Alana
MADRID Capital of Spain. Where I grew up and lived. Return, disembark at Barajas airport to the sound of Mardy Boom by the Monkeys in my player, it brings me a feeling of homesickness, I remember the good times I had in this beautiful city, full of colors and flavors. I look around me, and I see people, some celebrating their arrival, others saying goodbye, and it reminds me of the day I left, and went to live in Brazil. At that moment, I really thought leaving was the solution, but it wasn't.
I still feel the same way, I lived in São Paulo for two years, but I couldn't forget it, maybe the distance has intensified what I already felt for him. You are wondering, who am I talking about? He is my stepfather's son, his name is Daniel, but everyone calls him Dani. Our parents got married when I was 7 and he was 11, although I never looked at him like a brother, Dani always treated me like her sister, she never saw me with other eyes, unlike me. I'm not sure when it started, I know I always felt something different for him, I always thought he was beautiful, smart, and the worst thing is that I could never like anyone, or be in a relationship. My friend Eduardo says that I became obsessed with this story, something I don't agree with, if I can't relate to other guys it's because my heart is connected to Dani, and after all this time away I'm willing to change that situation, because, my time in Brazil helped me to decide.
You must be thinking that I left because of him, in part yes, but I also wanted to get to know my father better, because I never had such a close relationship with him, and at that moment he was sick and in need of my help, that it was the perfect opportunity to get close to him, and get away from Dani. However, I thought that as I got to know my father a little more, I would forget the love I feel, I would meet someone else, but that didn't happen. However, I met my father, and I discovered a wonderful person, unfortunately he wasn't like that at the time my mother left Brazil, and came to study in Madrid, but I won't stay here rehashing the past, much less, the past of my parents . That's why I decided, I can't stay tied to the past, waiting for something to happen without at least trying to act, so I have to do something, live the present thinking about the future.
For that, I need to try, I have to declare myself to him, conquer his love, if I don't try, I feel like I'll be stuck in this story anyway, because even if I don't get anything, I need to end it and move on. my way. Wandering about my feelings makes me so distracted , I don't notice my mother approaching me in the airport lounge. Our date couldn't be warmer, I missed you, and hugging you, smelling your unmistakable jasmine scent, makes me so happy.
We went home, and it was no longer the one on the first floor of a small building, in a simple area of Madrid, a few years ago we moved to a closed condominium. When I moved to Brazil, everything was still under renovation, but now it looks very different. We pass the guardhouse after a brief identification, and continue along the main street, each side has large houses with extensive lawns, and when my mother's car pulls up in front of our house, I'm impressed. Its creamcolored facade with some glazed parts, a magnificent design, resembles a small building, and all this was possible after Dani turned professional, and became a football star.
When I enter the new house I am more impressed with what I see, everything is so clean , the living room and the furniture are the same color, white. I'm amazed and snapped out of the trance I find myself in when I hear shouts of welcome coming from a glass door.
— WELCOME, ALANA!
I didn't expect such a reception. There are people I know, and others I've never seen, and the first one who comes to hug me is my stepfather. He continues with his elegant, athletic build, and that was one of the things that attracted my mother, besides the beautiful brown eyes he has.
— How much you missed here at home, even that loud music you listened to I missed, Lana!
— I'm glad you missed me, I felt the same way too.
— And me, did you miss me? — Hearing that deep voice talking right behind me gives me goosebumps.
— Impossible, forgetting you! — I answer and turn around, flash a big smile to Dani, who hugs me very tightly. Smell his wonderful scent, that citrus scent he's always used, it makes me delirious.
I really missed that smell, the hug… All of that. He looks prettier than in the images on the Internet search engine, and apparently stronger, his hair in a spiky cut, his wide smile, his beautiful dark brown eyes, the stubble brushing the skin of my face, his arms. envelop me, and I don't want this moment to end. We could spend the whole night like this, but unfortunately he lets go of me, and says something.
— I want to introduce you to a very special person to me… — He turns around and holds the hand of a blonde girl, blue eyes, with a vibrant smile, very red lips due to the lipstick.
— This is Isabella, I met her on the last trip I took to Milan, with the team. We are dating.
What? What do you mean, dating?
By God, did he say that?
It's not possible!
I don't believe it, I refuse to believe it. I do n't remember this information, nobody told me, I didn't see it on the Internet, on gossip sites.
This can only be a prank!
That's when I remember what Alex says in my favorite Monkeys song , Mardy boom ...
