Masuk
~Soren~
My name is Soren. Yes, soren. Now don't ask me why but I guess mom thought I might be a boy when I was still just a little pup in her womb. So I guess I was bad luck from the very beginning. In fact, late Aunt Irina said mom smooshed up her face when the pack nurse brought me forward. Oh, I forgot I'm an omega. Ta-da from the family of Betas so don't ask me again, ask the moon goddess. Mom is literally the last beta since she's grandpa and grandma's only child. And guess what? Mom is remarrying today. For the fifth time. Shhhh, don't tell anybody. I also inadvertently destroyed her dress and if you see anyone who resembles a farmer in baggy jeans with short hair, that’s me. Plus, Mom gave me a surprise haircut in my sleep. Payback from her. Call it Aura for Aura and it makes me look like a traumatized lion. "You may now kiss the bride." The pack’s officiating priest says. "Before Elsbridge Pack and the moon goddess I pronounce you mates." Yeah, everyone is crazy including the priest. I'm not a priest but I knew the latter should come before the former but what do I know? Mom is grinning, like grinning so hard like the moon goddess just borrowed her a fancy wig. Dang… Better to leave before I get called for some stupid family photo. Alpha Donovan Dimitri was mom’s new catch not even two weeks ago. I heard the pack is the most civilized pack ever, just do whatever you want, as you want, whichever way you want and the guy is super duper wealthy, divorced a lot that I thought he might have received an award or something. Birds of the same feather, I guess and I heard he had a stu— "Watch where you are going before you kiss me." Someone smacked my head. I spin around, ready to cuss out whichever pack idiot thinks they can use my skull as a drum. Then I freeze. Tall. Ridiculously tall. Broad shoulders in a perfectly tailored black suit. Jawline sharp enough to cut my last brain cell in half. And those eyes… a dark storm, glaring at me as if I had somehow wandered into his personal galaxy. "Uh—sorry," I muttered, rubbing the spot he hit. Because apparently I’m supposed to be polite to strangers who could squash me like a bug. He sniffs the air—because wolves are nosy like that and his expression flickers. Something like confusion. Disgust. Shock. I can’t tell. He furrowed his brow as if I just said I worshipped chickens. “O–mega?” He spits the word like it’s dirt on his tongue. “Congratulations, you can smell,” I say, brushing off invisible dirt from my hoodie. I’m trying so hard to look like I don’t care. Spoiler: I’m very perturbed. He raises his brow, as if nobody ever talks back to him. Great. I’ve successfully pissed off the giant pack alpha looking dude at my mom’s wedding. “The name is Soren,” I add, chin up, trying not to sound like a cornered squirrel. “Not ‘omega.’” His mouth curves, barely into a smirk. But not really, not in his eyes. “Felix,” he says, his voice smooth. As smooth as…. I don’t know but this guy’s voice can make the devil beg God for forgiveness. Felix. Sounds like trouble already. I just know that the next 90 days with Mom and her new husband are going to be nuts. “You’re in the way,” he says. “‘You’re in the way.’” I mimic him, whispering under my breath with sarcasm while I dodge out of his way before I could be ever so slightly intimidated to death. He is motionless, still looking at me as though I was a bug he’s considering squashing. I continue moving toward the door, pretending that my heart isn’t ramrodding through my ribs. Only halfway to the back door do I dare steal a glance. Yup. Still watching me. Creepy and hot. But mostly creepy. Out I go into the chill of the night, breathing in freedom. The fake laughter and cringeworthy wedding songs dissolve in the distance. My mom has probably just been posing with her fifth husband as though she just won the mate lottery. The new husband. New pack status. New life. Meanwhile, I’m the clearance-sale daughter with a bargain-bin haircut. Snap. Branches crack after me. I pivot so hard I nearly break my neck. Felix is standing there with his hands in his pockets, his expression unreadable. The moonlight accentuates the angles of his face. He looks like all of the things I want but shouldn't have or think about having. "W-What?" I stammer. Yes, stammer. Don't judge me. He takes one step closer. Slowly and perfectly. Inside of me my wolf is whimpering like, “Just leave!,” but my feet are idiots and won’t listen. "My wolf…" he mutters, his voice so low that it could tremble the leaves. "What about him?" I bristle, folding my arms to conceal just how wobbly I am. My courage lasts precisely three seconds. Felix’s gaze intensely meets mine. Too intense like he’s looking for bugs in my soul. "He’s going insane." "Okay… and why are you telling me?" I inquire. "Go see a wolf therapist or something." His jaw tightens. He takes another step. The gap between us vanishes. He’s so close I can feel the heat coming off him like a solar furnace. My heart does a full gymnastics routine. "Soren," he breathes slowly as if he couldn't believe the moon was hanging in the sky. "You smell like…" He stops. I catch my breath. My back stiffens and my mind slips away. No. No no no. Of all the curses the moon goddess could have laid on me. Of all the people in this pack. Of all the weddings I could have skipped and just stayed home from. "Say it and I swear I'll bite you," I warn, my voice barely holding steady. My bark is definitely worse than my bite. His eyes darken, gold swirling in those stormy blue eyes. The wolf within him is rising. "Mate."~Soren~I shouldn't be here, I tell myself.It’s 11:00 A.M and I’m standing in Felix's door in nothing but his t-shirt, which I stole, and panties which are already wet with sweat just from walking down the hall.The bond is taunting me, tormenting me, shattering me and I can no longer fight it.Crap.If my Mom sees me here, if I get pregnant from all of this.Well, dickhead, I say.I knock once and the door opens. Felix is shirtless, sweatpants sagging painfully low, liquid gold in his eyes and his wolf is right there at the surface.“Soren.” he whispers, checking the hallway.“What are you—”I don’t let him finish. I cup his face and kiss him, hard and desperate. He makes a sound -- surprised, hungry -- and then his hands are on me, dragging me inside, slamming the door.He exhales “F*ck” into my mouth. “You sound like you’ve been playing with yourself.”“I tried. It wasn’t enough. I need–”“Me.” He bites my bottom lip. “You need my c*ck. Say it.”“ I need your c*ck.”“Good girl.”
