Chapter seven:

Seraphina's POV

“Mum… Not now,” I groaned. The ache in my chest made my volume so low, despite the fact that I had struggled to find my words.

“Oh really?” Mother scoffed, shaking her head as she looked down at me with pity. “Tell me then, when is the time?”

I stayed mute.

Never though… I don't ever want to walk about this. 

My eyes burned. I drew deep breaths as I closed my eyes. I don't want to cry.

I haven't cried today because of this issue and I want it to stay like this.

But, how… 

How do I express myself without lashing out in anger and bursting into tears?

How do I tell them that I was made for Cassian… I know it deep down.

This bond was not a curse… But a blessing.

They would never listen no matter how hard I try to explain, would they?

I sniffed as I held my breath. My lips parted as I opened my eyes slowly and a sad smile crept on my lips.

“Do you pity me?” I asked softly.

She breathed out a sigh, she held my hand as she lifted me up.

“You have to go inside now… it's getting late, you have been here alone since noon.”

I blinked as I kept my gaze on her face. “Mother, do you pity me?” 

She ground her teeth as she held my hand. “Yes… I pity you, Sera… you've been here without food or water for almost five hours, why… because of a man?”

I parted my lips to speak, but I felt the tear at the brim of my lids, I looked away and blinked as I kept mute.

My mother's nostril flared as I turned to her again. “The elders have called for a meeting with you and the Alpha. they are going to break this bond.”

My eyes grew large in shock as I stared at her. A tear escaped and ran down my cheeks into my mouth.

I just realized how parched I had been as I licked my lips.

“Come and freshen up,” mother said as she tried to pull me inside.

I yanked my hand away from her grip as she stared at me in shock. 

“I do not need your pity… nor anyone else's.” I wiped off the tears flowing freely now with both hands.

“Sera…” she pressed her hand on her temples.

“Mum…” I cut her off. “You should know what I want and stand by me… you should support me, not pity.”

“No…” my mother snapped at me.

“Why!!” I snapped back at her. “Because he is your husband? Because you are jealous he loved me and not you, despite being married to you for years.”

Fuck… I balled my fist as I stared at my mother's sad eyes.

I've hurt her feelings… I was…

My mum swallowed and raised her hand and it landed hot on my cheek.

First time… in the twenty years of my life, she had never once hit me. I guess it's all my fault.

I rolled my tongue on the side of my mouth as I looked down.

“I’m sorry, I'll be going inside,” I voiced and raced off.

My shoulders, shaking as I sobbed.

“Seraphina!!” 

I ignored her calls. I was too broken to face anyone now, I would only end up breaking more relationships.

I hope she can forgive me for my words.

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I entered my room and I slammed the door, before I ran into the bathroom.

The shower was a blur. It was a mixture of a warm shower, screams, total breakdown and pulling my hair, as I cried to my heart's content.

Finally I was out of the bathroom. I felt better. I noticed dinner was placed on the table in my room.

I could perceive my mother's scent. I knew she brought the food for me.

Maybe she doesn't want me to come down and eat with her and Cassian because I was down.

Or perhaps she doesn't want me sitting at the same table with him. 

I sank on the chair, staring at the food. I barely have an appetite to eat.

My hair was in a rough ponytail and I had worn a casual night wear, matching short sleeve shirt and shorts pants.

Mother had told me about the meeting. I had no desire to dress up for that.

I picked the fork as I placed a piece of meat in my mouth.

I closed my eyes as I chewed and my mind instantly flashed to the battle. How we fought side by side and won a sweet victory.

How he hugged me and our bodies felt like one… like they were made for each other.

I took a deep breath and opened my eyes as I shook my head. 

I can't keep thinking of him. I don't want to lose control. I was already feeling so much heat, yearning for him.

I gulped down the meat and I am slowly in silence.

A knock on the door.

I didn't bother to turn.

“Come in,” I groaned.

A male servant opened the door and entered. “The Elders have asked that you come to the courtroom in thirty minutes time.”

I shuffled my feet, gave a slow nod and the servant was gone.

I looked at the time. Eight PM

I rolled my eyes. “Let me go see what they have to say. I hope they've seen the truth after seeing us together today… we are meant to be.”

I got up ten minutes after, pacing the room.

I looked at the time, and it seemed as though it had gone into a snail mood.

Ten minutes passed and I couldn't wait in my room anymore. I would go out there and spend the rest of the ten minutes waiting for the meeting.

I left my room and walked down the corridor.

I hope I don't bump into Cassian now. I know that I'm coming quite early.

Cassian is known to arrive in his own time, so I am certain he would come five minutes late or more.

I smiled softly.

That way I won't have to suffer the anxiety of him watching me walk in.

I opened the meeting room. It was still dark.

“Thank God… no one has come.”

I walked around, trying to find the light switch. I just got my wolf, my night vision was not that good yet.

I bumped into something and I threw my hands in the air as I landed on a chair.

“What are you doing here?” 

I flinched as I just realized I was not sitting on a chair, I was sitting on Cassian's leg.

“If you can't see well in the dark, why don't you not carry a torch?” His hands grabbed my waist as he growled into my ears.

Shit… he is so close.