The Shame They Served Me

Chapter: 2 

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Silence filled the room,  not just silence, but a suffocating tension. Their eyes were wide open, every single gaze pinned on me like daggers. This ceremony was supposed to be a happy one for them, a celebration… But now? Now it has turned into a disaster, a living nightmare.

“You fucking halrot! How dare you!” a loud, venomous voice thundered across the room. Before I could even process what was happening, my hair was being yanked so hard my neck snapped backward. I tried to pull away, to defend myself, but I couldn't,  she was just too powerful, too fast, fueled by pure rage.

Finally, I managed to break free from her grip, but it came at a cost. Pain shot through me as the sharp shards of glass from earlier pierced into my legs. My hands trembled, blood oozing down my skin, but I ignored the pain, I was too consumed by confusion, by fear, by the burning humiliation to care.

What the hell was going on?

My gaze lifted, locking onto Alpha Kael. His expression? Distant… cold… like he couldn’t care less about what was happening to me. But what shattered me more was the smirk that curled on his lips, like this was all some sick joke to him.

“W…what’s happening?” I whispered, my voice trembling, my eyes filling with tears I could no longer hold back. I tried to process the scene unfolding before me, tried to piece it together, but each time I did, it only made everything worse,  more unbearable, more humiliating.

“What do you mean what’s happening?” Alpha Kael’s voice boomed, the smirk still dancing on his face, sharp and cruel.

“Isn’t this what you want? What you’ve always wanted? What you’ve always fantasized about?”

His words sliced through me, making my heart pound like it wanted to escape my chest. I looked around, my eyes darting to Elyra. Confusion still clouded my face, until I saw it, the purple book in her hand.

In that very instant… I recognized it.

My heart sank to my stomach. No… no, this can't be happening.

I wanted so badly for this to be a dream,  no, a nightmare I could wake up from. I would give anything, pay any price, even my own life, just to make this moment disappear. But I didn’t need to pinch myself to know it was real.

It was happening, and there was no way out of it.

“You should trust your very generous Beta,” Elyra’s voice resounded with a mocking tone as she turned to face the crowd, her lips curled into that wicked smile I’ve always hated. “A couple of days ago, I stumbled upon her silly little diary. And guess what I saw there?” she questioned, waving the book like it was some kind of trophy.

My hand twitched, itching to snatch that book away from her. It contained my life, my secrets, my embarrassing thoughts, my fears, everything. But I couldn't snatch it. I couldn’t move. I was just too numb, too frozen, too broken to do that. Instead, my gaze wandered across the crowd, searching for help, for anything… but all I saw were their eyes, wide open, waiting for her to spill the beans, waiting to feast on my shame.

My heart burned, my chest tightened so hard I almost forgot how to breathe. How the hell did I even get myself into this situation? How could I be so stupid?

“So, I’m just going to open a random page and read it to you,” she announced with a smirk, flipping the book open, her eyes darting to me mockingly. And all I could do was cry. Pathetic me!

“The last time I saw him… Alpha Kael… his blue eyes stared straight into my soul. I have a huge crush on him, all I want is just for him to look at me… maybe mark me… but that’s never going to happen.”

She read it loud and clear, dragging every single word like a blade across my skin. At that moment, I wished the ground would open up and swallow me whole, bury me six feet under, erase me from this nightmare.

Gasps erupted like a chain reaction, ripples of shock and disgust spreading through the room. Some covered their mouths, others exchanged whispers, and the rest? They just stared at me like I was filth, like I was nothing but some lovesick fool who deserved this humiliation.

Her voice kept going, reading more of my journal, exposing me, tearing my soul apart, but I couldn’t hear it anymore. The shame… It was just too much for me to carry. My head spun, my ears rang with that long, piercing frequency, like someone set off an alarm in my brain. My vision blurred, everything twisted, and all I wanted was for this to stop, for everything to stop.

To make it worse, my wolf, Ava, was restless, clawing and pounding at the edges of my mind. I could feel her rage, her pain, her helplessness, tearing everything apart inside me, making it even harder to see, harder to think.

This wasn’t just humiliation, this was pure wickedness. This was bullying at its finest. They could’ve ignored it. They could’ve walked away. But no, they had to turn it into a show, a public execution of my dignity.

Yes, I had a crush on the Alpha. Yes, I know how dumb that sounds now. I shouldn’t have. These people treat me like dirt, like I don’t even exist, yet my stupid heart still couldn’t resist him. And now? That stupid heart has dragged me straight into hell.

I was weak. Too weak to fight. Too weak to breathe. Too weak to think straight. My legs gave out before I even realized it, and I collapsed onto the cold, hard floor. My eyes slowly closed, heavy, tired, drained of every ounce of strength I had left.

And honestly? I didn’t fight it. I welcomed it. After living a miserable life filled with nothing but pain, humiliation, and regret… this felt like the perfect end.

With that… my eyes finally closed.