Rosa Higgins squeals her way into my bedroom window. She's been sneaking into my bedroom window for as long as I can remember. Her parents are abusive, and she needed a place to crash for safety. My parents found out about her sneaking into my room, and now they don't care if or when she comes over.
"What are you so happy about? It's a dumb party," I say, recalling Hunter being a dick to that Arlo guy. I wonder if I'll see Arlo so I can apologize."Why are you so depressed? I thought you were excited to make love on the beach.""We made something on the beach alright. And I can assure you it wasn't love."Rosa sits down on my bed and hands me a lollipop. She's convinced lollipops are a sex symbol. Her funny quirky is to suck them while Jeremiah is watching us. She can be quite the little tease when she wants to be."A lollipop? Seriously? Did you buy these to suck around Jeremiah tonight? Good grief, woman.""Yeah, so what? He needs to see my tongue in action."Rosa points to her red cherry-colored tongue."You might want to clean that off. It's not exactly attractive.""Oh God, my tongue is all red. He will think it's blood when he kisses me."Rosa panics around the room like a bird that has flown into a house."Rosa, get a grip. It's just some food coloring. Here's a new toothbrush. Just go brush your teeth."Rosa grabs the toothbrush from my hand and frantically heads into the bathroom. The sink water sounds like a waterfall. I hope she doesn't flood the bathroom in her panic.My phone beeps from a notification on my I*******m. A username appears in a private message ArloPhotos2000.Arlo: Hey Emma, right? I hope you are doing well.Emma: Umm, hi Arlo. I am fine. I am so sorry about what Hunter said to you. I was so embarrassed.Arlo: Don't be. I am sure he was just looking out for you.Rosa comes back into my bedroom. I don't want her to know about Arlo or why I had a horrible date today.Emma: I need to go. There's a party in Lincoln East if you want to come by tonight.Arlo: Great. See you there.Emma: It's at 7.I deleted my messages to Arlo so Rosa won't see them."Whose messaging you?""A pervert in I*******m is asking me to be his sugar baby.""Those guys seriously need to fuck off. Like anyone is dumb enough to fall for that scam."I put my hand on my chin and think about it."Marianne Porter, she's dumb enough to be a sugar baby. "Rosa laughs and plops herself down on my bed. Apart from me wants to tell her about Arlo and that I invited him to the party. Oh God, I asked him to the party. Why did I do that? That will not look good to my followers. What a nightmare."Marianne? Totally! She would be a sugar baby. She probably is one now. Let's start getting ready for this party. "I agree and will help Rosa find the perfect outfit for the party tonight. Model Perfect has selected my outfit for tonight. It's a little black dress with one strap on the side and all the golden glitter I would ask for. I sometimes want to wear yoga pants and look like a stay-at-home mom with a messy bun.Hours pass, and the party begins. The crowds of teens start piling in around 7:30 p.m. Hunter grabs a microphone as his band, Aftershock, plays in the background."Ladies and gentlemen, this next song is one I wrote for my girl Emma."My heart stops. Did Hunter write a song for me? He isn't a horrible boyfriend. He has his moments."That is so romantic, Emma. You are so lucky."I pull out my phone and Livestream his performance. The likes and comments buzz, and for a moment, I want to put the phone down and enjoy my life without screens—just one brief moment.I turn off the live stream and let Hunter finish his song for me.She's my girl, the girl with the brightest eyes,The reason there's summer fireflies,She's my girl, the beauty of my whole world,She's my girl...The song ends, and I find myself blushing. Then I see Arlo in the distance, and the world goes quiet. But, seeing him in real life again makes me feel panicky, the way Rosa gets for Jeremiah.Arlo walks towards me as Hunter begins another speech, "Ladies and gents, for our final song. But, first, I will sing our newest song, called Tidal Wave."Arlo waits for Hunter to get lost in song before approaching me. Then, he signals me to follow him, and for some reason, I do. I follow him outside to the porch. There's nobody else, just us."You must be some special girl for Hunter to write a song about you like that."Arlo's left dimple appears again on his cheek, and I feel myself