LOGINA breeze drifted through the barn, carrying the scent of fresh-cut hay and charcoal.
The next round began. Their rhythm settled in without discussion. When he missed left, she compensated. When one of her bags bounced off the board, he knocked an opponent’s bag away to leave hers the point. “You two work together pretty well,” Aunt Charli observed. Fred laughed. “They’re naturals.” Neither of them answered. They kept working, sinking bean bags one after the other. It was like they had done this their entire lives. Poppi caught Madden’s eyes. His eyes were hauntingly blue. He didn’t look away right away, but eventually he turned his head back to the crowd. Poppi let out a long breath. She must have been holding her breath while he was staring at her. Halfway through the match, Madden bent to retrieve a beanbag at the same moment Poppi reached for it. Their hands brushed. A fraction of a second. Still, it felt like touching a live wire. Both jerked back immediately. “Sorry,” they said in unison. Poppi’s stomach tightened. She pulled away instinctively but her mind was telling her to touch him a bit longer. Why would she think that? She knows who he is now and he is definitely off limits. Isn’t he? Madden stared at the red beanbag in his hand. The game came down to the final throw. “Winner takes bragging rights!” Valyn called. Everyone gathered closer. Madden looked at Poppi, “You want to attempt yje last shot to win the game?” She nodded. He handed her the final red bag, “No pressure Poppi.” She smirked despite herself. “I thought you said you could handle competitive,” she said. “I lied,” he giggled. She laughed, but quietly this time. It surprised them both. She took a breath, released the bag, and watched it arc cleanly through the warm evening air. Straight into the hole. She turned to get a look at his face as she strutted to grab the bags that hadn’t gone in. His mouth was wide open and his eyes were the size of saucers. He could not believe what a clean shot she has made. The family erupted in cheers. Before he could stop himself, Madden threw an arm around her shoulders in celebration. He squeezed her into his side. The instant he realized what he’d done, he stepped back as if it burned. Neither looked at the other. No one else noticed. The family only saw two new siblings winning their first game together. Only Poppi and Madden knew it wasn’t nearly that simple. Poppi got butterflies in her stomach the moment his hand touched the skin on her shoulder. The touch was brief but she had memorized how his fingers felt when he grazed her arm. They kept shooting each other knowing glances when people said they looked great together or that they loved how we worked so well. Madden would give her a little smile. He could see it was bothering her.Not because it wasn’t true. Because it was. The phone rang. Madden. Poppi answered. “Hi.” His voice came through the speaker, tired and quiet. “Hey.” For a moment, neither of them said anything. Then Madden asked, “You okay?” Poppi smiled sadly. “No.” He laughed softly. “Me neither.” She curled her legs beneath her. “How far are you?” “Still a long way.” “That’s not an answer.” “I know.” She could hear the road beneath his voice. “You driving?” “Yeah.” “Then don’t talk to me.” “I can talk and drive.” “No, you can’t.” “I’ve missed your bossiness.” Poppi smiled. “I’ve missed you.” Silence. Madden’s breathing changed. “Say that again.” “No.” “Poppi.” She laughed softly. “You heard me.” “I just wanted to hear it twice.” Her smile faded. “Madden…” “Yeah?” “I don’t want us to make this harder than it already is.” “I know.” “I mean it.” “I know.” “But I don’t know how to do this.” His voice softened. “Neither do I.” Poppi stared down at her stom
The house felt different without Madden.Poppi didn’t know how else to describe it.It wasn’t quieter.Fred was still moving around downstairs. Valyn was still in the kitchen, opening and closing cabinets as she cleaned. The television was playing in the living room even though nobody seemed to be watching it.Everything was exactly where it had been yesterday.And somehow, everything felt completely different.Poppi stood at the upstairs window, watching the empty driveway.Madden’s truck was gone.She had watched it disappear nearly twenty minutes ago.She had stood there until the very last second, until the truck turned at the end of the street and disappeared behind the row of trees.She hadn’t moved since.Her arms were folded tightly across her chest.Her hand slowly drifted down to her stomach.The baby.She still wasn’t used to thinking that word.Baby.Their baby.Madden was somewhere on the road to Maryland right now.And she was standing in Texas, pregnant with his child.
