ESTOY DE VUELTA, MADRID.

Alana

MADRID Capital of Spain. Where I grew up and lived. Return, disembark at Barajas airport to the sound of Mardy Boom by the Monkeys in my player, it brings me a feeling of homesickness, I remember the good times I had in this beautiful city, full of colors and flavors. I look around me, and I see people, some celebrating their arrival, others saying goodbye, and it reminds me of the day I left, and went to live in Brazil. At that moment, I really thought leaving was the solution, but it wasn't.

I still feel the same way, I lived in São Paulo for two years, but I couldn't forget it, maybe the distance has intensified what I already felt for him. You are wondering, who am I talking about? He is my stepfather's son, his name is Daniel, but everyone calls him Dani. Our parents got married when I was 7 and he was 11, although I never looked at him like a brother, Dani always treated me like her sister, she never saw me with other eyes, unlike me. I'm not sure when it started, I know I always felt something different for him, I always thought he was beautiful, smart, and the worst thing is that I could never like anyone, or be in a relationship. My friend Eduardo says that I became obsessed with this story, something I don't agree with, if I can't relate to other guys it's because my heart is connected to Dani, and after all this time away I'm willing to change that situation, because, my time in Brazil helped me to decide.

You must be thinking that I left because of him, in part yes, but I also wanted to get to know my father better, because I never had such a close relationship with him, and at that moment he was sick and in need of my help, that it was the perfect opportunity to get close to him, and get away from Dani. However, I thought that as I got to know my father a little more, I would forget the love I feel, I would meet someone else, but that didn't happen. However, I met my father, and I discovered a wonderful person, unfortunately he wasn't like that at the time my mother left Brazil, and came to study in Madrid, but I won't stay here rehashing the past, much less, the past of my parents . That's why I decided, I can't stay tied to the past, waiting for something to happen without at least trying to act, so I have to do something, live the present thinking about the future.

For that, I need to try, I have to declare myself to him, conquer his love, if I don't try, I feel like I'll be stuck in this story anyway, because even if I don't get anything, I need to end it and move on. my way. Wandering about my feelings makes me so distracted , I don't notice my mother approaching me in the airport lounge. Our date couldn't be warmer, I missed you, and hugging you, smelling your unmistakable jasmine scent, makes me so happy.

We went home, and it was no longer the one on the first floor of a small building, in a simple area of Madrid, a few years ago we moved to a closed condominium. When I moved to Brazil, everything was still under renovation, but now it looks very different. We pass the guardhouse after a brief identification, and continue along the main street, each side has large houses with extensive lawns, and when my mother's car pulls up in front of our house, I'm impressed. Its creamcolored facade with some glazed parts, a magnificent design, resembles a small building, and all this was possible after Dani turned professional, and became a football star.

When I enter the new house I am more impressed with what I see, everything is so clean , the living room and the furniture are the same color, white. I'm amazed and snapped out of the trance I find myself in when I hear shouts of welcome coming from a glass door.

— WELCOME, ALANA!

I didn't expect such a reception. There are people I know, and others I've never seen, and the first one who comes to hug me is my stepfather. He continues with his elegant, athletic build, and that was one of the things that attracted my mother, besides the beautiful brown eyes he has.

— How much you missed here at home, even that loud music you listened to I missed, Lana!

— I'm glad you missed me, I felt the same way too.

— And me, did you miss me? — Hearing that deep voice talking right behind me gives me goosebumps.

— Impossible, forgetting you! — I answer and turn around, flash a big smile to Dani, who hugs me very tightly. Smell his wonderful scent, that citrus scent he's always used, it makes me delirious.

I really missed that smell, the hug… All of that. He looks prettier than in the images on the Internet search engine, and apparently stronger, his hair in a spiky cut, his wide smile, his beautiful dark brown eyes, the stubble brushing the skin of my face, his arms. envelop me, and I don't want this moment to end. We could spend the whole night like this, but unfortunately he lets go of me, and says something.

— I want to introduce you to a very special person to me… — He turns around and holds the hand of a blonde girl, blue eyes, with a vibrant smile, very red lips due to the lipstick.

— This is Isabella, I met her on the last trip I took to Milan, with the team. We are dating.

What? What do you mean, dating?

By God, did he say that?

It's not possible!

I don't believe it, I refuse to believe it. I do n't remember this information, nobody told me, I didn't see it on the Internet, on gossip sites.

This can only be a prank!

That's when I remember what Alex says in my favorite Monkeys song , Mardy boom ...