trembling a little when he does."Are you okay, Emma?""Yeah, it's just chilly tonight. Thanks for coming.""Why did you invite me tonight anyway? This isn't exactly my kind of crowd.""I wanted to apologize in person for the way Hunter treated you earlier."Arlo smiles. His baby browns find my green eyes. Something about him fascinates me, but I stuff it down because anyone could be recording me or taking a photo, and then it would be over. I can hear it now. Model Perfect's Not So Perfect Model Cheats on Aftershock Lead Guitarist. No thank you headlines."No worries. It wasn't your fault. Well anyways. I need to get going. It's been a long day. I don't think I'm going to stick around for too much longer.""No, wait, umm, why don't you stay, and you can meet my friends.""I don't think that's a good idea, model girl."Did he just call me model girl?"Excuse me?" I ask. For some reason, his comment puts me in a bind."Sorry, I didn't mean it like that. It's just you have a boyfriend, and he's popular. I don't belong here, Emma.""Of course you don't. This party's only for the celebrities—the rich and popular kids. Get out of here, Arlo. Leave me alone. Inviting you was a mistake."I've done a one-eighty on Arlo that I am sure will come to bite me in the butt later. But what am I supposed to do? He's right. We can't be friends. Not that we ever were."I thought you were a nice girl. I guess I was wrong.""Yeah, I guess you were," I snap back. I don't want to push Arlo away because a part of me really likes how we talk and how he smiles. God, that smile, even though I've only known it for today, it takes my breath away.Hunter comes out looking for me."I heard yelling. What the hell is going on? Wait, it's you again. I thought I told you to leave, Emma alone.""Don't worry. I was just leaving." Arlo walks away, and as he turns his back, Hunter kicks him off the porch into the dirt nearby."You aren't going anywhere until I say so," Hunter says with a deep scowl on his brow.Arlo puts his fists up, and the two start going at it. Hunter dodges a right hook from Arlo. Arlo ducks from Hunter's returning punch. Hunter kicks Arlo in the ribs, and Arlo jumps up again. Arlo punches Hunter in the left cheek, and the fight ends. Arlo wins the match."Goodbye, model girl. It's been real."Deep down, I feel horrible. But I act like the victim. The concerned girlfriend is at her boyfriend's side. What am I supposed to do when the cameras are rolling, and my career is in the line? None of this makes sense to me.My eyes meet Rosa's; at least she had a good night. Rosa and Jeremiah are holding hands. I'm glad someone found romance tonight. The only person to blame for this fight is me. I only wish I didn't invite Arlo to this party in the first place."Thanks for fighting for me, Hunter. I also really loved the song you wrote me." I kiss Hunter, and he kissed me back. Even though this relationship is hollow, it's better than being completely alone.Today is the day of my surgery. I am not scared anymore because all of them are beside me. They helped me have something to look forward to. We all have a bright future ahead of us. Nurse Waters is right if I get this surgery over and done with I can go on to live the best years of my life. Being starving is not my favorite part. I understand why I need to fast before surgery. But despite their reasoning it still sucks, I could go for some hash browns right about now. Freddie picks me up for surgery. My mother is with us. She has been working a lot lately, but not today. Today I am her little girl getting surgery. She holds my hand the entire car ride and sits with me in the waiting room. They have me fill out paper work and hand Freddie a buzzer like they do at restaurants when your table is ready. The buzzer goes off thirty minutes later. Arlo runs into the waiting room with a bouquet of roses. "I am going back with you. I will never leave you." I kiss Arlo. I smell the roses an
Hospitals... I've been thinking of nothing else for the past week. Hospitals are covered in many layers of floors with busy nurses, humming janitors, crying babies, and focused doctors. I haven't been in a hospital since the day my grandma parted this world. She left us behind when the lung cancer took her up above to be with my grandpa. I've been watching YouTube videos of thyroid surgeries being performed. The videos aren't helping and have made me even more anxious for my procedure to be over with. Another torture that hospitals bless their patients with is the unknown, I'm expected to starve myself for years prior to my surgery okay more like hours, but still. Then I am expected to call the day before to find out my arrival time just to check into the hospital. The anxiety levels from hearing this and reading this make my nostrils flare. My tension migraines have returned in the temples of my head.Everyone has told me to slow down and take it easy. But that's just not possible f
