"So what are you trying to say?" He asked as he stared down at me, trying to read what's running in my head.
I can't blame him. Kung ako man ang nasa posisyon niya ay paniguradong maguguluhan din ako. Who would expect a woman would suddenly approach to man and tries to make an unexpected deal. Even I surprised myself.
"I'm saying to make a ruse," I paused. "Isipin mo. If we pretend that we are in love and get married, I could finally be free from my aunt, and you will not disappoint your Mom before she... you know what I mean."
"That's absurd. We couldn't pretend to love," He argued.
"We can! If we just fake everything then it wouldn't be so hard. No feelings attached."
"Paano natin 'yan masasabi? How can we say that feelings would never be involved?" He asked.
"Pagkatapos nating magpakasal, we'll still do the charades. We'll just wait for a few months or years and then we'll get divorce," I replied.
"Ayoko," He said firmly.
I rolled my eyes. Akala ko madali lang kumbinsihin ang isang Lev Laurier. They said that he's easy-going and approachable. Madali lang daw siyang kausap. Pero nakalimutan ko pa lang family-oriented din ito. Aside from he loves his family, he also see marriage as sacred, like everybody does!
"Come on. Why not?"
"I told you naman. I couldn't lie in front of the altar. I can't say I do to you just because of this stupid ruse. And besides, walang divorce sa bansang ito. Siguro may annulment but the fact that we are married in the church means we are not only lying to everyone and to ourselves, but also in front of God," He argued. "I couldn't do that!"
"Who says we're going to be married in church? In the Philippines?" I smirked. "We are going to marry abroad and not in church."
He stared at me, must be thinking if I'm crazy or not. Well, probably the former.
"Sinasabi ko sa'yo ulit. Ayoko," He sighed. "I know that I need to marry someone this season but atleast I should marry someone I might learn how to love." He paused. "And even though we get married, I don't want my Mom to die believing something that is fake."
"Am I not a potential bride?" I asked.
"What?"
I squinted my eyes and took a few steps forward pero humakbang lang din siya paatras. Hindi ako huminto sa paghakbang papalapit sa kanya hanggang sa mahinto siya dahil sa pader. I saw him swallowed hard as I inched my face closer to his.
"Am I not your type?" I asked.
I am undoubtedly pretty. Maraming nagsasabi sa akin at humahanga sa aking ganda and kailanmam ay hindi ko ito ipinagyayabang. Ngayon lang ako naging confident kasi kailangan ko siyang kumbinsihin— even though I know that my chances are thin.
He sighed and slightly pushed me forward. Yup! I expected that from him.
"You're pretty, Kaia. Any guy would turn their heads to you. Kaya lang I'm not the type of guy. I don't want to take advantage of you," He said.
Nilagpasan niya ako saka tinapik ako sa balikat. I sighed. I badly want this to work. Maraming lalake ang may gusto sa akin. They are falling in line, wanting to marry me. Pero bakit si Lev and pinili ko? Because he's not interested in me. I wouldn't have to worry if I'd hurt him in the process kasi he wouldn't care as well.
Aside from that, we are on the same boat. He wants to get married this season because his mom is dying. Ang sabi ng ina niya ay gusto niya itong makitang makasal bago siya pumanaw. He wants to do as what his mom wants. If my desire of getting married urgent, his reason is more urgent. Kaya akala ko madali lang siyang kumbinsihin. Hindi pala.
"I'm tired, Lev," I said and face him. "I want to be independent."
"Then be independent," he said and faced me, with a gentle smile on his face. "You can do that, Kaia. You are a strong woman."
"You don't know my aunt," I replied.
"Exactly," He snapped. "I don't know your aunt so solve this matter by yourself. Huwag mo akong damayin sa family issues niyo."
"I'm sorry," Tanging sabi ko.
He's right. This is my problem. Maybe pareho lang kami ng gusto na makasal agad, but he will always know his limits. He wants real love, while I only want temporary. Am I bad at doing so? Maybe I am. Maybe I'm being selfish.
"I hope you find true love, Kaia," He said and turned his back.
I sighed. That's impossible. I don't do romance. I feel like it would always get in my way. Aside from that, I also don't think a woman needs a partner. I could spoil myself and satisfy myself. Why would I want a man to do those things that I can?
Huminto si Lev sa paglakad papalayo dahil biglang tumunog yung phone niya. I looked at him as he fished his phone on his pockets. He answered the call and put his phone on his ears.
"Ate?" He answered.
