Prologue
Knock!
Knock!Knock!Someone knocks at the dressing room’s door.“Hey, B, you’re on in 15!” I hear a male’s voice call out from the other side.
“Oh… Thank You…. I’ll be ready!” I shout back.
Tonight, I’m at the Blue Moon Pub. It is a rather popular little place in this town. I’m only passing by and will be here for two more days before I move on to the next town.
I have been here a few times before. It usually holds a good crowd.
I stare at myself in the mirror.
Looking at my refection, I’m filled with conflicting emotions. Staring straight into the same crystal green eyes of the one person I wish could hug me right now. The one person I wish I could talk to right now. Share my every high and low of every day with. But, I will never have that again.
I close my eyes, heaving a deep sigh.
Just then, a different memory hits me. Another one I wish I could ignore…
“Let’s get out of here” ….
I hear the words being whispered, in my mind.
The words I’ve heard countless nights in my dreams.
All I ever see are the most intoxicating pair of golden eyes, staring down at me.
I have become familiar with this voice. It’s low, deep, and husky. I feel like I should trust it. I know who he is. He is my forever, my other half, my love… my ‘MATE’.
I’ve had dreams about him for almost three years now, since I turned 18, the age that werewolves can find their mates. I know these dreams are my only way to find him.
I am in two minds about it, most of the time. There are days that I don’t want to think about those golden orbs.
For most of my teenage years I have never wanted a mate. Most of the time, I still don’t!
I am happy just being me! I get irritated by most males and their egotistical ways. I have no interest in having a relationship, or dating! I also have my personal reasons for not trusting men. I have myself, a few close friends, and I’m all good with that!
But then, every now and again when it gets close to full moon, I have these dreams.
I wake up conflicted and all worked up. My heart is racing, my hormones are doing funny things to my body, that I don’t want to feel!
It’s him!
My dreams about my mystery mate are not exact repeats. But two things always remain the same.
Those golden orbs, burning into my soul!
They radiate power and dominance, yet also tenderness and love.I never see his face though, only those eyes! Sometimes I get a very faint scent, but not strong enough to pin-point it.
And then, there are his words that he says in a low, husky and seductive tone…
“Let’s get out of here.”
I have no interest in finding “Mr. Mystery Man” any time soon. I am nearly 21years old; I love my life of just blending in, just doing the things that makes me happy.
But I know at some point our paths will cross. That’s the way fate works!
That is why I keep having these dreams about him. It’s a constant reminder that my future is inevitable. I can run all I want. But my destiny, and whatever his part will play in it all, will happen the way the Moon Goddess fated it to be.But right now, I am not ready to face it yet.
I know that once I find him, the spell that has been cast over me will be broken. That all I have been covering up for years will come to light. My life as I have known it for the past 10years will come to an end, and I will be sucked back into the darkness that ruined me!
So, no! I am not ready for that to happen!
But, at times, I consider what that would be like? What will he be like?
Will I be able to turn down the pull of the mate bond? Will he be egotistical and self-absorbed, viewing me as a little prize, making me bend to his will and dominating me like most of our kind’s males like to do? Making them feel powerful! I roll my eyes to the thought of that.“No! He will be perfect! Our safe harbour and more then we could ever hope for!” my wolf, Morganite, wines in my mind.
I love my wolf! She is feisty and dominant; she is my inner voice that keeps me strong. She is also funny. Most of the time she is my complete opposite. But she is always gentle and nurturing when I need it.
Her name ‘Morganite’ originates from a pink gemstone. I love it! The colours pink and rose-gold have always been the colours I feel my soul has a connection to. When I got my wolf when I turned sixteen, I knew why. Morganite is a stunning wolf. She is a pink champagne colour. Just another way to believe that the Moon Goddess has everything planned.
“Yes, so you keep saying.” I sigh softly.
“I’m just not ready for it all Morgz, and I don’t trust the opposite sex! He will need to be some special kind of male for me to trust him! And how will I be able to make a rational decision with the mate bond playing with every fibre of my mind and body, to give into him?”
“You are overthinking it! Moon Goddess made him for us, he will be perfect!” she argues with me.
I ignore her and push her to the back of my mind.
I don’t have time for this argument about ‘Mr. Perfect’ with her, right now.
She is very much on team ‘Let’s find Mate’, and I don’t blame her, she wants her mate. But I’m not as convinced as her, yet.I will be on stage in 5minitues time. I need to stop thinking about all of this!
Besides, I will be 21years old in a few weeks’ time. Giving me two years. If by some miracle I do find him, and we recognise the bond, the spell will be broken.
But, if I haven’t found my mate before my 23rd birthday, the spell will start to crack, and destiny will force the process.
The latter being the most plausible outcome.
I doubt I will find him, as we will not be able to recognise the bond, even if he stood right in front of me, this very second.
