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s e v e n : under the influence
“Genny,” she hums in a singsong tone.
“Hmm?” I ask impatiently.
She should remember from all the other times: I hate taking care of drunk people. Of course, I’d do it every time for a friend. I don’t want her to get hurt because then it’ll be on me. When she’s in this state, I’m responsible for her. I only hate it because it hurts to see her like this. She doesn’t look like she’s having fun. Sophie can’t have fun when it comes to alcohol. She binges, and she gets sad.
I take each crucial step towards Sophie's white marble-lined pool in silence. She's propped up on the back of some guy, clearly out of her god damn mind.
Once I reach the edge of the marble, I slump down and put my feet in.
"Sophie."
"Hmm?" she hums, looking up at me with glossy eyes.
The guy under her rolls his eyes and places her down. "Who wants to play chicken?" he asks, averting his attention to the other bikini-clad girls in the pool.
After momentari
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