I was quiet while he answers the call. Ate? May mga kapatid pala siya. If I am not mistaken, siya ang bunso at siya din ang nag-iisang lalake sa magkakapatid. That's why he is loved dearly. No wonder he's nice and gentle. He's the baby brother.
"What?!" He exclaimed. "Saang ospital?!"
I got alerted by his sudden outburst. Anong nangyari? Is it his Mom? He mentioned that his Mom refused to be confined in the hospital due to her personal reasons. Now, maybe they rushed her to the hospital because it must be getting serious.
"I'll be there!" He said.
Before he could leave, I stopped him. "Anong nangyari?"
He bit his lower lip and stared at me in the eyes. He looks troubled and confused. I don't know the exact words to describe him. He's looking at my eyes intently as if I was the only person that could help him.
"Kaia," He started as tears started blinding him. "I'm in."
"To get married?!" I exclaimed. "Are you crazy?" "I'm not crazy. I am dead serious," She sighed. "If you want to be independent, then marry someone this season." "Pero ayoko!" I insisted. "Pwede naman akong maging independent na hindi kailangan magpakasal. I have a job and I can completely satisfy my needs and wants. Nasa tamang edad na din ako. Why won't you let me go!" "Kasi nangako ako sa Daddy mo!" She bursts. Napahinto ako. He promised Dad? "What do you mean?" "Before my brother died, I promised to raise you until you get married," She paused. "Kaya kung ano man ang binabalak mong gawin para makawala sa akin ay itigil mo na. Walang saysay din 'yan kasi malalaman at malalaman ko din." "What would you do if I escaped?" I asked. "I'll have your account frozen," She smirked. "You can't do that." "Fortunately for me, I can. And that is unfortunate for you," she smirked. "You have no other choice, do you?" I stared at her, totally losing hope. Tama nga siya. Kahit ano pa an
"It depends. Are you here for it?" He asked back.I squinted my eyes. That's a bit rude, answering my question with another question. Napangiti naLang ako at yumuko saglit. I'm not sure if he's hitting on me or just beating the bush. "Bakit, Mr. Laurier? Are you interested in me?" I asked before meeting his eyes.He chuckled. "I'm not the type who falls in love at first sight.""That's a rude way of saying I'm unattractive," Taas-kilay kong sabi sa kanya."I didn't say that!" He defended himself. "Ikaw? Unattractive? Hindi mo ba nakita ang mga lalakeng nakapila sa'yo?"Nilingon niya yung mga lalaki sa party. Sinundan ko yung tingin niya at doon ko nakita na sa akin pala nakatingin ang karamahiman. May it be men or the women, I'm not really sure if they are looking at me or Lev. Basta nasa amin yung mga mata nila."I would say the same to you. Looks like every girl is interested in asking you for a dance," Turo ko sa mga babae."Girls wouldn't ask me. That would look improper and unla
"It was an accident... Yes. They didn't mean to be scandalous. Someone obviously bumped on my niece and the young Laurier, as the gentleman he is, was only trying save her... Yes. It was all a misunderstanding. Thank you." Binaba ni Auntie yung telepono niya at napatingin sa akin."I'm sorry," Sambit ko.Hindi ako yung tipo na nanghihingi ng pasensya but this time, I felt like it was entirely my fault. After what happened earlier, when Lev and I kissed, a lot have been calling my Aunt, asking if there has been something going on between us. Sinasabi ng iba na ang bastos raw namin para maglaplapan sa harap ng lahat. Idagdag mo pa na magkasabay kaming pumasok. Well, it wasn't laplapan naman. It took a few seconds at tamang dampi lang naman at halatang hindi namin inaasahan. People tend exaggerate things."Where have you been?" She asked, disappointed. "Bakit magkasabay kayong pumasok kasama si Laurier?"Kumunot yung noo ko. "Sinabi na naman namin kanina, diba?""I know that it wasn't ju
I parked the car outside the house. Napabuntong-hininga ako. Alam kong komplikado ang gagawin namin pero we don't have a choice. Sumang-ayon na si Lev sa plano ko. He and I will start to act as if we are each other's type. We will take it slow kasi baka magtaka sila na ang bilis naman naming mahulog sa isa't-isa. That's not really convincing.Hindi ko din mapigilan ang makaramdam ng ease. Kasi nga okay na si Lev tungkol dito. Although alam ko naman na labag sa kalooban niya. But he sees it as an opportunity knocking on his door so he grabbed it but with hesitations. Hindi ko siya masisisi. Kahit nga ako ay nakakaramdam ng kaba. Lumabas na ako ng sasakyan at naglakad papasok sa bahay. Napatingin ako sa kabuuan nito. Konting kembot nalang ay makakaalis na din ako dito. I smiled at the thought. Inabot ko yung siradora para pagbuksan ang sarili."Surprise!" May biglang sumigaw.Bumilog ang aking mga mata nang makita kung sino ito. Her hair is brown and curly. Mamahalin din yung suot niya