Somehow, that image saddens me…
‘Get it together Kenz!’ I scold myself for even letting my mind drift in that direction, for even a second!
Okay, fine I’ll be honest. I have wondered for a second, what he will look like? Will he have blond, brown, red, or dark hair? I have never been interested in men, so I don’t even know what my type would be. But like I said, I only pondered on this for a second.
I am very comfortable knowing I still have time on my side before destiny crosses our paths.
Till then, I’m just going to live with my little secret life in happiness.
I will relish in the sensations I get from my dreams of Mr. Perfect. They are safe this way. They can’t hurt me… and besides, nothing good really lasts forever. Right?
“Hey! Flower girl…You ready? You’re up!” Josh the stage assistant calls to me.
I give him a thumbs-up, and take a deep breath…
‘Here we go’.
I walk on stage, take a seat on the barstool, and position my guitar.
I wave my caramel blonde hair out of my face.
I have a light pink ombre for tonight, it will wash out! I always add some colour to my hair when I sing. It adds to my secret identity, along with my stage name ‘Blossom’.
I got a bit carried away with the hair glitter.
‘Well, it’s time to shine, babe. The extra glitter gives exactly that!’ Morganite encourages me.Got to love her!
‘Thanks, Morgz’.
I am wearing high waist, light blue ripped jeans with a white and pink floral crop top. Some white sneakers, and my most precious necklace, along with my favourite big, rose-gold hoop earrings. My hair is long and wavy and falls perfectly open, reaching my lower back.
Tonight’s songs I’ll be singing are light and sweet, so my look fits the scene.
My make-up is light and natural. Only light contouring, some blush, and a glittery bronzer on my cheekbones. Light pink pearlescent eyeshadow and 2 layers of mascara. Lastly, I added some light pink, nude lip-gloss finishing off my look.
I stare at the lights in front of me, and peek at the crowd, ‘Good, full house’, I think to myself.
I always feel that my music has a purpose. I don’t want to be famous or anything. I just have a feeling that it might mean something to someone, the way music has meant so much to me.
I stare down at the engraved visuals on my guitar, and I smile softly.
I close my eyes and take in a deep breath, letting it go with calmness.
With my eyes still closed, I zone out of my surroundings.
A soft breeze blows past me, cooling me.
Just then I catch a very faint scent. Goddess what is that? Sandalwood, leather, and something else. But just as quickly as it came, it is completely lost again.
I open my eyes and do a quick scan over the crowd. Nope nothing unusual. Hmmm, strange…I refocus my attention. My fingers stroke the strings on my guitar. I focus on my emotions, what the sounds I’m creating make me feel. I feel warmth spread through me and I know that doing this means so much more to me than anyone will ever know.
It’s in this moment, just before I open my mouth to start my first line…emotion floods me.
I remember them, and how my music still connects me to them.
I open my eyes slowly, singing my song.
The lights shine down on me. It reminds me of the sunlight peeking through the large oak tree… it reminds me of that day.
The day I got my guitar, forever in my memory…
Timika 10 Years Ago“Mama, Mama…Look here!” I shout out, in excitement!I am running toward my mother who is swaying on the big swing in our garden. My dad is only a few steps behind me, chuckling away.“What is it sweetie?” Mommy beams at me. The way the sunrays are shining through the branches of the big old oak tree, are making her crystal green eyes sparkle. She has such a softness to her, making her look like an angel.“Daddy got me my own guitar!”I have never been this happy! This has to be the best birthday present ever! I have never wanted anything more in my young 11year old life!“Thank you, Mama! Thank you, Papa!”My parents share a look and envelop me in a loving hug. This moment here… my mother’s soft honey blonde hair touching my face, her scent of roses. My dad’s strong arms around us. His dark stubble brushing against my little shoulder. His scent of musk and freshly wet soil. I feel so loved and safe right h
School came out an hour ago.It’s officially school holiday and I’m excited to have a few weeks off, to play my guitar and attempt to write my first song. I already have an idea or two.I’m humming a tune while riding my bike home, the packhouse already in sight. As soon as I reach home, I enter and run up the stairs to my room. I lock my bedroom door behind me. Opening my backpack, retrieving the precious piece of paper I’ve been dying to open.I open my report card, my heart hammering in my ears and my face turning hot.Please Goddess, let my hard work pay off!My eyes scan the Report card…. “A+” in all my Subjects!A big smile crosses my little face and I fall back on my bed, letting go of a breath I feel I’ve been holding since this morning.Thank you, Goddess!I have been working really hard to be at the top of my class. To be the best in all I do!I know Daddy says that I have only now to be a kid, and to be just that. I play along with it. But I know who I am, I may only be 1
