Her tears broke out when she saw the accident in front of her own eyes. The incident where her boyfriend was hit by a car while trying to save her. They were arguing, and Clarice left Joel and ran without looking to her right or left.
Then ... the accident happened.
Clarice ran and lifted Joel's body in her lap. Blood was everywhere, including on her hands and clothes. Joel looked up at her with wide eyes, a body in pain, and a hand that reached up to wipe Clarice's cheek but failed.
"No, please! You have to hold on!" she said, crying with a sense of panic. "Someone call an ambulance!" Clarice shouted.
Many pedestrians surrounded her. Many of them were buzzing by themselves until the sound of the ambulance finally arrived. Joel's body was brought inside and Clarice went along to keep her boyfriend company.
"I'm sorry, I was wrong!" said Clarice. She held Joel's hand so tightly. "You have to hold on. Don't leave me!"
Nothing came out of Joel's lips. He tried to speak, but he couldn't get the words out. Clarice continued to cry in front of him, making him feel guilty in his heart. His woman was crying because of him, but he was also relieved that she could live because of him.
When they arrived at the hospital, Joel received prompt treatment. Clarice was not allowed in even though she rebelled against going in. She could only pause in front of the emergency room door, crying incessantly.
She wanted to contact Joel's family, but she was afraid that they would find out what had happened. Because she wasn't ready to be blamed by them at a time like this. But her mind was racing and she kept praying that Joel would be okay.
Clarice waited for a long time before the doctor treating Joel emerged. His face didn't look right and he had an apologetic expression on his face.
"We're sorry, Miss. We couldn't save him because too much blood came out, causing brain damage and bleeding as well as–"
Clarice was no longer listening to what the doctor was saying. She was busy focusing on the fact that the doctor couldn't save him, which meant that Joel ... died. She didn't want to hear any more explanations because to her it was useless.
She fell to the floor, so tight that her tears seemed to stop immediately. She had been crying for Joel just before his death. She didn't even make a sound, she just remained expressionless.
"Once again, we apologize, Miss. Our condolences. The body will begin to shift to the mortuary," was the last sentence Clarice heard.
This time Clarice finally cried. She cried silently. Her face looked flushed, not caring about the people who were watching her so pitifully. Clarice just needed an outlet to let out all her emotions over what had just happened to her.
She rose and entered before her boyfriend's body was moved. She stood still by his side and unfolded the cloth that covered his body up to his head. "So you decided to leave me, Joel?"
"I–" her throat tightened as she had to say something to him before the body was interred, "I'm sorry that I– you ... you're gone forever."
Clarice cried, hugging him. She felt the tremendous heartache of losing Joel forever. She had no idea that the man she had been with for the past five years would leave forever without leaving any words.
"Why didn't you leave anything for me, stupid?!" she asked, with a sob that she could hardly manage normally. "Please, wake up if you're not going to leave me."
But in fact, for several minutes until the body was to be moved, Joel showed no movement at all.
***
It was a painful reality that Clarice had to face even though she had not accepted it at all. She, for some reason, chose to hide when Joel was buried by his family and closest relatives. She was afraid and ashamed that Joel's family would abuse her and she wasn't ready for that.
Clarice stood far away, near the trees with sunglasses covering her eyes and an appearance that no one would recognize. She was like a disguised enemy, afraid of being discovered.
Her tears were gone, but her grief was still tragic. She even still hoped that Joel would rise from his chest. It may sound ridiculous, but it was what she wished for.
Nothing could ever replace her heartache. But she also didn't know how she should heal her wounds. Her eyes hurt from crying. But her heart was still aching from the unclosed wound.
"I don't think anything will make this wound heal, Joel," she said sadly.
"Who said that?"
Suddenly a male voice appeared behind her body. A tall man dressed in a black suit from head to toe. Clarice couldn't tell who he had been speaking to since he was wearing sunglasses as well.
"I'm talking to you, Miss," he said, then.
Clarice didn't turn around again. She kept her eyes on Joel's still-crowded grave. "I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone, including strangers," Clarice replied.
