Kabanata 56: Regrets

I took a deep breath, as I decided to call him. It's just so stupid of me to believe that I can handle the fact that I'll no longer have someone like Dylan Rios in my life. But then, despite the multiple attempt to call him, I didn't get a chance to reach him again.

Isa itong gabi na puno ng pagsisisi ang aking damdamin. Nakasandal ako sa dulo ng aking kama habang nakalagay sa ibabaw ng aking hita ang isang box kung saan namin ini-ipon ni Dylan ang ilan namin mga litrato na kuha namin sa New York at sa iba pa na bansa kung saan kami noon nagbakasyon.

In a cemetery where my unborn child is buried in, I put down my head and slowly caresses its tombstone. Gumuhit ang lungkot sa aking puso.

"Sorry baby..."

"Your Mom had been a monster. Ang tanga ko para isipin na magiging proud ka riyan sa akin sa heaven. Siguro nga ay ikinakahiya mo na ako riyan." Mapait ako na napatawa.

"Your father hurt me so much, and the pain he inflicted to me grew into anger, and that emotions turned me into som