LOGINI win. I actually won.
I fly through the ribbon and all the shouts and screams attack my ears. I smile as I try and catch my breath and people with cameras surround me. Natalie walks over to me and shakes my hand, smiling. “I didn’t think you had it in you.” She says breathless from the race.
I smile, “Good job!” I shout over the noise. She nods, “You too.”
I’m yanked up into a hard chest as he spins me around and slams his lips to mine.
It’s not surprising, he’s never been shy about the way he feels about me, and a few cameras isn’t going to change that. I pull away to breathe, “Good job, Baby Girl.” He whispers, and I smile at him. “I did it.” I whisper and his smile widens, “You fucking did it.”
He puts me down and turns me towards the cameras, “Go take your pictures.” He whispers in my ear and nudges me forward towards Natalie and Sable who are already standing in their spots, their medals falling over their necks. My eyes turn scanning the crowd as the same feeling I had before the race enters my mind. I swear I feel someone's eyes on me.
I reach the stand and the man grabs for the gold medal, then places it over my head. This moment doesn’t feel real.
I pinch my thigh as it dons my neck and I reach up to grab the medal, the pinch hurts and I look at the stand. I make my way to it and Sable’s eyes narrow, but Natalie smiles, moving back to help me get to my spot in the middle.
The cameras flash and my smile widens.
I did it. I actually did it.
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The music blasts in my ear in the ballroom of the pack house.
The entire pack is here, celebrating the competitors who won their competitions. And honestly, it’s not even bothering me. I’m on cloud nine.
The only thing better would be to win the Lupa Elite Shadow pack competition. It’s not only a ranking. Winners are set for life. I could take care of my foster father, we could travel… Limitless.
People I’ve never spoken to before have come to congratulate me, take my picture, ask for an autograph.
“You know, even if you make it no further than this, you’ve made history today.” A deep voice whispers behind me, a shiver racing up my spine at the proximity of him.
I can smell his scent before I even turn around, my head spins and I feel faint. I really need to cut back on the champagne.
I slowly turn around, the blood freezing in my veins.
The Shadow pack Alpha.
I’ve only ever seen pictures, and honestly, it’s the closest I’ve ever hoped to be to this man. He and his brother hold the contest every year, but they’re reasoning behind it is purely strategic. They recruit members that they believe are strong enough to join their armies, making them the deadliest and strongest pack that we have ever known.
“I have?” My voice comes out weak, and fragile and I want to punch myself. His crystal blue eyes search over my face, and he smirks, “I heard a human was competing, I just didn’t believe it. Now to not only compete, but to win…” He shakes his head, and chuckles. “Maybe these contests have gotten too simple.”
My head tilts, “I’m not human. And I’ve trained my whole life for this.” I tell him, and he nods, “Maybe not technically human, but human adjacent.” He tells me. I shrug, uncomfortable in my own skin.
It feels like something is trying to crawl out of my skin. I reach for my arm, scratching at the skin there, he notices, but chooses not to say anything. Instead, he looks around the room, then back at me, “So, where’s that boyfriend of yours you seemed so keen with?” He asks, and my eyebrows knit, and I look around.
Where is he?