"I thought you needed comfort."
Clarice glanced over her glasses. She rolled her eyes and chose not to reply to the man she didn't know.
After seeing that everyone had finally left Joel's grave, Clarice decided to move toward it. However, the stranger's hand, which was still in her path, prevented her from doing so.
"Don't," he said, commandingly.
"What the hell are you doing?"
The man gestured toward the grave Clarice was about to visit. Clarice turned around and let out her breath. Apparently, some of her family had come to lay flowers for Joel.
"You'd better visit the grave tomorrow or in a few days. It'll be dangerous for you, considering you're even hiding from them," the man said.
Clarice didn't know if she should follow the stranger's words or not, but for some reason, the man beside her seemed to know a lot about such things.
Ashamed to admit it, Clarice remained silent, still watching Joel's grave which still had a few people since she thought it was deserted.
"If you don't mind, come with me for coffee," the man said, inviting her.
"I don't drink coffee."
"Then drink anything non-coffee, miss."
Clarice sighed heavily. She remembered Joel scolding her not to drink coffee because she had acid reflux. But now, as an outlet for her hurt, she wanted to break Joel's rule.
There's nothing wrong with drinking coffee, right?
Clarice turned her body around. "Who are you?"
The man took off his glasses, revealing the greenish color of his eyeballs. "I'm Tristan Penn, CEO of iBook."
Coffee Eatery was the place where Tristan took Clarice. He knew the woman he had just met was feeling a deep sadness and heartache that wouldn't go away anytime soon. He watched as Clarice ordered a coffee, which Clarice had said she didn't drink it. Tristan began to wonder what had changed Clarice to order coffee. She's probably dealing with a lot of things, I should let her be until I feel her grief is enough, Tristan thought. Clarice was silent with a look that had no life in it. It would be a pity for Tristan if his life continued to mourn the sadness of someone who was gone forever. "Go ahead and tell your story," Tristan said, starting to speak. Clarice gave him a strange look. She had no idea what he meant, so she chose silence as her response. "What's your name?" asked Tristan without caring that he was being ignored. "I won't tell you my name since this is my first and last meeting. Let's just say it's a way of consoling me that I can't be at my boyfriend's grave when
Clarice couldn't work to her full potential. In her spare time, she would cry as she stared at her picture frame with Joel, which was always on her desk to encourage her. Now, that spirit has disappeared since he’s gone. Clarice seemed to have no strength to live her life. Every day her eyes swelled up and it was distressing whenever her coworkers asked about her condition. It was not uncommon for all of them to want to take over Clarice's work and tell her to just rest in her apartment. Clarice closed the picture frame - no! She even put it in her desk drawer so she could focus on her work. She breathed in and out repeatedly, but at least it worked. She was able to get a little bit of work done but it took so long that by the time her shift was over, she didn't realize it. "Clarice? Aren't you going home?" asked Stella, passing by her desk. Clarice turned her head and noticed the watch in her left hand. "Oh? I didn't know it was evening." "Just go home. Or do you want us to hav
Her lips gaped open. She was taken aback by an unexpected statement that almost caused her heart to stop for a moment. How could someone who barely knew her like her in a matter of a day, or maybe more? Because Clarice had never felt that way, but the man before her, openly admitted to liking her. Clarice swallowed. She scrutinized Tristan Penn's appearance. The charismatic CEO but also a billionaire became very convincing in his declaration of affection. His confidence in that statement made Clarice certain that Tristan Penn was no ordinary man. Twice she had met him, and both times she had seen him look the same appearance. Just this time Tristan was wearing a suit of a different color. "Are you done assessing my appearance, Clarice Morgan?" he asked, distracting Clarice's thoughts. Clarice blinked her eyes repeatedly. She felt as if she had awoken from a dream that was neither bad nor good. "Just get lost … " snapped Clarice, indifferently. "I'm not leaving until you listen
