#MTDC21: Affected Pt.2
Dark circles under my eyes are the proof that I haven't got a sleep last night. Wesley's words kept me up all night. Inabot na sa ilang libong tupa ang nabilang ko hanggang sa nag-umaga ay hindi pa rin ako makatulog.
Araw ng Linggo ngayon at wala akong ibang gagawin. The original plan is to bond with Melody for the whole day, but because of what happened last night, I can't find my courage to go outside my room and face him.
Ayoko munang makita si Wesley. Ayokong alalahanin ang sinabi niya sa 'kin kagabi. I tried so hard to forget it, but damn! Kahit anong gawin ko ay parang sirang plaka na paulit-ulit kong naririnig ang boses niya sa isip ko. And yes, it frustrates me big time!
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Masyadong ginulo ng mga salita ni Wesley ang utak ko. At hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang epekto niya sa 'kin.
I used to feel scared, annoyed, and hate him. Well, not that all those fee
#MTDC22: Broken Pt.1I watched them walk away from me.I could almost hear my heart breaking. Alam kong alam niyang nakilala ko siya. Our eyes even met for a few seconds, but… his eyes became different. Parang hindi ko na iyon kilala. The way he looked at me completely changed.Tears started to pool my eyes. Watching their disappearing figure is like I’m torturing myself. I want to take my eyes off them, but I couldn’t. Ni hindi ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko.Nakadikit lang ang mga mata ko sa kanila at kasabay no’n ang unti-unti kong pagkawasak.“Close your eyes.” A whisper from behind lingered on my ears. A hand gently held my arm as if it’s giving me assurance that despite of what I had seen, everything will going to be alright. But no matter how hard I tried to suppress my tears from bursting out, my stupid eyes betrayed me.Sets of fresh tears started flowing do
#MTDC22: Broken Pt.2The was just a peck on my forehead.Ilang segundo lang, pero halos magwala na ang sistema ko dahil doon. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko.My initial instinct was to push him away from me, but knowing that Melody is sitting right just between us, I tried so hard not to do it.His kiss was like a feathery touch. It was soft and gentle. The total opposite of who he was."Ang ganda po ng last ninyo, Sir! Ang sweet!" kinikilig na saba nung babae."Really? May I see? May I see?" Dali-daling tumayo si Melody at lumapat sa babae. Ipinakita niya naman sa bata ang screen ng camera, at naging kagaya na rin ng sa babae ang reaksyon ni Melody.I arched my brow. Marunong na palang kiligin ang batang 'to? She just turned five for Pete's sake!"Can we have three copies of this, Miss? I want to have one for me, one for Mommy and one for Daddy."Naiiling na
#MTDC23: Accusations Pt.1“Do you think he deserves it?” nakataas ang kilay na tanong ni Soffi. Nakahalukipkip pa siya habang hinihintay ang susunod kong isasagot.“Well…”“Do you think if ever you forgive him, magbabago na talaga siya?” sabat naman ni Jovy.There were all looking at me, anticipating for my response. I don’t know what to say. Sa paraan pa lang kasi ng pagtingin nila sa ‘kin, mukhang handa na silang batukan ako kapag may sinabi akong hindi nila nagustuhan.Soffi’s hand reached for mine and gently squeezed it. “Hindi ka naman namin pinapangunahan sa desisyon mo, Symp. Ang sa amin lang, you should do the right thing. The right decision. Ayaw namin na makita ka na namang nahihirapan dahil lang sa maling desisyon mo,” malumanay ang boses niya habang sinasabi iyon.“Agree! Kahit naman ano ang desisyon mo, basta nasa tama,
