Four months later, I busied myself. I went to Italy to follow my dreams. This time, hindi tumutol si Auntie. She supported me together with Kali. Masaya ako kasi ito lang naman ang hinihiling ko sa kanya, to support me. It took a lot of obstacles just to get here and it is all worth it.Sabay na kami ni Kali pumunta ng Europe. She have a project within the area at sakto namang papunta ako dito. We stayed in the same apartment and supported each other. Si Auntie naman ay naiwan sa Pinas. I told her that she should start meeting men. She will not stay young forever."Kaia, I'll go ahead. Baka hindi agad ako makauwi mamaya so kumain ka nalang nang wala ako," paalam ni Kali."Okay, Kali. Mag-ingat ka!" I waved my hand at her."Bye!"She then closed the door behind her. Naiwan na naman akong mag-isa. Tapos na kasi yung class ko sa morning and so I have the afternoon all for myself. Napalingon ako sa bag ko ang something was peeking from the inside. Lumapit ako dito at kinuha yun. Napahint
I stared at myself in front of the mirror. I refuse to let a single drop of tear ruined my make up. Today is the day, the day when Lev is going to wed. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako pumayag na pumunta. I told myself that I would never attend his wedding. Kaya nga ako nangabilang-bansa kasi umiiwas ako. But he crossed borders just to see me. Just to invite me to his wedding.Minsan naisip ko na may galit ba siya sa akin. Does he want me to suffer? Or did he assumed that I was okay with this, that I moved on? Does it look like that?Pero kahit pa anong pagkamuhi ko sa mga nangyayari, I still invited myself to be hurt. Talagang sumang-ayon akong dumalo. For what, Kaia? For respect? For you not to look pitiful?"Are you ready?" Tanong ni Kali sa akin.Mapait akong ngumiti. "Yeah.""Tara na!"Kali's invited as well. Akala ko pa nga pipigilan ako ni Kali. But no. She's supportive on my decisions. Hindi ko alam kung saan yung kasal kasi I didn't bother looking at the invitation. Kali knows.Mari
"So what are you trying to say?" He asked as he stared down at me, trying to read what's running in my head.I can't blame him. Kung ako man ang nasa posisyon niya ay paniguradong maguguluhan din ako. Who would expect a woman would suddenly approach to man and tries to make an unexpected deal. Even I surprised myself. "I'm saying to make a ruse," I paused. "Isipin mo. If we pretend that we are in love and get married, I could finally be free from my aunt, and you will not disappoint your Mom before she... you know what I mean.""That's absurd. We couldn't pretend to love," He argued."We can! If we just fake everything then it wouldn't be so hard. No feelings attached.""Paano natin 'yan masasabi? How can we say that feelings would never be involved?" He asked."Pagkatapos nating magpakasal, we'll still do the charades. We'll just wait for a few months or years and then we'll get divorce," I replied."Ayoko," He said firmly.I rolled my eyes. Akala ko madali lang kumbinsihin ang isan
"To get married?!" I exclaimed. "Are you crazy?" "I'm not crazy. I am dead serious," She sighed. "If you want to be independent, then marry someone this season." "Pero ayoko!" I insisted. "Pwede naman akong maging independent na hindi kailangan magpakasal. I have a job and I can completely satisfy my needs and wants. Nasa tamang edad na din ako. Why won't you let me go!" "Kasi nangako ako sa Daddy mo!" She bursts. Napahinto ako. He promised Dad? "What do you mean?" "Before my brother died, I promised to raise you until you get married," She paused. "Kaya kung ano man ang binabalak mong gawin para makawala sa akin ay itigil mo na. Walang saysay din 'yan kasi malalaman at malalaman ko din." "What would you do if I escaped?" I asked. "I'll have your account frozen," She smirked. "You can't do that." "Fortunately for me, I can. And that is unfortunate for you," she smirked. "You have no other choice, do you?" I stared at her, totally losing hope. Tama nga siya. Kahit ano pa an
