What Now?

Sharon

Olivia had some timing. Matt and I had just finished fucking in my bedroom when she banged on the door. Matt played it off well pretending to pick up and deliver something for Tony. We were grabbing our clothes hoping they weren’t inside out due to us snatching them off when he arrived. We normally would take a shower afterwards and go another session but that was called off due to Olivia finding Robert with two women at the house. 

I knew it was just a matter of time before Robert started taking advantage of the situation with Olivia being out of the house on the weekends. She’s gotten hooked up with someone that is rocking her world and I couldn’t complain, I did the same exact thing. Shit, I have Matt tapping me very well at the moment and I really didn’t expect that. 

I’ve seen this young man grow up and pay very close attention to the needs of a woman. Our connection is so deep it's intoxicating and I don’t want to give him up. I was going to ask him to stay the night, but with Olivia being there, our plans were thwarted. 

“I knew it was happening, I don’t know why I’m like this.” Olivia talked out loud trying to figure out why she'd come emotional after walking in on her husband and his menage too . 

“It’s your reality slapped in your face. You can handle it when you know it to be true, but to see it happening in front of you is something totally different.” I needed her to understand that I had been through it and she will get through it too. 

“I know, this is so crazy.” She wiped her eyes continuously as tears fell steadily. 

“How was your weekend?” I blurted trying to get her mind off of her cheating husband Robert.  She wiped her eyes again and realized she had just come back from an amazing weekend. 

“It was fabulous,” She looked at me and a small smile formed on her lips. “I shouldn’t even be like this.” 

“No you shouldn’t. You wanna have another drink?” I walked over to refresh my drink. 

“Yes please,” She walked over to the bar and sat on the stool while I poured us a couple of drinks. “Sharon, I have to thank you.”

“Thank me for what, Honey?”

“Thank you for pushing me outside my boundaries.”

I looked at her and she was glowing. “Looks like you got pushed outside your boundaries over the weekend.”

“Yes Ma’am I did.” She smiled blushing so hard it made me smile. I was glad she had found someone to light the fire that was inside of her to which Robert had let dim. 

“I’m happy you’ve found someone to tickle your fancy.”  

“Me too.”

“Is he a youngster? What’s his name, I might know him?”  I don’t know all of them, but I can tell her if he was new or not. She hesitated as if she didn’t want to let me in her playground.

“Yes, he’s young but I can’t tell you his name. I want to keep him all to myself.” She smiled and took a gulp of her drink. 

“Well I’m happy for you. The young ones have stamina. They can keep up with our desires.”

“And show us some new ones!”  She raised her glass.

We both looked at each other and clinked our glasses together in agreement. “I’ll drink to that!”

“So tell me about the guy you’re seeing. Does he butter your toast?” Olivia asked, taking another gulp of her drink. 

“Oh my,” I blushed thinking about the pornographic sex Matt and I had just before she arrived. “He butters everything and it’s heavenly.” I beamed and she nodded in agreement. She knew exactly what I was experiencing. 

“Why is it always the young  ones?”  Olivia laughed and finished her drink. 

“Another?”

“No, I’m good.” She smiled while she looked at the glass. Perhaps she was thinking about her weekend with her boy toy. “Sharon,” she looked at me searching for answers. “Did you ever think you would be at this point in your life, fucking with a younger man?”

I looked at her trying to figure out what was on her mind. I wanted her happy but I didn’t want her to be stressed about her actions. “Sweetheart, I didn’t think about anything. I knew it was someone different from my husband. It was someone new and exciting who did things that my husband NEVER did.” 

“Do you ever think you might, um…? How do you keep from..um..” She stammered her questions. She had feelings that she was having and needed an understanding. 

“Olivia, it’s okay to have feelings. You are human and connecting with someone intimately is magnetic.” I placed my hand over my heart because I knew exactly how she was feeling because I was feeling the same thing with Matt. 

“I didn’t expect to connect with him like I did.” She stood up and walked around covering her mouth smiling. 

“Feels good doesn’t it?” She stopped and glanced over to me. A slight smile grew on her face but I could still tell she was wavering. “Well, why don’t you take a break?”

She shot me a look that made me giggle. “Why would I do that?” She raised her hands, covering her heart. 

“Because you’re getting too close to the young guy right now and you walked in on your husband cheating. You need to focus your mind and find your footing. Those are two extremely different scenarios.” 