Timika “Drew looks at me; I fake a smile, so he won’t see…” I sing along, listening to Taylor Swift on my earphones. I’m up early, making breakfast in bed for my parents. Daddy will be leaving in a few hours for a very important Alpha meeting in another State. I’m making omelettes with bacon, spinach, feta, and mushrooms and of course lots of cheese. I love baking and cooking and our head Chef, Harry, is always patient teaching me a few things, every now and then. Oh, here comes the chorus!!! I feel my excitement burning up! This is my jam! “He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitarThe only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star” I belt out in my best version! I give it my all and don’t really care who is still sleeping. I hope this is a nice way for the rest of the house to wake up. I give a little snort. “Hold up!” I’m startled while I’m sprinkling some paprika on the edges of the plate and over the omelett
Timika 5 Years Later “Again!!!” I’m yelled at for the 20th time this morning! I groan in frustration as I get back up and take my stance. What is with me today? He comes at me, and usually I would have moved quickly, and ducked the move, just to catch him off guard and knock him down. Yet, today, I’m slow, clumsy …useless!!! “For Fox Sake!!” I let out with frustration! I run over to the side, and vomit. Trying to hide my shame from Uncle Garren and Auntie Lil. “Come on Kenzie, shake it off! Let’s go again!” I nod my head, wipe my tears, and take a sip from my water bottle, to rinse my mouth out. I take my stance once again. Trying to focus, but my mind is a mess! He comes at me and throws me to the ground. My body moving like a piece of cooked spaghetti, knocking the wind out of me! It’s like I have no fight in me, no fire, nothing…just emptiness. I cover my face with my arms, still lying on my back. I break out into a sob, and just keep cryi
Timika I open my eyes. I realise how far I have come since that day! For so long, I have wished I could just go home, go back to the life I had. But that life did not exist anymore. There would be no one. For long I had no idea where I fit in now. Would I just disintegrate into nothingness… just lose any purpose of life, my wolf side, would I even have a future? For the first time I feel like the anger has left me a little. Maybe it was finally crying, giving way to my emotions, or maybe it was the wish I just made. Either way, I feel like I can finally breathe again. In time Auntie Lilura and Uncle Garren made me realise there would still be more. I was not born simply to live on the run my whole life. Moon goddess had a destiny for me. And right now, I finally feel that maybe, just maybe one day I would have my life back. I get up and make my way back to the little cottage. I have been living here with Uncle Garren and Auntie Lil for the past 8months. We will be moving agai
Alpha Arkham Stone (At the same timeframe, Timika 16th Birthday) “Fire….” What was that?I hear the faint sound, an angelic voice, echoing into the forest. What is that?Is that a whisper, or a song? “Never fallen from higher” There it is again…. My ears perk up. “I’m still here” the voice echoes again, then fades … Where is it coming from? My wolf gets up, tilting his head in search of the sound. We are in the forest, the sunlight dancing through the dark green trees. I get a very faint scent, what is that? It’s sweet! Goddess, it’s heavenly, it’s making my mouth water! We start running, goddess knows in which direction. But I trust my wolf. He is fuelled by something; I’ve never felt him driven like this. What is it, Ark? Suddenly, something catches our attention, something running ahead, only a glimpse, that’s all I saw. Then I see it again. A champagne-coloured wolf. The sunrays dancing on her coat, wait, is that a light pink glow? Beautiful! She stops in her tra
Alpha Arkham (2 Years Later) I open my eyes to the soft sunlight of the early morning, dancing across my face. It’s warm, yet gentle. I close my eyes again. I swear it almost feels like soft kisses. I groan in annoyance; I don’t even want to get up! If only I could go back to my dream I just woke from. To smell her, hear her voice, and see those gorgeous eyes. I could stay in that moment forever! Goddess, I wonder how it will feel to wake up to her soft kisses. Just imagining it has my dick throbbing. Fuck I can’t wait! I have not been with a girl in 5 years. It takes a lot of self-control, and I am proud so say I have been saving myself for my mate, even though before I have been intimate with women, I have changed my ways. There are constantly she-wolves, and even human girls throwing themselves at me, it’s nothing new. But I will never mess with any of my own pack members. That has always been my nr.1 rule! That will be disrespecting my future Luna! Even though there are
Arkham (Two weeks later) Darkness…nothing else....No matter where I look, just complete and utter darkness! The sound of my racing heart, that’s all I can hear or sense. That, and these immense feelings raging inside… My eyes shoot open to the darkness in my room, only the bright light of the moon peeking through my window. I look at the time… 03:00am... Fucking great! Witching hour… every fucking night! I get up and open the window. I need some fresh air! My heart is racing, I hate these feelings inside of me! I will never admit this to anyone out loud, but I feel heartbroken, empty, and lost. I just stare at the moon. It is so bright and beautiful tonight. It’s beauty reminding me of her soft green eyes, and her scent of cherry-blossoms and pomegranate. What would it have been like to hold her in my arms, to inhale that beautiful, sweet scent. Goddess how I miss her angelic voice! Why?!? My eyes are stuck on the moon, like I am expecting it to answer my question.