Hunter Bates, the lead singer of Aftershock, has been taken into custody. He snuck into Emma Rhodes' house and began choking her. He is being charged with attempted murder. There are other models from Model Perfect coming forward with accusations against Hunter Bates. The police have opened up several investigations into the private life of Hunter Bates, who will soon be facing many years in person. I turn the television off. It's nice to hear the journalists tell the truth for once. For once my story has been turned around for a positive outcome. The part with Hunter Bates in it can end, and I can face the surgery with an open mind. The day Hunter attempted to kill me, his weight was around my neck. Since the moment he grabbed my tumor and started to squeeze, I have desperately wanted to get this tumor out. The pressure he placed against it, burns within my trachea. It's been harder to swallow since then and challenging to talk. I've been avoiding talking since the vibrations in
The Winter Paris Competition is over and I can finally relax. With Tanya Pennington named the winner, I can finish out the remainder of my Model Perfect contract and be away from the spotlight. All eyes are on Tanya Pennington and her girlfriend, Lucia Perez. Tanya is the first lesbian to become a model girl winner for Model Perfect. All social media platforms are buzzing with the news. As for me, I am glad it's all turning out the way it needs to. Freddie drops me off at my house. The exhaustion from today is written all over my face. "I'm glad you didn't throw the competition. You could have. You almost did. What made you return to my office that day?" "Tanya did. She wanted to win against me fair and square and she did. Now that that's over and done with, what does Model Perfect want from me. The CEO and everyone else on staff knows about my thyroid surgery now. Can I finish out the remainder of my contract?" Freddie smiles from head to toe. He gives me a large nod. "Yes,
The Winter Paris Collection Competition is back on, and Freddie is letting me compete. I re-read my contract, and it turns out I have six months left to go until it gets renewed. I am not sure I am looking for renewal at this time, or ever. Given their track record with me, I need to find a new career or new modeling agency that is willing to take me on. Rosa spent the night at my house, Freddie got her approved to model for the day. Rosa, Tanya, and I are all going to be sporting slutty Christmas dresses and Santa hats. It’s the time of the year when models get perks for modeling during the wondrous Christmas season. “Emma, Freddie told me what happened. Did you really try to quit being a model at Model Perfect? Listen it isn't up to me, but I think you should stay until graduation." "Don't worry. I will be staying for a little while longer. But the truth is I need to quit and get this surgery taken care of. Even Tanya Pennington knows about it now." Rosa chokes on her morning
As I storm out of Freddie’s office, golden locks of white hair flip in my face, Tanya Pennington startles me. I haven’t seen or heard from her since the night of Jeremiah’s house party. That’s not to say I haven’t been keeping my tabs on her, I have. I have been stalking her social media platforms in search of anything she might have used against me. But I have also been digging to find out if Hunter’s claims on Halloween night have any merit. Which so far it appears that they don’t Tanya smiles at me, like she is about to say something crass as her smile twists into the edges of her perfectly high cheek bones. That’s the thing about Tanya, if anyone were to be stalking her she would look good no matter what. Her make-up is rumored to be tattooed to her face. That’s what her followers brag about her eyeliner anyway. “I overheard what you said to Freddie, are you sure you want to quit? You’d practically be handing your job over to me…You give up to easily you know that? What fun is i