LOGINThe school bell always sounded like a reminder that the day was only just beginning, even though for me it already felt like a small victory: I had made it on time, my hair looked halfway decent, and my advanced math homework was done.
The school had that chaotic energy only teenagers could give a building—backpacks scattered across the floor, lockers slamming open, laughter mixing with the metallic clang of doors closing. Kate was waiting for me by my locker, bursting with her usual energy and wearing that smile that could brighten even the grayest Monday. The moment she saw me, she grabbed my arm and launched into a talk about the concert, as if the entire world revolved around that Saturday. I suspected the next few days would be the same. “You have no idea, Cams. I’ve already planned everything—what I’m going to wear, how we’re getting there, even what we’re eating beforehand. I’m counting the hours!” “There are still days to go! Did you sleep at all, or did you stay up planning?” I asked as I slid my books into my locker. “Sleep is overrated when you’re seeing your favorite band. Besides, can you imagine Christine’s face when she finds out you and I are going?” I laughed. Christine had a talent for knowing everything that happened at school—and, worse, for making it seem unimportant, even though she was dying of envy. As if summoned by our words, she appeared right then, surrounded by her friends like a perfectly coordinated swarm of bees. She walked down the hallway as if the entire school were her runway, hair perfectly straight, nails freshly painted, and a smile that felt less friendly and more like a weapon. “What’s got you so excited, Kate?” she asked with feigned interest, though her gaze immediately drifted to me. “I was telling Camila about the concert we’re going to on Saturday,” Kate said triumphantly, like she was dropping a bomb. «Maybe it’s not a talent if people tell her everything…» “A concert?” Christine raised an eyebrow. “And what are you going to see? A symphony of mathematical equations?” “That actually sounds fun,” I replied, refusing to let it get to me. I was used to her little stings. Kate, on the other hand, nearly choked laughing. “Wishful thinking, but no. It’s Trollex, Christine. We already have tickets,” she added, savoring every word. Christine’s expression hardened for just a second—long enough to give her away—before her flawless smile returned. “You don’t get extra points for lying, Kate. It’s embarrassing that you’d make something like that up. I don’t believe for a second that your parents would let you go to a concert like that unless…” she paused, smirking, “unless you’re also lying to them and saying you’re sleeping over at this know-it-all’s house.” «Aww. I’ll take that as a compliment.» “I have no reason to lie to you, and definitely not in my own house. I’m not two-faced with my parents.” I’m no expert in body language, but that last comment clearly hit a nerve. “We’ll see if you really go,” she said dismissively, turning on her heels and walking away with her entourage. Kate elbowed me in the ribs. “You saw her face, right? That was epic!” “More like fleeting—but yes, I saw it.” “Do you think she’s dying of envy?” “Because we’re seeing Trollex, or because we’re going to a concert?” I asked out loud, unsure which way to steer my answer—and realizing too late that I’d spoken faster than I’d thought. “Oh my God, Cams. The answer is obvious.” “Yes, she’s going to die of envy,” I said, because you can never go wrong with a yes in situations like these. “I knew it! I knew it…” Kate said, clenching her fists in celebration. That was Kate—those little victories kept her smiling all day. We kept laughing as we walked to physics class, my favorite subject along with math, and for the moment, we set the concert aside. I loved how numbers and formulas could bring order to the world's chaos; sometimes they felt like the only truly predictable things in life. The teacher greeted us with his usual enthusiasm and began the lesson, but halfway through, I felt someone’s eyes on me. I turned discreetly and found Justin—the stereotypical good-looking guy who always seemed to be everywhere. He was the kind of person who came effortlessly likable: captain of the soccer team, easy smile, perfectly messy hair. When our eyes met, he smiled at me knowingly, as if we shared some unspoken secret. I simply returned a brief smile before turning back to my notes. Kate, of course, didn’t let it slide. “Justin Whitaker was looking at you like you’re the new theorem he wants to solve,” she whispered in the middle of class, unable to wait even a few minutes for the bell to ring. “Or like he’s bored in physics and I caught him staring into space,” I shot back, copying what was written on the board. “Sometimes I wonder if you’re really that oblivious or if you do it on purpose.” “What are you talking about?” “Oh, Cams, you’re always so logical—and then you walk around collecting sighs.” “I think you’re exaggerating, as usual. Maybe he’s thinking about asking me for the homework.” “Or maybe he’s thinking about asking you for private lessons…” I looked at Kate with wide eyes, which made her laugh harder than I expected, drawing attention. “Am I interrupting, Miss Cooper?” Professor Chapman asked. “Sorry, Professor,” Kate said without much conviction. She pretended to return to her notes, and when the teacher turned back around, she leaned toward me and whispered, “Admit it—that idea didn’t bother you at all.” “You know that’s dangerous territory,” I murmured back without lifting my eyes. “And what about that famous line, ‘I laugh in the face of danger’?” I smiled at her comment but didn’t answer. “Miss Cooper,” the teacher warned again, and Kate mimed zipping her mouth shut. She adjusted in her seat and kept taking notes as if nothing had happened. Still, Kate was right about one thing: it didn’t bother me to be noticed by him. And yet, deep down, there was something that did make me uncomfortable… and it had nothing to do with Justin, but with someone else. *** We were heading to the cafeteria when someone called out from behind me. “Campbell.” Kate lifted her notebook to her face, trying to hide her grin. “Hi, Justin,” I replied politely, doing my best not to feel embarrassed by Kate’s behavior. I was starting to get nervous. “I hear you’re going to the concert this Saturday,” Justin said. Only one class had passed, and he already knew. «Do things really spread that fast? Has it always been like this?» “Yes, it’s Kate’s favorite band,” I replied, gesturing toward her. Justin turned to look at her and nodded in approval. Then his gaze returned to me. “I’m going with a few