"I see that you were having fun," Sabi ni Lev sa akin."I can't say no to him. Anak ng Presidente. At isa pa, everyone was looking at me. Alangan namang ire-reject ko siya," I defended myself.Lev and I are both sitting in the table with foods in our plates. Si Kali? Hindi ko na alam kung nasaan siya. I didn't bother looking for her kasi naging busy na din ako. "I didn't say you should have rejected him," Iling niya. "I just thought that we should stick together.""Right," I nodded. "I'm sorry."Dapat pala hindi na ako nag-entertain ng mga lalaki. I should have been pretending that Lev got my interest and my attention should only be his. Same goes to him. Ganun din dapat."It's fine. Gaya ng sabi mo, bastos din tingnan kong umayaw ka kanina."Tumango lang ako at sumubo ulit ng pagkain. Masarap naman yung pagkain pero wala akong gana. Sayang kasi kung hindi ko kakainin. Mukhang mamahalin pa naman. "Anyway, hindi ka yata late?" I asked."Oh. That." He nodded. "I had to take care of my
KALI'S POV"Bakit ang bait mo?" He asked me as I assist him going up to his condo unit."Do I need a reason to be kind?" Iling ko. Konti nalang mararating na namin yung unit niya. I knew that I wouldn't let him be in that party, drunk. Baka ano pa ang gagawin niya. Let's just say I'm a little interested in him. He told me kasi tungkol sa mom niya and I felt sympathy towards him. It must have been so hard for him. Nagtataka nga ako kung bakit nasa party siya at hindi niya kasama Mommy niya. But then again, maybe he wants to divert his attention to something else. However, he ended up drunk, thinking the same problem over and over again."I just didn't expect this from you," He chuckled. "Girls like me still exists," I replied and we both stopped in front of his door. "Ano yung pin?"Kumalas siya sa hawak ko at pagewang-gewang na lumapit sa pintuan. He started pressing the numbers which I quickly looked away. I know privacy and I don't want to take advantage of him being drunk. I have
LEV'S POV"Are you gonna be married or not?" My sister asked.I woke up with a terrible headache. Pagkabukas ko pa ng mga mata ko, mukha na ng mga kapatid ko ang bumungad sa akin. They opened the curtains which light made its way to my room. They know the pin to my condo unit so they can barge in any time they want."Good morning too," I replied. "Anong oras na?""It's ten in the morning, Lev. Uminom ka ba kagabi?" One sister asked."Oo," I replied.Kaya pala masakit yung ulo. I did drank last night. Pero ang sabi ko naman na hindi ako magpapakalasing. I ended up doing otherwise. I let mysel carried away with the emotions I was feeling.Come to think of it, someone did helped me last night. Paniguradong hindi ko kayang umuwi na ako lang mag-isa. Knowing my condition, I would end up lying on the streets if I were left alone. Sino nga ba yung kasama ko kagabi?"You are a potential wife," I heard my voice.Kumunot yung noo ko. Eh? Potential wife? Sino naman ang pagsasabihin ko nun? I tri
It's been ten minutes past one and Lev is not here yet. Sa aming dalawa, siya talaga ang palaging hinihintay. I should be mad about his frequent tardiness but it would always remind me that he have other problems to face as well. Gaya nung nakaraan, I took consideration of the fact that he may be taking care of his mother."Wala pa ba ang batang Laurier?" My Aunt asked.May picnic nga talaga at kadalasang nandito ay yung mga kasali sa Marriage Season. May tent ang Dorchner kung saan may mesa at upuan sa ilalim nito. We also brought our van para sa ibang kakailanganin. We brought our cook para magluto sa aming kakainin. Gusto ko sanang simple lang. Okay lang naman din sa akin na ako ang magluluto. But our Aunt insisted to be grand. Ano na lang daw sasabihin ng iba kapag nakita nilang simple lang yung picnic namin. They would think that we couldn't afford such luxury. Na namumulubi na kami."Wala pa, Auntie. He must be attending his Mom," Sagot ko.Napailing siya. "Poor boy. It must hav