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NATHANIEL

After I roar at her, commanding her to just sleep and stop trying to bring the worst out of me, I keep glaring outside through the window of our room.

I am furious. Too much furious right now. I did not like it. No. I hated it when she said she did not want me to come bare inside her. I hate each word that indirectly told me to stay away from her like that.

I like to go bare inside her. I do not want any barrier between us. Not even the thinnest barrier can keep us away from each other. I want to feel her warmth and want to fill her womb with my seeds because yes, I want us to have a baby.

I want to have a baby with her because I love her so much.

I know my life was not good before. It was fucked up. My world was fucked up and so did my intentions, paths and finally my mind. I had a girl in my life. I was crazy about her. Her name was Alessandra Irad and I fell for her behaviour but then, I realized that she was not made for me so I accepted that change.

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