Clarice was preoccupied with her thoughts because her landlord was on her side, and she felt trapped. Even if she moved, it would be impossible because this apartment had become her most comfortable place. Moreover, the apartment has many memories with Joel. Not only that, but the price was reasonable for her. DING! The sound of the elevator clinked when she and Tristan finally arrived at the floor where her room was stated. She walked ahead of Tristan without speaking at all until when she reached the front of the room, she turned around. "You can leave now," Clarice said to him, "you've brought me to the front of my room." Tristan looked at Clarice's door, which had the floor number and room number written on it. He recalled it in his head, then looked down, where Clarice was shorter than him. "Okay. You're safe. So, do you have plans for tomorrow?" asked Tristan. "No, I don’t. You'd better go, I want to be alone." "Tomorrow, go with me. I'll take you to your ex-boyfriend’s
"Let go of me!" Clarice struggled and managed to extricate herself from Tristan's touch, which had been accidental to deliberate. She gave the man a little distance as she gave him an unfriendly expression. "You're still acting like this, Clarice. What if you had fallen? I saved you." If she had fallen, she might have suffered a concussion or injury, but the fact was, Tristan had saved her. But all that made it worthwhile for him to touch Clarice and look at her more closely. "Fine. Thank you. That's what you wanted to hear from me, right?" Tristan returned her gaze, his lips forming a smile that Clarice had seen for the first time on his face. It was an unusual smile for someone who had recently been expressionless to now express it in front of her. "Well, your smile is weird. You don't deserve to smile, so keep it to yourself," Clarice said, mocking him. "Or are you afraid that you'll fall in love with me?" Clarice widened her eyes. She felt like she had heard wrong, but th
Clarice couldn't sleep all night. Tristan's words kept ringing in her mind until she decided not to sleep at all, busy reading her unfinished books. She immediately got ready to go to Joel's grave before Tristan came to get her because it was better if he didn't show up when Clarice needed some alone time with Joel, her dead boyfriend. With quick feet, she stepped into the elevator and down to the parking lot. Without lingering too long to warm up her car, she left the apartment with a sense of relief. Her heart was beating fast as she was like a thief sneaking up on the owner of the house. She bought flowers and brought them to Joel's grave. The cemetery was still very quiet, but Clarice could see a few people who came to look at the graves of the dead. For some reason, Clarice's breathing seemed to be more labored than before. It was surreal coming to her boyfriend's grave alone so early in the morning. Staring at Joel's grave, which still had some flowers on it, Clarice repeatedl
The statement just now was like a thunderbolt that struck her, making her freeze and even stare at him with great surprise. She did not expect and even had no clue if it turned out that the older brother of her late boyfriend liked her for a long time. This was news that came as a boomerang for her. The thing was, Clarice never had feelings for Joshua, and even she thought that Joshua had a woman who she even saw that the man often changed women in one day. So, how could the man standing in front of her have liked her all these years? "I don't trust you," she said, her voice trembling. "You refuse to trust me, Clarice. I know enough about your character. I have been learning for years." Clarice swallowed. How could Joshua know about her, know that she refused to trust him because to her it still didn't make sense? Clarice tried to shake off Joshua's grip, this time she intended to run and get out of the man's presence. She didn't want to make Joel's grave a witness to the st
"WHAT?! Are you kidding me?" Joshua had already guessed what expression Clarice would show him. It was a pleasure to see her beautiful face surprised. He smiled wryly, then shook his head. "I'm not joking at all, Clarice. Whether you like it or not, you have to marry me. Because if you don't, I will ruin your life." His threat was no joke. Clarice heard how Joshua emphasized his threat, making her imagine what would happen if she refused and chose to have her life destroyed by him. After all, how could she marry a man who was the older brother of her late boyfriend? To her, it was tantamount to betrayal, and Joshua should feel that way. But seeing his expression of no guilt or grief made Clarice question whether Joshua's kindness to Joel had been a trick. "Well, marrying you is one of my wishes, Clarice. And I won't let you refuse. After all, you wouldn't want your family to be ruined by your decision, would you?" Clarice's body shook violently. She wanted to fall and die.