~Soren~I refuse to return to the dining room. I’m not supposed to be sitting there with Kai’s hand on mine, Felix’s cum still dripping down my thighs, my lips still swollen from his kiss, my body still humming with the memory of having him inside me. I close the door to my bathroom and the window, and raise the heat all the way up under the shower. But then as the water runs down my skin, I cry instead. Quiet, trembling sobs shake my entire body.Because that was goodbye. That was Felix surrendering, releasing me to Kai because he believes that’s what I want.I am still in the shower when I hear my bedroom door open. Then close and then lock.My heart freezes.I hear Felix’s voice, coarse and commanding. “Soren, I know you're in there."With trembling fingers I turn off the water. "Go away.""No.""Felix, we can't do this anymore.""I don’t care." The handle of the bathroom door rattles. "Open the door.”"No.""Open up, or I'll come in! I'll break it down!”And before I could think
~Soren~I meet Jazz at the coffee shop off-campus. She glances at my face and buys me a double shot espresso without permission."You look like hell," she says, as she slid into the booth opposite me as if that needs to be pointed out.“Thanks. You definitely know how to make a girl feel special.”"Soren, I mean it. What's happening? I don’t know. You've been radio silent since the engagement announcement."I clutch the warm mug. "I’m thinking of leaving home."Jazz's eyes widen. "Leaving as in leaving the pack or running away?""Both. Neither. I don't know." I burn my tongue and take a gulp of coffee. "Kai offered to help me get out. Start somewhere new. Away from all of this.""Kai." The tone in how she pronounces his name tells you exactly what she thinks. "Soren, I don’t trust him.""You don’t even know him.""I know enough. He's Felix's cousin and they hate each other. He's been circling you since day one. And now all of a sudden he's your saviour?" Jazz leans forward. "That’s n
~Soren~Kai's bike roars beneath us. I wrap my arms around his hips and let him take me away from everything.We drive for hours on end until we find what seems like a deserted gas station. But it is not deserted. There’s bikes everywhere, leather-jacketed guys with mad eyes. They turn to look as we come up."Kai!" One of them—tall, scarred—grins. " Didn’t expect you today. ""Had some business in town." Kai helps me off the bike. "This is Soren. Felix's stepsister," The scarred guy shrugs. "Heard about the engagement. Felecca. Stupid fucking name. Felix is a puppet. Always has been."Kai turns to me and gives me you - just - heard - it - yourself look .We drive into the country until we come to a secret valley. A clearing surpassed by cliffs with a stream in the middle. It’s serene and I love it.Kai builds a fire and ee sat on logs, the flames crackling between us."This place is beautiful," I say.“We come here when we need to get away from the pack politics.”"Does Felix know ab
~Soren~I don't sleep at all.I’m here, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling and listening to Felix finally give up and walk away at around three in the morning. His steps are heavy, exhausted, and part of me traitorous wants to call him back.I don't have to.At dawn I’m already dressed. Black jeans, oversized hoodie, hair pulled back. Armor.I look in the mirror at myself and I almost don’t recognize the girl looking back. Her eyes are sunken, shadowed by sleepless nights. Her skin is pale, she looks like a ghost.Fitting.That’s what I am now. A ghost at the fringes of somebody else’s love story.My phone is showing forty-seven missed calls from Felix. Sixty-three texts. I delete them all without reading.I can’t, not yet.Maybe not ever.I hear a knock on my door and my heart jumps foolishly thinking it’s him."Miss Soren?" Margot's gentle voice. "Your mother wishes to see you in the morning room. Breakfast with the Harrisons."Certainly.Because this is no longer a nightmare for
~Soren~The words echo through the hall, each one driving another nail into my coffin.I stand there, holding somehow Felix’s hand, and watch our future burn.Rebecca sees our now tightly intertwined hands and frowns slightly. "You two are close.""They’re virtually joined at the hip," Georgina laughs.“Like real siblings."That word again.Eventually I finally, finally recoil my hand from Felix‘s.I can't look at him.If I look at him, I’m going to completely shatter.“I should go,” I hear myself say. “It’s late. School tomorrow. I’ve got to be up early.”"Of course," Alpha Donovan said good-naturedly with a smile. "But Soren? Clear your calendar for the next few days, would you? As Lunar Witness, you must go to all the pre ceremony rituals. Rebecca is going to need your support."I repeat flatly, “My support.”Rebecca smiles at me, and it's not unkind. Just confident. The smile that a woman has when she’s never punched for anything there has never been a need to fight for anything bec