As soon as my mates see me, they all shift back to human. Each one staring at me, and all of them silent. I look between the four of them, my body already reacting to theirs. Something inside me begging for their touch. It’s nothing I haven’t felt before. I’ve wanted them from the start, wanted their hands on my skin, but now it feels… Heightened. Unbearable, to last another single second without them close to me.But I continue to look between them. I don’t know how to do this… Do I choose? Will one be mad if I choose the other first? I’ve never really had this problem before, but with the distrust running through them right now. I’m scared to make the wrong move here.“We know you feel it now, Thea. Our wolves can feel the bond even stronger now. Tell us what to do.” Orion whispers, and my eyes meet his. I sigh, not sure how to convey my fear without them thinking I want someone more, when I don’t.It doesn’t matter the downfalls I’ve had with them; the bond is pulling me towards on
‘Running isn’t going to help anything.’ I tell Sage, who proceeds to scoff into my mind. ‘Look who’s talking. All you do is run.’ She snaps. My eyebrows knit. ‘That’s not true.’She chuckles, but it’s humorless. ‘You ran time and time again when we first met our mates. You ran from the witch. You ran from your mates and went back to Sam. You are always running away from them and now you have the nerve to shame me for doing the same. For doing what you’ve trained me to do. You leave when things get hard. Things were starting to get hard, so I pull away before they can scare you too much, and yet, I’m the problem?’My head shakes, ‘I didn’t leave them for Sam.’ I snap, and I swear I can hear her eyes roll. ‘You didn’t have to leave, Thea. You could have dealt with it together. Why do you think we have four mates? It’s not just so we can have a giant fuck fest. We need each of them! And each of them needs you.’‘I’m not just scared of the quote, fuck fest.’ I tell her and she chuckles, ‘
Cyrus and Orion’s wolves are both midnight black, beautiful and with their gorgeous blue eyes, they look royal in a sense. Colt and Vince are both the color of darkened ash, having gray perfectly placed around their bodies, breaking up the black in their fur. They’re all huge, towering over my form, just as if we were humans.I can’t believe I’ve never taken the time to get to know their wolves. They’ve been wanting me since we first met and yet they’ve held them back to help me settle and feel more secure around here.‘You’re nearly invisible.’ Cyrus says into my mind, his blue eyes trained on my wolf. I look down at my paw, I’m black, but not just black the darkest shade of black. Vantablack. ‘If it wasn’t for your eyes.’ Cyrus says in amazement.I look back up at him. ‘They’re purple. Like when your phoenix comes out, they seem to glow.’ Cyrus answers my unasked question. ‘I have a wolf.’ I tell him, shock evident in my voice.I honestly can’t believe it. I’ve always thought I was
The healer walks towards us instantly, but my mind is a whirlwind. I don’t want to be here. Somewhere in my brain, I know I don’t need to be here. Regardless of the pain in my stomach ricocheting through my entire body.Orion grabs my restless body and tries to keep me still while the healer tries to place his hands on me. He barely lasts a second before he pulls back with a pained sound.He looks at the burn on his hand, then back at me with wide eyes. I shake my head, “Orion, I can’t be here. I need air.” I rasp, trying to stand, trying to make it to the door.I fail.Falling to the ground and wreathing in pain, when I hear a bone snap. The surprise is enough to dull the pain for a moment, but then I cry out as another breaks.What is happening?‘Hello, Thea. My name is Sage.’ The new voice travels through my mind, waking me up to what is happening. And as if it clicks for Orion at the same time, he speaks, “She’s shifting.” He whispers, I’m not sure if it’s fear or amazement I hear
No.I take a step forward, but Vince pulls me back. Anger flares through me and I grab the arm holding and he let’s go hissing in pain. I don’t bother seeing what just happened as I move closer to the window.I get there, rising on my tippy toes to peak through. My eyes capture on the woman… She looks so much like me, but older, more knowledgeable about life.She’s not a dumb woman; you can see it in the calculating in her eyes as she thinks over the deal. But if she’s not dumb, why can’t she see what she means by that? Why can’t she see the fact she’s talking about false love?She doesn’t care if it’s real…I look into the corner, the little girl standing there, her hand on her cheek and her eyes on the ground… Silent.Silent, as they talk about what to do with her. Silent, as they discuss how her life is going to play out. Silent, as they discuss the best way for her to be a pawn in all the games they play.I watch her with pity… But it’s me. That little girl, she’s me. Have I ever
We walk through the trees, making our way quickly as Vince pulls me behind him and I try to keep up. He quickly pulls up to the side, hiding behind a giant willow tree, and puts his finger on his lips, signaling for me to be quiet.I have so many questions… And for some reason my number one question is, shouldn’t they be able to scent us, we’re so close to the small cabin. I guess if they’re not paying attention…“Please!” The woman’s voice hits me like a ton of bricks because… I’ve heard it before. I don’t know when, and I don’t know where, but the voice sounds as familiar to me as breathing.My head snaps up, as I try to look into the window I can barely see her through.I’m too far away…I make a move to move closer, but Vince keeps me still, leaning over closely to my ear and whispering, “Seeing you could change everything. Colt wasn’t wrong about changing history and unless you’re willing to possibly lose them… You need to stay here.”I swallow deeply, squinting my eyes to try an







