Snowchild.

Lance Mathews: "Do you recall the time I told you what the world could have been if we remained unconscious? but it isn't. Stuck in an endless loop. Or what the picture of it in mind might have been. And you'd say 'you are just as fucked up as I am, maybe that's why I feel myself with you. Well, this view begins with an instruction and ends with a prologue.

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Voice 1:Open, open your mind, yes your Third Eye. 

Now tell me, what do you see?-

Voice 2: "I don't, I can't seem to see anything. It's blank. Dark and somehow shaded with light ." what is this?. Where is this? .Why can't I feel anything ?. Why can't I move? Where is the grass, the sand, the creatures, the air, the sky, those far apart stars, the waters, and many more?"

Voice 1:" You mean Earth?. Let Us say"in the beginning there was darkness and within the darkness, there was light, for these two existed through each other.

Voice 2: "Pardon me, what do light and darkness have to do with 'life'?

Voice 1: 'Life' doesn't exist yet

It has all vanished as we speak you are beyond existence.

Voice 2: "And what are you?

Voice 1: "I'm a mere voice within you. Let me explain: The end is the beginning and the beginning is the end at the end two things remain Darkness and light and they form a new world once more. More like how those planets used to rotate around the star as you called it the Sun.

The Sun 

A star was born. The first of its kind. White in color as centuries passed. It grew, aging from white to yellow from yellow to orange from orange to red, and from red to blue. Now when it turned blue it lost its heat then became dark & gloomy and its stone heart that burnt like coal ended up dimming becoming cold and it eventually exploded, creating a gas that forms a black hole, which swallowed its surrounding as it grew. 

●Life

Life existed through darkness and light, with darkness only in control. Life itself fell deep into a complete abyss. That was after Mankind had choked the skies, poisoned the ocean, bruised the land and all that was left was at disposal.

Now with the death of the star in the milky way the remaining planets became inhabitants and those that were already inhabitant eventually got swallowed after the third phase.

This leads us here. At this moment.

So tell me any words, gestures, or questions.

Voice 2: "what are we to do now?

Voice 1: We go back from where it all began, light and darkness.

Genesis

In the beginning, God created the world, the creatures, the land, and separated the upper waters from those that lay swiftly in the land. After seeing what the world has become, Good it was said and later on created the newly evolved creatures, species that could think and act above their limit. Called these animals, animals. One learned how to speak, it grasped its father's tongue and was able to communicate together. So it had to be distinguished from those that couldn't pronounce. Its name became known as Genesis, the beginning and the end of what has been created. As time passed these newly evolved species traveled, one went east, two went North and three got stuck in the wild west whilst their father remained south and died living his land to his sons. God had departed to the heavens and created a new world in the midst of the universe. The earth had parts that differed in atmosphere and temperature. The western became light skin, the eastern became pitch, the Northmen grasped a new tongue and the southern remained, oh well southern. The Western explored the world and they all were united once more at the cost of chaos they'd brought unto themselves. We will name ourselves Humans, they said.

Julia: I realized that on the Genesis piece, you had avoided God's gender. Why not use 'He'?.

Lance Mathews: It felt more unbiased and real, for as humans we needed that gender clarification just to feel connected and the fatherly love for it sure was and still is scarce in this life.

Safe Haven.

6¾

The existence of life dwells in his mind. It sometimes rents his thoughts paying a single dollar bill. 

Therapy Session

Final meeting.

12:30

Analysts: And how have your dreams been lately

David: Normal. I have been getting some rest, Sometimes I dream about her and sometimes I don't. 

Analysts: Would you say you miss her?

David: Of cause, no day passes that I don't think about her.

Analysts: From here forth what are the things you think you'll do differently 

David: hmmm, Surely speaking to someone has helped, making new friends. Ones that have their best good intention towards me and of cause I should be able to offer them the same love. Expressing my emotions most often. I should start accepting that I haven't went passed the whole thing and I should face that head-on. There is a lot I have to improve but one that stands out is me knowing where I stand with myself. 

Analyst: You have grown well these past weeks 

And it gladdens me to see the pain in your eyes vanishing. 

David: Thank you, Dr. Edwards. 

Dr. Edwards Walker: No need to thank me, I'm always here when you need me.

Spiral.

The last time I saw Auther was at the airport, On my way to Canada. I had to leave. A "safety protocol" I said

For deep down I knew, I couldn't bear the atmosphere and all that had happened. And I think he knew it too, giving me a tight hug as if I were his cousin James. Genuine care it was, I see him in you ' he said. And I feel her around us, watching in amazement.

I got to know him personally when I hit my depression phase. He'd say something like "we are a dying generation, but that doesn't necessarily mean we aren't worthy of a life filled with joy and happiness. And now I think, I understand what he might have meant. 

He was a wild kid, a prankster, and on his worst days a poet. By poet, I mean a deep, wording genius. He is that child that is often home alone and he'd grown fond of it. You know them, those that you spot chilling with the cool kids but they'd barely be engaging in conversations, buried in their phones, and nodding to each word spoken, and all insane parties were at their houses. And are held closest to mind.

A closed book he was. I've known Auther from high school. We weren't close. I'd notice him but I'd rarely pay attention to the actual person. It is more like a glimpse of shadow when you see the face and that's all it is.

Airpot.

Auther: Running away doesn't heal the wound(saying the words gently)

"I'm not running, I'm, just ..exhausted from it all" responds David.[looking forward, holding his luggage)

Auther: And what will you do in Canada?

David: Start a new life, visit the Jasper National Park, umm I will see where life takes me.

"Surely I can't stop you, and I think you need this. So keep in touch" says Author

David: Thanks again for recommending therapy for me, it has helped.

Auther: Don't sweat it. (Giving him one last hug before he departs.

June 21st:

Mathews grew up with a single parent. During kindergarten, kids would have both their parents pick them up at times. He'd, later on, learn there were things his parent couldn't teach him. Despite it all, "he was a happy child" Auntie Susan said.

•Take it one step at a time.

Jumping does not make you ahead.

For you'll soon or later have to revisit those skipped footsteps boy.

Son: Okay...

Son: Dad! If I may

•Yes boy

Son: why do people often disagree?

•Umm...The world is full of different humans. We might be similar but we are far from being the same.

Son: What does that mean?

•It means, Your right might be my wrong and your wrong might be my right. So at some stage, we are bound to reach an impasse. And sometimes, we are entitled to an emotional opinion.

Now stop with the questions and focus on where you are stepping.

(Minutes later.)

Son: So Everyone is heading to settle on the peak?

•Not everyone. You see that there is what most seemingly aim as their limit. Tell me, What do people want the most?

Son: Love?

•Not quite, people want a sense of purpose and they've grown to believe that purpose lays on the peak of the mountain. So they climb the mountain every day to reach the top just to learn that it wasn't worth all the sacrifices.

Son: Can't they climb back down.

•It's not that easy, you see climbing back down is much harder than climbing up. First, your attention has to shift from the top view and you must gaze down at what you've deserted. And while doing so you must maintain a steady grab not to fall. Even so.. (sigh)Most later on find that they are scared of Heights so they remain still. 

David Mathews: How about Life?

Luna Mathews: Life, life is like a loan, a series of loans no matter how much you save up for it, you'll never fully pay it in time.

David Mathews: Happy fathers day Mom.

June twenty-one 20. Father's day

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