#MTDC23: Accusations Pt.2Being compared is one of the worst thing one could ever experience.Iyong napupuna ang mga ginagawa mo at saka ikukumpara sa iba. At iyong kahit ginawa mo na ang lahat pero para sa iba ay hindi pa rin ‘yun sapat dahil sa tingin nila ay may mas lamang at mas magaling pa kaysa sa iyo.I hate it. I hate being compared…“Tita Cha told me that you probably are enjoying spending time with your friends that’s why you ditched our dinner! Why, Mommy? Don’t you love us? Don’t you love me?”Her tears were flowing non stop. It pains me seeing her like this. Idagdag pa ang bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig niya… para akong sinasaksak nang paulit-ulit. The pain I am feeling feels like its drowning me in to the unknown depths of darkness.“M-Melody… what are you talking about?” My voice broke. Pilit kong hinuhuli an
#MTDC24: Apologies Pt.1“Si Melody?” I asked while stirring my cup of coffee.“Nasa taas pa po, sa kwarto niya, Ate,” sagot ni Mandy, ang anak ni Manang Anding. Noong isang araw lang ay tumawag si Manang Anding at sinabing hindi pa raw siya makababalik dahil sa arthritis niya. Namamaga pa raw ang mga tuhod niya kaya si Mandy muna ang pinapunta niya rito. Kararating niya lang kahapon.“Ah, siya nga po pala, Ate, nakuha na raw po ni Nanay iyong pinadala niyo na pera sa kaniya. Maraming salamat po. Malaking tulong na po ‘yun sa pagpapagamot niya. Medyo may kamahalan po kasi ‘yung gamot na nireseta sa kaniya ng doktor.”I smiled at her. “Maliit na bagay lang ‘yung binigay ko sa kaniya kumpara sa pagpapalaki at pag-aaruga niya sa akin at pati kay Melody. She’s more like a mother to me. Kaya tutulong ako sa kaniya hanggang sa abot ng makakaya ko.”Someh
#MTDC24: Apologies Pt.2“The last time I went to the amusement park was when you introduce Daddy Wesley to me, Mommy!” sambit ni Melody habang nasa byahe kami papunta sa amusement park.I smiled at her, then I reminisce that moment when I was struggling of finding ways to let her know about her father. ‘Yung panahon na hindi ko inakalang maghahabol si Wesley sa anak namin. That moment when I was hiding my daughter from him.Ni minsan ay hindi ko naisip na darating ang araw na magiging buo kami. Buong akala ko noon ay hinding-hindi matatanggap ni Wesley ang anak namin. What he told me before when I told him that I am pregnant with my daughter is still clear to me. Gusto niyang ipa-abort ang bata… and that’s one of the reasons why I was afraid to tell Melody about her father. But good thing, the opposite happened. Hindi nangyari iyong kinakatakutan ko noon pa man. I am thanking God for that.Hind
#MTDC25: Plead Pt.1 I immediately went closer to the gate to see if it’s really Red. Sinusundan ko siya ng tingin habang pagewang-gewang siyang naglalakad mula sa kaniyang sasakyan patungo sa gate. “What are you doing here?” tanong ko sa kaniya nang tuluyan na rin akong makalapit sa gate. Nag-angat siya ng tingin at mukhang nagulat nang makita ako. Pero ang gulat niyang ekspresyon ay agad ring napalitan ng matang nananabik nang mapagtanto kung sino ako. “Symphony…” he muttered and held on the cold bars of our gate. He intently stared at me like he's afraid that I will instantly fade in just a blink of an eye. His eyes looked red and… tired. I, then, inhaled his scent mixed with the smell of a rum that I couldn't name. Agad kumunot ang noo ko. Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili at binuksan na ang gate para mas malapitan pa siya. “Lasing ka? Anong ginagawa mo rito? Bakit ka nagmamaneho nang lasing?” Unti
#MTDC25: Plead Pt.2His lips started moving. My mind was in haywire that it couldn’t think straight. I let my heart decide to do what it truly wants.I closed my eyes and started answering his kisses. I followed his lips’ rhythm. Our kiss became intense when his tongue pushed inside my mouth and it wandered every corner it. A soft moan escaped from my mouth because of the good sensation it gave me.“Red…” halos hindi ko na makilala ang sariling boses nang maramdaman ang kamay niya na unti-unting bumababa sa dibdib ko. “Red, s-stop…” sabi ko, pero kabaliktaran no’n ang gusto ng puso ko. Ni hindi ko maigalaw ang kamay ko para pigilan siya. He didn’t listen to me and continued deepening our kiss.Hinila niya ako dahilan para mapunta ako sa ibabaw niya. In one swift move, he switched our position and he’s now on top of me. My heart is racing. He continued mo