"Let her go, Jordan. You will die if he sees this.” Bellva drew closer to us, her eyes wide with lingering worry.I don't know what she's thinking, what's the worst thing Rhysand could do to Jordan, but I already understand what bad things Rhysand can cause. He even set me up, and he destroyed Jordan and me. Setting things up so that all that was revealed was that Jordan was having an affair with Claudia. And now perhaps whatever warning Bellva gave would come true."Jordan." I called out as let go of his really strong hug on my body.He still mumbles the word 'sorry' repeatedly in my ear until I feel the heat in my chest."Jordan, please." I squeaked softly. "Please, let me go."He took a deep breath before finally letting go of my hug. Jordan's face was glazed and haggard, all I could see was sadness and regret. I don't want that. I don't want him to get lost in his emotions because I want him to be able to answer my questions clearly. I don't want to accept all the flattery and apo
"Who—whose life is in his hands?" Jordan asked, his eyes widening with surprise.I shook my head. "You don't have to know. All you need to know is that I will be fine."His hands tugged at his hair with an irritated expression. "No, Amanda. You're not going to be fine." Jordan shook his head. "Trust me, Amanda. I'll help you run from him.""Jordan, I don't want you to be in any danger."I let out a rough breath behind the pressure that overtook me. I know that Jordan will not give up easily either. He would still keep pushing me, and then put himself in danger. Rhysand had told me enough that he would do something to Jordan if Jordan dared to approach me again, and Bellva being here told me that Rhysand was serious. But somehow Jordan ignored that. All I could see from his face was that he wasn't scared at all by the warning Bellva gave him, what made him look frantic was because he was worried about me.And finding that made my heart ache. He's been through so bad, Rhysand has played
It took me a few seconds to realize it was only three hours after Rhysand left me at his castle, and it made the anticipation build inside me because he was back seven hours earlier, and it was only half an hour since Jordan was here.I was sitting on the couch in the lounge on the first floor and facing the big flat screen showing a comedy series. The classic nuance, which is mixed with modern, and also the large window that displays the back of the castle which is adorned by a cloudy sky makes my heart calm a little.And then the sudden tension inside of me told me he was coming.And that is right.He appeared in the opening between the living room and the living room, pausing only to glance back and forth between me and Bellva, and then strode toward us again, and sat down on the arm of the couch beside me."Nice to meet you, Belly." he said, of course, to Bellva. The tone was not influenced by fun, but sarcasm.Bellva just grunted before saying, "Nice to meet you too, Rhysie." She
The small fire that was inside me ignited so that it burned me to the core. I don't know what I'm doing right now but I kiss him, so aggressively and passionately untill I push him onto the couch, onto his lap and kiss him again.My heart pounded as our tongues touched and danced, just like it did the first time, and the last time. Whenever I kiss him, I know that it will feel like the first time I did it. We kissed and kissed, and though he would have known this if I had acted differently, he didn't push me. He's waiting for me. He just followed my lead, saying nothing as I pressed a small kiss on the back of his throat.Sliding his palm up and down my arm, he remains still as I pull my hand up to his chest. When I reached his stomach, I knelt down. His hands slip away from me, floating by my side as I unzip his pants, feeling the hard thickness there.Something like heat against my chest, and across my face as I reach in, wrap my fingers around his warm, hard skin. He panted heavily
A warm and soothing feeling slipped inside my heart, a strange thing that I've never felt from another person, it's all I can get in his arms.The anxiety, and the fear is still there, but it lies deep inside my heart. Because I know that this is something else: a calm that I crave and want to ease my head. Even though the only one who can give that is the same man who messed me up.I don't know what happened to me.. how can I get peace and chaos in the same person. It's all mixed up, and even I have mixed feelings. Rhysand really is the definition of gray line for me.It was the same as I was doing right now, on top of him, our naked bodies touching and I rested my cheek on his strong and athletic chest, hearing his strong but comfortable heartbeat. His hand stroked my bare back, and his slow, lazy movements let me know that he was enjoying this too. I stared at the heavy rain behind the balcony glass door which had washed away the large amount of remaining snow from yesterday's snow
I widened my eyes as the words left his mouth, and disbelief filled me. I bit my lip, and took a deep breath. Calm myself down and try to deal with him with my common sense. I don't want a commotion to happen."You agreed not to—""And the man who's become your reason, violence to me. You think I can accept it?""I know that he was wrong, and there are other ways of revenge that you want to him." I replied with a calmness that surprised me. I resumed. "I won't accept that, I don't want the engagement.""Unfortunately you can't do anything.""Reagan," I took a step forward, shaking my head. "Don't be like this, please. I—you are my best friend, and this is not like the real you."I once understood that Reagan never liked anyone crossing a line with him. His demeanor was more or less like Rhysand's. Never liked being defeated, and disliking others made them helpless. It is seen as hurting their pride. But I know that Rhysand is more terrible, he can do anything to Reagan if Reagan is s
"What are you cooking, Princess?" the voice and the hug I felt from behind me made me flinch a little in surprise.Rhysand's warm cheek touched mine, and he placed a quick peck on my cheek. I already feel that this is like a habit for him. Wherever we were he would take the opportunity to just hug me, peck me, or give me a kiss.And something inside me is still doing the same thing, still beating loudly, and on the other hand I'm used to it.I just kept quiet, and didn't do anything about it. Because that's the thing he wanted to do, and I'm just going to be quiet to accept anything because that's the deal we made. I will not refuse it.Besides, I'm tired of pretending in front of him. Imagining that our relationship would end and also that he was a bad guy made my denial feel pointless. It wasn't necessary, but I still put up a high wall to save myself in the future and put boundaries. Never spent the night at his place, or made room for him to sleep, really sleep, with me without ha
"I have to go." I said behind my hoarse throat, I stopped in front of Rhysand who was still sitting on his chair. It's already office hours, but he's still here, and I'm guessing that he's not doing companies work, but some other things. "My father is here, and he wants to see me."Rhysand leaned against the head of his chair, only his white shirt remaining, and he folded his arms. Staring at me expressionlessly, and slightly indifferent. "Why are you asking permission?" he asked, his voice cold. "I don't really care."My heart made a painful leap, but I pushed everything down, to the bottom of me so I couldn't show the pain on my face. I shrugged, and sighed. My heart didn't accept the change in his gesture for me, but my logic told me that this was a good thing, and had to be done. His cold demeanor is just what I need."I'm your assistant and I'll ask permission even if it's time to go home."Rhysand didn't answer anything but nodded behind his cold face. I sighed, and nodded while