’t tell me you’re living with her and her boyfriend? Shit I can’t call him her boyfriend anymore. Your stepdad!” “Shut up,” I kicked him by the butt, the title throwing me off a little. “And no, I’m not living with him. I’m living with his son.” “He has a son?” He paused his steps. “You didn’t mention that. Who is he? Does he attend uni here too? Do I know him?” “Yes, you do.” “Oh, cool then,” he resumed walking, turning in the direction of the cafeteria as we walked out of our faculty. “Invite him to the party you’re throwing this weekend so we can officially meet.” “There’ll be no need to do that,” I smirked, watching a familiar car pull over just a few meters away from us. “Cause we’re going to be having the party at his house.” “Whose?” “Noah Mason’s.” Caleb paused his steps once again and this time, almost coincidentally, the door to the car opened to reveal Noah Mason. As a sports management major and I on the other hand, majoring in psychology, I had no memory of Noah and I running into each other at uni. He moved in very specific circles but for the first time I was seeing him at my faculty. “That Noah Mason?” Caleb finally spotted him too. “You’ve got to be joking.” “No, I’m not,” I didn’t look away from him. He clearly hadn’t seen me, his eyes roaming around in search of either someone or something. “That Noah Mason.” I couldn’t help but wonder what he was actually doing here. As thrilling as it was to imagine it, he couldn’t be here for me. And from the way he glanced at his phone and watch over and over, I could tell he was impatiently waiting for someone. “No way in hell.” I immediately burst into laughter as a familiar wave of perfume rushed past me. With hurried steps, Rayna appeared out of nowhere, waving at Noah as she rushed towards him. “He came here for her?” “Isn’t she his girlfriend?” Caleb’s eyes followed mine. “I heard she told half the school when they started dating.” “She sure did,” I snickered under my breath, raising my brow as I continued to watch them. In no time, she was by his side, shaking like a drenched puppy, Noah looking at her with his usual frown on his face. “Well, this is interesting.” “What?” “Nothing. Ignore me,” I turned around the minute she got into his car, my curiosity reaching its limits. I pulled Caleb by the shoulder, reminding him we were on our way to the cafeteria. “So, yes, it’s settled. Party this Sunday.” “Are you sure about this?” “Invite everyone you know,” I pat him on the back. “Also, invite a lot of girls. I haven’t been in the country for a while so although it’s embarrassing to admit, I think I might have lost my touch.”TAKUMI WILLIAMS I’d learnt from an early age that some lies were needed. Like when my dad called in sick at work so he could watch my hockey match in grade 6. Or when my I told my dad my mum was the one craving pizza so he could pick it on his way home after I’d spent an entire week eating nothing but that same pizza. Those lies were harmless and in the long run, we had all laughed at it upon realization. It had been understandable and somehow, made me grow up to believe everyone always had a good reason behind their every action. But hearing Noah’s father had lied to the world, including my mum, about his ex-wife’s death, I suddenly questioned the very belief that had been ingrained in me for years.“I want to see her,” Noah continued. “I don't care what he says. I just want to see her.”“You should.”He looked at me.“I mean it,” I added. “If you want to see her, you should at least get the chance to try. Your dad can't just decide that for you without telling you anything.”Noa
TAKUMI WILLIAMSThe drive home was painfully quiet.Not the comfortable kind of silence that sometimes settled between Noah and me when neither of us had anything worth saying, but the kind that made me painfully aware of every little sound inside the car. The engine humming beneath us, the tires moving against the road, the occasional clicking of the indicator whenever I changed lanes.Noah hadn’t said a word since we left the parking lot.I kept glancing at him whenever I could without making it obvious, and every time I did, he was staring through the passenger-side window with an expression I couldn’t quite place.He looked exhausted.Not physically exhausted, either.There was something about the way he was sitting, his shoulders slightly hunched and his hands resting loosely against his thighs, that made him look like he had forgotten what to do with himself. Noah was usually so controlled that even when he was angry, there was something deliberate about it. He knew what he want
NOAH MASON For a moment, I couldn’t hear anything. The parking lot hadn’t suddenly gone quiet, and the world around me hadn’t stopped moving, but my father’s words seemed to have swallowed every other sound, leaving me standing there with nothing but the same sentence repeating inside my head. She’s getting worse. I stared at him, waiting for him to take it back, to explain that there had been some misunderstanding or that the hospital had made a mistake, because there was no way he could have driven all the way here just to tell me something like that. “What do you mean she’s getting worse?” My voice sounded unfamiliar, and I hated how unsteady it was. “Why would she get worse? Why?” Compared to what the rest of the world was made to believe, my mum wasn’t dead. She had been alive all this time, locked away in a psychiatric hospital, while the rest of the world carried on as though she had never existed. I was eight years old when he told me she was suffering from b
TAKUMI WILLIAMS I spotted Wyatt almost immediately after stepping onto the ice. He was seated a few rows up from the rink, close enough that I could recognize him without having to look too hard, and the moment our eyes met, he lifted a hand in greeting as though we hadn’t already had a conversation about him staying away from me. I looked away. Of course, he had come. I’d told him not to, but apparently, that was another one of those things he had decided he could ignore, and I wasn’t particularly interested in dealing with him before a match. I had enough to think about already, especially with the Titans being our opponents and the last thing I needed being a distraction that had nothing to do with hockey. Still, my eyes wandered across the crowd again, searching through the faces until I found myself looking for someone else. Noah. I wasn’t sure why I expected to see him, considering how things had been between us lately, but I looked anyway. I scanned the rows closest to
NOAH MASON The silence that followed was immediate. Ethan blinked, while Summer’s mouth fell slightly open before she recovered and leaned closer across the table. “Guys?” I nodded once, suddenly finding the condensation on my glass far more interesting than either of their faces. “As in…” Ethan paused, looking at Summer before returning his attention to me. “You’re attracted to men?” “That’s generally what it means.” “Okay,” Summer said slowly, although the surprise in her expression hadn’t completely disappeared. “I wasn’t expecting that.” “Neither was I.” “How did you figure it out?” Ethan asked. “Did you meet someone?” I hesitated. “Did you fall for a guy?” Summer added, her curiosity growing with every second I remained silent. My mind immediately went somewhere I hadn’t intended it to. Takumi. I remembered the way his hair fell over his forehead, how it sometimes got in his eyes when he leaned too close, and the way his dark brown eyes seemed to hold
NOAH MASON I hadn’t intended to listen to their conversation. In fact, I had been perfectly content with minding my own business when I arrived at the rink, but seeing Takumi standing with another man had made that considerably more difficult. I hadn’t recognized him, and although I couldn’t hear every word they exchanged, I had caught enough to understand that they weren’t strangers. The familiarity between them was difficult to miss, particularly when the man handed Takumi something and spoke to him with the kind of ease that suggested he knew more about him than the average person would. Then there had been the mention of tomorrow’s match, the promise to see him again, and the rather suggestive invitation to celebrate together afterwards. It didn’t take much effort to put the pieces together. That was his ex. I didn’t know his name, and I wasn’t particularly interested in finding out, but the realization left an uncomfortable feeling sitting somewhere in my chest. Not b







