LOGINRyanThe body was Callum's. I stood over him in the hallway and made myself look. You don't get to look away when you're the Alpha. That's not a privilege you keep.Callum was twenty-three and he beeat every wolf his age in sparring last month and wouldn't shut up about it for two weeks after. His laugh used to bounce off the walls of this house like it owned the place.Now he was on the floor with his throat torn out. Same as Mira.I heard Simon behind me. Nobody was talking and that was the problem, because Simon always talked, always had something to say, and he coming here so quiet meant that this completely surprised him.He came around the corner and stopped when he saw Callum and for just a second, just one, something crossed his face that he didn't have time to hide. Pain. Real pain, the kind that lives behind the eyes and doesn't ask permission to show up.Then it was gone and he was my Beta again."Second one tonight," he said, coming to stand beside me. Not a question."Sec
ZaraThe room was too quiet after he left.I hated that. I hated how fast the quiet found me, how it pressed in around the edges of the bed like it had been waiting all night for its turn. Martha moved around me, checking the IV line, pressing two fingers to my wrist like she didn't trust the monitor to tell her the truth, and I let her, because fighting her felt like more effort than I had in me."You're doing better than you should be," she said, not looking up. "Whatever he did, it worked fast.""He didn't do anything." The words came out raw, my throat still tender from things I didn't want to examine too closely. "I gave it to him."Martha's hands stilled for half a second. Just half a second, but I caught it, the way you catch a held breath in someone who's spent decades learning not to react to anything."That's not what I meant," she said carefully, and went back to the line.I closed my eyes. The ceiling had started to blur an hour ago, soft at the edges like the whole room w
RyanThe words didn't make sense at first. They just hung there in the air between us, four syllables that refused to assemble into something my mind could hold.Mira. She's dead.I felt Zara's fingers twitch against mine, the smallest pressure, like she was trying to ground me before I'd even moved and maybe she knew, before I did, that something in me was about to come apart."Say that again," I said, and my voice didn't sound like mine. It came out low, flat, the voice I used when I needed people to obey before they understood why."Mira." My man — Theo, his name was Theo, I made myself remember that, made myself hold onto the small human details because the alternative was letting the wolf take the wheel completely even as he swallowed hard."She was found an hour ago, within the room. Alpha, it wasn't an accident. Her throat was...""Don't." The word cracked out of me before I could stop it. Not yet. I couldn't hear the rest of it yet, not with Zara's hand still weak in mine, not
ZaraEverything was fuzzy, like I was looking at the world through water. I heard Ryan's voice, far away and close at the same time, shouting something. My name, maybe. I wanted to answer him but my mouth wouldn't work the way I wanted it to.The last thing I remembered clearly was his fangs in my arm and the strange, pulling sensation that came after, like something was being drawn out of me slowly, drop by drop. It hadn't hurt, not really. Not after the first sting. It had almost felt peaceful, watching him relax against me, feeling his shoulders drop the tension they'd been carrying since I walked into that room.I wanted to tell him it was worth it."Stay with me, Zara, please." His voice cracked on my name.I felt myself being carried, his arms tight around me like he was scared I would slip through them if he loosened his grip even a little. I tried to open my eyes properly, to tell him I was fine, that he didn't need to look so broken, but my body wasn't listening to me anymore
RyanThe way I looked at her felt like an outerwordly experience in a way that told me that all of this was not a normal thing. In that moment, she was as beautiful as the morning sun, radiating in such a way that told me that I couldn't do anything to her. She was pure, purer than the whitest dove while I was stained, my soul darker than the depths of the sea."Ryan, i'm here... you can talk to me," she urged.I could see genuine care in her eyes, something I never saw in Mira. This woman loved me, she cared for me and I had made her pass through the worst experience anyone could ever pass through."Don't come any closer... don't you see, I am a disease... i will infect you and I don't want to do that. Please stay away from him." I begged.It pained me to say that but my wolf was at the surface, threatening to break out and when it does, Zara might not survive. I watched as she unbottoned her shirt, exposing her arm even as my mouth watered. I knew what she was offering but still, th
ZaraI walked towards where Ryan might be and with each step i took, it was increasingly hard to stay still. There was so much going on in my mind and I hated to think that i partly caused it. Even though I knew that he was facing demons of his own, still it still made me wonder if i caused this."Where are you going?" Simon asked from behind me.I ignored him even as I took several steps forward, wondering when he would be okay enough to talk to me about what was going on with him."You shouldn't go in there Zara, take it from me." Simon said again.This time, I was done listening to him. Ryan needed me, that much I could tell and even if he couldn't say it in words, I knew he did.Finally, i got to the main doors, overlooking the entrance and I realized it was sealed shut in such a way that the only going in was from inside."Ryan!" I shouted, banging on the door.He was inside, I could feel it within me but still, I knew he wasn't in the right frame of mind. I don't know why i felt
RyanI was an asshole, that much I knew and I realized what I did to her was something I would never be able to forgive myself for. I had not only dashed her trust and hopes in me, but I had ruined whatever little chance I had left to gain her trust. This was a very critical time in our lives, not
ZaraOne minute Ryan was talking to me and the next minute, his eyes turned to a shade of black I had no idea was possible. I walked towards him, attempting to touch him, to feel his palm under mine but I was too scared too, seeing that not only did he appear weird but he was muttering, saying thin
RyanThe door slammed open so hard it hit the wall and bounced back slightly, and for a brief moment nobody in the room even reacted as though their minds were still trying to catch up with what their eyes had just seen.I was already on my feet before I fully processed who had come in, because the
Zara(twenty minutes ago)I stood there watching Mira with all the silence I could muster. I knew one thing was for sure, she wasn’t here for any visit but to warn me judging by the horrid look in her eyes. “I thought…”I didn’t have the words to say because it all felt like a nasty dream I wanted