“And again, why should I take a break?” She refuses to give up her lovely fling temporarily. 

“Because Honey, you don’t want it to become a rebound. Or is that something you are looking for?”  

Her smile faded slowly away the more she thought about it. I knew she wouldn’t want to get stuck if the feelings aren't mutual. Besides, the guy gets paid to please a woman, so his feelings may not be the same as hers. 

“No, I’m not looking for a rebound,”  Olivia plopped down on the lounge chair. “I might need another drink.” I chuckled. 

“I’ll get it.” I prepared another drink for the both of us before leaving behind the bar. “So I take it you started to have some feelings for the guy.”

“There’s a warm spot for sure. I’m trying to figure it out to be honest.” She held her chest as I passed her a full glass. “It’s like we have such a deep connection.”

“Tell me about it. If it makes you feel any better, I’m going through the same thing.”

Her eyes bulged as she took a sip. “You’re falling for your guy too?”

“There’s feelings that are definitely growing but I’m hesitating for various reasons.”

“Same here. One for me is that he’s way younger than me. And two, he works for this service. I have so many questions that run through my head about him.”

“I’m sorry Honey, it makes me feel that me telling you about the service may have been a bad thing.”

“No, it wasn’t. It just gives me something to think about now that I have to start my life over.” She took another sip and leaned back, crossing her legs.

“Well, I started mine over a while ago, and I’ve been fucking young guys longer than you. However, this is the first time I have ever even considered my feelings for one of them.”

“What is it about him that makes him different from the others?” She asked. 

I sat back and crossed my legs thinking about what I could let her know and what I couldn’t. I didn’t need her to know he was a friend of Tony’s, especially Tony’s best friend.  Matt was always around my house hanging out with Tony, but he also had a lot of questions. He was very talkative when he was younger. He and I could have a conversation as if he was an adult. I felt he was an old soul because he seemed so much more mature than Tony. 

“I guess what makes him different is that he makes me feel comfortable around him. It’s as if I’ve known him for years, you know?” I sipped my drink and my stomach growled a bit. 

“Yeah, I do honestly.” 

I walked over to the fridge and grabbed a few pieces of cheese and meat for us to snack on. I also picked up a bag of crackers to complete our snack. 

“It’s crazy, and I don’t mean to sound like a slut or anything,” I laid the tray on the table and sat on the couch next to Olivia. “But I’ve been with my fair share of young guys, but this one, I don’t know. And I didn’t even meet him with the service!”

“Oh wow, so he just naturally zoned into you.”

“Exactly.”

“Well at least you know that there is a possibility his feelings are real, right? Has he expressed them?” Olivia is the one person I know who always looks for the good in all situations.

“No and yes. I would say, indirectly.” I responded by taking a piece of cheese and meat stacked atop a cracker. 

“I see.” She crossed her legs underneath her and grabbed a few pieces of all three treats. “With me, I feel a connection but I’m hesitant because I paid him to make me feel good and forget about Robert.”

“And did he?”

“Yes the fuck he did.” She sipped her drink and popped a loaded cracker in her mouth. Olivia closed her eyes and shook her head while she chewed. “Oh my god, yes he did.”

“I know the feeling. I remembered the first guy I fucked right after my husband left. I thought I was in love. But then it fizzled out and we just stopped connecting.”

“See,” Olivia pointed at me, her eyes wild and serious. “That’s what I don’t want. I just had that with Robert. I don’t want to go through that again.”

“Do you ever think you would want to fall in love again though?” I knew I was giving her something to think about, but I was contemplating the same thing. 

“I don’t know. I never really thought about it. You?”

“I have thought about it. It hasn’t happened, but it would have to be with the right person.”

“Of course, I’m sure you don’t want to replay what you’ve done already.”

“Exactly. But I can’t say I’m not open to it. I don’t want to be that woman who wants love so much but is afraid of the possible heartbreak she could encounter that she gives up entirely on love.” I blurted openly. 

I was serious. I knew I didn’t want to turn my back on love. I know it’s hard but I believe it's worth it when someone finds the right person. I know I will find my person who is truly right for me. Matt may be that person, which is so mind boggling to me because of the age difference. I sometimes feel as though he hasn’t had enough life experiences to understand where I’m coming from. 

But when it comes to matters of the heart, does age really factor into it? Who am I to say what he feels isn’t real just because he’s young? 

“I completely understand. So much it’s scary.” We both nodded in agreement about our very peculiar predicaments.