Throughout the remainder of the party, Jesse watched Patrick as he touched Renee here and there. She would always pull back from him and smile politely, but she didn’t look comfortable. She hadn’t said anything to him about it, though. Once the party was over, and everyone had packed up, Renee put Christian in his car seat and started heading to the car. She put Christian in the car and walked over to the driver’s side. Jesse moved towards her, but she didn’t budge. She held out her hand and he just looked at her. “Keys, please. You have had way too much to drink,” Renee said. “I’m fine to drive. I’m not drunk.” “I’m not letting you drive me and Christian with that much alcohol in your system. If
The next morning when Jesse woke up to Christian crying, he felt the bed beside him. Renee wasn’t there. His head was pounding. He hadn’t drunk like that in a long time. He slowly got up and threw his boxers on. He went into Christian’s room and got him out of his crib. He changed him and then took him to the kitchen. He had yet to see Renee. Where was she? Had she run away? He felt anger take him over. He couldn’t remember last night beyond where she had taken the keys from him.He walked into the bedroom and still didn’t see her. He noticed the light was on in the bathroom. He walked over and saw her laying on the floor, naked. He frowned. Why in the hell was she on the floor naked? He set Christian down and went to shake Renee. When he did, he started seeing the bite marks and bruises on her. Shit. What had he done last night?
“I’m sorry. I haven’t had a blackout rage in a very long time. Seeing you with someone else enraged me. The alcohol just fueled that rage. I know you aren’t happy with me and I just thought you had found a way around leaving but could still be with someone else.”Renee was taken off guard by Jesse apologizing. He had never apologized to her before when he did something like this. She didn’t relax. It made her angry. Did he think that apologizing to her was going to fix this? Her hatred for him came back full force. She had to get away from him. She had to find a way to talk him into letting her have a job so that she could save her money and run away. She would call the number Kevin had and try to tell him what was going to happen. She couldn’t live like this anymore.
Renee felt like she was dying. He was taking the little bit of freedom he had given her away. She had worked hard to gain that freedom, and now, because of someone else, she was losing it. She became angry. She always knew this ploy of his was just to toy with her so he could hurt her worse once she had started to relax. She shoved his chest and screamed, “I hate you!” “You’ll get over it,” Jesse said as he walked away. Renee slid down to the floor and pulled her knees up to her chest. She placed her head on them and cried. There wasno way she could go back to him brutalizing h
Weeks went by with Jesse keeping a closer eye on Renee. She didn’t try to harm herself, but she was closed off. He had stopped taking her to the mommy and me group each week. She rarely smiled anymore. He had been checking her phone and the usage to see who she had been messaging. So far, she hadn’t deleted any of them off the phone. There were messages from the other women in the group asking her where she was and was everything okay. She never answered them.When he touched her, she tensed up or shrunk away from him. She didn’t fight him, but she was no longer responsive in any way. She would cry at night when she thought he was asleep. Even Christian couldn’t get her to smile most of the time. He sighed as he sat on the couch, watching her play with Christian on the floor. She had a slight smile on her face, but you could tell it was only there for the sake of
Months went by and Jesse had still not been able to bring Renee around. She hadn’t been sleeping well. She would have bad dreams at night and lash out. Sometimes she hit him, but he didn’t do anything out of the way because of it. Instead, he would wrap her in his arms and hold her tight, trying to stop her from fighting in her sleep. She would wake up terrified and her body would shake for a long time before she would finally fall back asleep. Her eyes had dark circles under them and she was barely eating. He would have to force her to eat at dinner or she would just wind up pushing the food around on her plate. Summertime had hit and the flowerbeds that she had tended to the past two years were starting to bloom. She hadn’t even been outside to tend to them even once. He had tried to get her to come out with him and offered to help her with them, but she had told him no every time.
Once she finished changing Christian, she came back out to the living room. Jesse was sitting on the couch, leaned over with his elbows on his knees. He looked deep in thought so she left him alone. She could feel him staring at her and Christian and she couldn’t help but wonder what he was going to do next. When he suddenly stood up, she tensed, waiting for him to do something to her. Instead, he took Christian out of her lap. He stood her up and kissed her while holding Christian on his hip. Christian put his hands on their faces and Renee smiled at him as Jesse broke the kiss. Jesse was really happy to see that smile on Renee’s face. He hadn’t seen it in a long time, not even when she looked at Christian. She hadn’t tensed up when he had kissed her and it made him feel good. He was going to go ahead with his surprise for her. He wasn’t sure if she would like it or not after everyth
Renee had thought about Jesse’s comment all the way back to the house. She knew their fake ID’s had them listed as a married couple, but they weren’t actually married. Why would she need a wedding ring after all this time? She had to admit to herself that she would have liked to have gotten married one day, but now, she knew she wouldn’t. She had hoped that one day Kevin would propose, but he hadn’t. She had seriously thought he was going to do it on their anniversary, but Jesse had ruined that. She sighed as she started putting away all of the things that had been bought today.Jesse hadn’t given her the necklace she had seen him get. What had he bought it for? Jesse came into the room and saw her putting all of the things away. He had told her that he had a surprise for her so why wasn’t she getting ready? He stopped her as she went to put the dress