Madden and Poppi entered the gated oak tree near the wooden swing and sat. Poppi fidgeted with her hair. Putting it in and out of a ponytail. Madden gave her his undivided attention.“What’s going on?”She took a deep breath.“So I haven’t seen you much for the last month. And I have been kind of going through something on my own,” Poppi stated.Madden reached for her hand but resisted, “I’m sorry you have been dealing with something Poppi. I’ve tried to honor what we said and I stayed away. It is very confusing and heartbreaking for me. Anchor is just easier unfortunately. But we agreed to that, right?” Poppi nodded and looked out towards the barn. “I mean, we ended this Poppi. You wanted this. Me leaving, me with Anchor, this is what you wan—“ he began.“I’m pregnant Madden,” she blurted out. The words felt so heavy coming out. As if she pick them up and hold them in her hands.Madden stopped. He turned towards her with his eyes wide open. “What?” He asked.“I’m pregnant. With
The second decision proved even harder.Fred.Just thinking his name made Poppi’s stomach tighten.She loved her stepfather.He had raised her.Protected her.Believed in her when she hadn’t always believed in herself.He had been there for every birthday, every school event, every heartbreak. He had taught her how to drive, sat beside her when she cried, and never once made her feel like she was anything less than his daughter.And now she had to tell him the one thing that might completely destroy the life he thought they were all living.She was pregnant.With Madden’s baby.Her hands trembled as she sat on the edge of her bed, staring at the test sitting on the nightstand.She had looked at it so many times that morning that the two lines almost didn’t feel real anymore.Almost.She placed a hand over her stomach.There was nothing to feel yet.No movement.No bump.Nothing that should have made this feel real.And yet, somehow, everything had changed.Madden was leaving for Maryl
The house had never felt so loud.The laughter downstairs drifted through the vents while Poppi sat on the edge of her bed, staring at the pregnancy test she’d tucked inside the back of her nightstand. Hidden beneath old dance recital programs and birthday cards, it still felt like it was glowing.Two pink lines.She’d checked it a dozen times, as though somehow they might disappear if she looked hard enough.They hadn’t.Her hand instinctively drifted to her stomach.Nothing had changed.Everything had changed.A knock sounded softly against her bedroom door.“You awake?” Valyn asked.Poppi swallowed. “Yeah.”The door cracked open just enough for her mom to peek inside.“You okay? You’ve been awfully quiet today.”“I’m just tired.”Valyn studied her for a second, the way mothers always seemed to know when something wasn’t right. But after a moment she smiled gently.“Don’t stay up too late. We leave early to take Madden to the airport.”Airport.The word hit like a punch.Tomorrow.T
Back home Poppi and Madden stayed away from one another. They didn’t glance at each other the way they used to. Valyn noticed.Poppi was cleaning Thunder’s hooves out one evening and Valyn joined her. She pulled up a stool next to Poppi who was covered in dirt and hay. “Pops, you’ve been so down lately babe. What can I do?” Valyn asked, hand her a tool she was trying to reach. “Mom! Are you serious? You know why I’m sad. There is nothing you can do to change it so please just let it be until August 20th comes and he goes home,” Poppi said, letting Thunder rest her hoof. Valyn almost spoke but withheld. She knew her daughter was right. She hated seeing her hurt this way. “I love him, mom. You don’t care about that though do you?” Poppi asked.Valyn was speechless. She tried to form words…the right words. But she had nothing that would heal her heart. She hugged Poppi and then walked back up to the house. Poppi sat in the barn and cried. She couldn’t believe this was her life. Fa