AlanaDios, how did this happen? When he introduced me to that girl, my world came crashing down. It can not be! Dani has never brought a girlfriend to introduce the family, I think he's never had a girlfriend, or anything serious with anyone, so that means he has some feelings for her, and it's not just sex. That worries me.She squeezes my hand and then hugs me, I smile and don't show any more reaction, I just keep controlling my emotions so I don't freak out. They talk and ask me questions, and I just shake my head, and keep smiling, the most awkward smile possible, and expressionless. I feel devastated, I need to run, get away from this place. I distance myself from the couple, I still can't believe everything I've heard, it can't be possible, he can't be in love, how did this happen? My real desire is to scream, cry, and make a real freak show in front of everyone, but I know it would be wrong to do so, so the best thing to do is take my team out of the field. I walk backwards, I
AlanaHe can't even speak, we're interrupted by laughter and screams coming from the hallway, and I recognize it very well, they're my friends, they come into the room and look at us in a very accusing way. Edu, as always, in a not discreet way and without any caution with words.— What are you guys doing here alone? — Are you already wanting to open the room, and with Raúl?Edu and Babi express a cynical smile on their faces, I particularly want to kill them. Meanwhile, Raúl and I were extremely embarrassed by what my friend said, I look indignant and come to our defense.— Edward! What a dull joke, it's been a while since we've seen each other, and this is how you welcome me?— Oh, friend... I was just kidding, Raúl knows it's a joke, doesn't he Raúl?— It's all right! Alana, I'll make you comfortable with your friends...— But you had something important to say to me and...— Tomorrow... Uh... I'll call you!He doesn't say anything else, smiles, hugs me and leaves. I don't understa
AlanaThe night passed like a torment, I couldn't sleep well, if I didn't know the reason, I'd say it was due to the time difference, or fatigue from the trip, but it wasn't anything like that, the reason was Dani. I lay down on my bed with the intention of resting, but in my mind an idea was swarming, and like a fool I went to her room, which is two doors down from mine, in front of her I tried to turn the knob, but it was locked, I turned to face her. back to the, and before I took a few steps, I heard a woman's high-pitched moans. He was with her. Why couldn't those moans be mine? Why didn't he want me? I was shaken, tears streamed down my face, and I ran back to my room. I locked myself in, and I stood there in the doorway, leaning against it, slipping until I was sitting on the floor. I grabbed my legs and cried. I stayed there for a long time until I got up the courage to go to bed.I turned from one side to the other in a frustrated attempt to forget that damn sound, and now I'
AlanaEvery kiss of Raúl on my neck makes me uncomfortable, I don't know how to explain what happens to me. I let myself be carried away by the firmness of his hands on my waist, his citrus scent invading my nose, my skin burning with each contact of his lips. I'm surrendered to sensations, my eyes closed, I don't see anything, I just feel it, and when I feel the hardness of his member against me, I realize that it's going too far, and I push it away. I look at Raúl scared, I realize that I was right with my suspicion, he has some interest in me. He looks at me regretfully, approaches me again, but I push him away once more.— Raul… no ! I think you better go ..— Lana, I can explain it to you! — Sorry , I don't...— I already told you, I think you better go! — She said a little harshly.He doesn't say anything else, lowers his head, looks disappointed, and goes off like a rocket. I stand there not understanding what is happening, or rather what happened, I don't understand why my bod
RaúlI run around the field unwillingly. I haven't slept well for a few days, I spend the nights thinking about what happened. Will Alana want to go out with me? I tried to call her, I went to her house, but it seems like she doesn't want to see me, I think I need to give her space to process what happened that day. Tomás and other players talk non-stop, I can't understand what they're talking about, he's a little ahead of me, and he turns around, looks in my direction.— Hey man, shall we?— To where?— At Diego's house, he'll throw a party to celebrate the last victories, and we'll prepare ourselves psychologically for “El Gran Clasico”...— I don't know, I thought I'd do something later! — As soon as I speak, he stops running and pulls me to the corner of the field.— Dude, I don't know ... I think you should forget about this girl a little, at Diego's party, there are going to be a lot of wonderful cats, and...— Tomás, look… I know you're my friend and you want the best for me, b
RaúlI park in front of the house, on the other side of the driveway, and watch in front of me a row of cars much better than mine, probably my teammates' cars. I look at those cars, and I remember Tomás saying the other day, in the locker room, “You need to change cars, this one has done its job. You need a more powerful and more attractive car, my friend!” I don't see a problem with my car, but according to Tomás, it's already old and doesn't attract women. I have a great passion for this car, I bought it when I signed my first professional contract, and besides, the woman I want doesn't seem to care much about it, so for me, it's just a big nonsense, but for my colleagues of club seems to be something very important.I get out of the car, cross the street, go up some steps to the entrance, which is between a large expanse of grass, I notice some people in front of the house, it has a rustic appearance with its stone facade, it reminds of those old castles with huge glazed windows.
AlanaI feel strange with all this closeness, our bodies pressed together, one hand on my waist, and the other holding my arm, I don't know what's happening to me, my legs are shaking, the hairs on my arms are standing on end, and my mouth is opening and closing. Suddenly something seems different, it's as if something is preventing me from breathing, talking, and that's because of Raúl's intense gaze on me.My unease in front of Raúl is strange, after all, I shouldn't feel anything, I like Dani, but why am I trembling? Why is my skin burning right where he touches me? I'm lost in his gaze, which moves between my eyes and my mouth, and when he comes closer and whispers in my ear those words “Calma cariño” it's even worse, hard to admit, but I long for something. I'm not recognizing myself.By the pool I talk to some guys on the team, when someone bumps into me, I turn to look, and I'm in for a surprise. I never imagined finding her here, her scared look, a little lost, her fleshy mout
AlanaHearing that simple nickname that Raúl loves to call me, made an even bigger impact, and when he said he wanted me, I felt a different energy go through my body that reacted warmly to it. What is happening to me?Raúl takes his hand to my chin, and lifts it, his gaze leaves me lost, he approaches his mouth again and kisses my neck, I feel something burning through my body, inside me, an intense heat takes over. The reactions that invade me, frighten me too much, I never expected to be like this with a man other than Dani, and is it Raúl who makes me feel this way? I've liked Dani for a long time, and I've shied away from relationships, I've never allowed anyone to get this close, or touch me like that.One of his hands lands on my thigh, and he squeezes it, his mouth is on mine again, and this time I take the reins of the situation, and I kiss him with pleasure. Raúl squeezes my waist, and quickly pulls me to sit on his lap, and I allow it. What's happening? If you had asked me