guys from the team. If you want me to pick you up, let me know—we can go together.” I opened my mouth to answer, but Kate beat me to it. “Text her, and we’ll figure it out,” she said, handing him my phone number. “Great. See you, Campbell. Kate,” Justin said before walking off down the hall. I watched his back disappear before I could say a single word. As soon as he crossed the threshold, I turned to Kate with a murderous look. “Kate, you’re forgetting one small—but very important—detail: Jacob,” I scolded her for making plans. “Contrary to what you think, that small, VERY important detail is very much on my mind,” Kate replied. “And I’m also very aware that now Justin has your number and can text you. You don’t have to go with him on Saturday, but that doesn’t mean you can’t go out with him some other Saturday. A girl has to be forward-thinking, Campbell,” she added, mimicking the tone Justin had used to say goodbye. I took a deep breath and decided not to encourage her any further. “Come on, I’m hungry,” was all I said. As we walked toward the cafeteria, I met Christine’s gaze. Correction: the look I gave Kate when she handed Justin my number was sweet compared to the one Christine was giving me now. If she could have taken me out with her eyes, I’d already be gone. «Dangerous territory.»Minutes turned into hours, then into days, and the days into weeks that drifted by like a thick fog—unhurried and shapeless. I returned to routines that no longer felt like mine. The only way I can describe that lethargic state is by saying I had become a zombie moving on inertia, copying everyone else’s gestures without judgment or intention. Kate was always nearby, with her laughter and spontaneous remarks, trying to pull me out of my thoughts. Sometimes it worked. Sometimes it didn’t. Jacob began appearing again from time to time, always under the pretense of visiting my dad. He never stayed long; he didn’t seek to be alone with me. His gestures were more restrained, his words more measured, and yet one brief exchange of glances was enough to remind me of everything that had happened at the lake, at my house, in those silences we never knew how to name. He avoided mentioning it. So did I. Bu
“How much?” Those words came out before I could stop them. Clear. Sharp. “What?” Jacob frowned. “Camila…?” my dad whispered, stunned. But I wasn’t looking at either of them. I was looking at Paul. “How much do you want?” Paul raised his eyebrows slowly, deliberately. “I don’t understand what you mean, sweetheart.” That word. «Sweetheart.» Spoken like a dirty hand laid on something that didn’t belong to him. “You know exactly what I mean. And don’t call me sweetheart.” I took a deep breath. “How much money do you want to leave me alone?” Paul opened his hands theatrically, like a mediocre actor. “Cams—” Jacob murmured, but I ignored him. He doesn’t call me like that, and I know he’s trying to soften things. “My mom didn’t talk much about you,” I co
That night, my dad and I decided to cook together. An old jazz record played through the kitchen speaker, its soft notes wrapping around us like a blanket. My dad chopped tomatoes while I mixed a sauce, and between laughter, bad jokes, and spoons clinking against pans, the house felt like it used to. Warm. Like home. But the warmth shattered in a single second. My dad’s body went rigid, and the music’s glow dimmed instantly. The air shifted, as if an invisible cold had filled the room. “Camila, go up to your room,” he said in a grave voice, without taking his eyes off the window. “Dad, is something wrong?” I asked, feeling the blood drain from my face, my heart pounding harder at the sudden change. I didn’t know what was happening, but it was clear it wasn’t good—and that terrified me. “Go up, please. Don’t come out until I come get you, okay?” His eyes, heavy with anguish
The days following the weekend at the lake felt strange, as if my life had suddenly stepped onto unstable ground. Everything looked the same—the classrooms, the homework, even dinners with my dad—but inside, nothing was where it belonged. Jacob had vanished into routine with a disconcerting ease. He still came over some nights to have dinner with us, just like always, but there were no stolen glances, no half-finished sentences. He had returned to his most formal version: short phrases, a proper tone, the same polite smile as ever. As if that kiss in the woods—added to the one when we got home—had been nothing more than a mirage I had imagined on my own. I forced myself to act normal, to laugh at my dad’s jokes during dinner or talk with Kate about anything at all to distract myself. But every time I heard Jacob’s voice, every time I felt him nearby, something in me tensed, waiting for a gesture, a word—anything that would tell me he remembered too. I
On Monday, after returning from the lake, the school routine felt almost absurd. The hallways were just as loud; teachers repeated their formulas and assignments, and yet I felt like I was on another plane altogether—as if I were carrying a secret written on my skin that no one else could see. At times, I even caught myself touching my wrist, as if some trace of what I’d lived might still be there. I didn’t share any morning classes with Kate, so I didn’t see her until recess. We sat in one of the school’s gardens, beneath the shade of a massive ash tree. The grass still held the morning dew, and the dampness immediately seeped through the fabric of my skirt, but I didn’t care. Groups of students spread out in loose circles, surrounded by laughter, phones, and coffee cups. It was the same scene as always… and yet I felt out of place. Kate was completely absorbed in telling me the plot of the series she was obsessed with, moving her han
The rest of the weekend felt like I was floating through clouds, as if everything revolved around that moment on the mountain. We were never alone again, and neither of us mentioned what had happened, but the way we looked at each other told me something had changed. It was like a secret wrapped around us, a silent complicity that made me wonder whether what I felt was the memory of what had already happened… or the desire for it to happen again. The hours passed lightly, filled with laughter and games. We played charades until our faces hurt from overacting, watched the sunset by the lake, and saw a movie that—to my relief—wasn’t a horror film. Between jokes, Kevin and his friends seemed to compete to see who could make me laugh the hardest; sometimes they succeeded so well that my stomach hurt. And while I found it funny on the inside, outwardly, I made sure not to let those interactions linger too long. It wasn’t h