"It depends. Are you here for it?" He asked back.I squinted my eyes. That's a bit rude, answering my question with another question. Napangiti naLang ako at yumuko saglit. I'm not sure if he's hitting on me or just beating the bush. "Bakit, Mr. Laurier? Are you interested in me?" I asked before meeting his eyes.He chuckled. "I'm not the type who falls in love at first sight.""That's a rude way of saying I'm unattractive," Taas-kilay kong sabi sa kanya."I didn't say that!" He defended himself. "Ikaw? Unattractive? Hindi mo ba nakita ang mga lalakeng nakapila sa'yo?"Nilingon niya yung mga lalaki sa party. Sinundan ko yung tingin niya at doon ko nakita na sa akin pala nakatingin ang karamahiman. May it be men or the women, I'm not really sure if they are looking at me or Lev. Basta nasa amin yung mga mata nila."I would say the same to you. Looks like every girl is interested in asking you for a dance," Turo ko sa mga babae."Girls wouldn't ask me. That would look improper and unla
"It was an accident... Yes. They didn't mean to be scandalous. Someone obviously bumped on my niece and the young Laurier, as the gentleman he is, was only trying save her... Yes. It was all a misunderstanding. Thank you." Binaba ni Auntie yung telepono niya at napatingin sa akin."I'm sorry," Sambit ko.Hindi ako yung tipo na nanghihingi ng pasensya but this time, I felt like it was entirely my fault. After what happened earlier, when Lev and I kissed, a lot have been calling my Aunt, asking if there has been something going on between us. Sinasabi ng iba na ang bastos raw namin para maglaplapan sa harap ng lahat. Idagdag mo pa na magkasabay kaming pumasok. Well, it wasn't laplapan naman. It took a few seconds at tamang dampi lang naman at halatang hindi namin inaasahan. People tend exaggerate things."Where have you been?" She asked, disappointed. "Bakit magkasabay kayong pumasok kasama si Laurier?"Kumunot yung noo ko. "Sinabi na naman namin kanina, diba?""I know that it wasn't ju
I parked the car outside the house. Napabuntong-hininga ako. Alam kong komplikado ang gagawin namin pero we don't have a choice. Sumang-ayon na si Lev sa plano ko. He and I will start to act as if we are each other's type. We will take it slow kasi baka magtaka sila na ang bilis naman naming mahulog sa isa't-isa. That's not really convincing.Hindi ko din mapigilan ang makaramdam ng ease. Kasi nga okay na si Lev tungkol dito. Although alam ko naman na labag sa kalooban niya. But he sees it as an opportunity knocking on his door so he grabbed it but with hesitations. Hindi ko siya masisisi. Kahit nga ako ay nakakaramdam ng kaba. Lumabas na ako ng sasakyan at naglakad papasok sa bahay. Napatingin ako sa kabuuan nito. Konting kembot nalang ay makakaalis na din ako dito. I smiled at the thought. Inabot ko yung siradora para pagbuksan ang sarili."Surprise!" May biglang sumigaw.Bumilog ang aking mga mata nang makita kung sino ito. Her hair is brown and curly. Mamahalin din yung suot niya
"I see that you were having fun," Sabi ni Lev sa akin."I can't say no to him. Anak ng Presidente. At isa pa, everyone was looking at me. Alangan namang ire-reject ko siya," I defended myself.Lev and I are both sitting in the table with foods in our plates. Si Kali? Hindi ko na alam kung nasaan siya. I didn't bother looking for her kasi naging busy na din ako. "I didn't say you should have rejected him," Iling niya. "I just thought that we should stick together.""Right," I nodded. "I'm sorry."Dapat pala hindi na ako nag-entertain ng mga lalaki. I should have been pretending that Lev got my interest and my attention should only be his. Same goes to him. Ganun din dapat."It's fine. Gaya ng sabi mo, bastos din tingnan kong umayaw ka kanina."Tumango lang ako at sumubo ulit ng pagkain. Masarap naman yung pagkain pero wala akong gana. Sayang kasi kung hindi ko kakainin. Mukhang mamahalin pa naman. "Anyway, hindi ka yata late?" I asked."Oh. That." He nodded. "I had to take care of my