Chapter 49

Everyone started to come downstairs for breakfast. I saw Brees heading down the stairs. She smiled when she saw me. I gave her a little wave and started to head towards her. I just wanted to embrace her this morning. My mom pulled me back into my seat by my shoulders.

”Not this morning Kee. I already told you my expectations,” she warned.

I went over to help Baylen sort presents instead. I had to stay away from Brees, There was no way that I would be able to not show my abundant amount of love for this girl if she was in close proximity.

“Hey Kee,” Brees said, coming over to the tree.

”Oh hey Squirt, can you move over there so you aren’t in the way of us sorting?” I asked, pointing to the couch.

Squirt? Really? Why the hell did I just call her that? I made love to this girl last night and here I am calling her Squirt like she is some old pal I played football with.

I truly needed this holiday stuff to be over so that I could be with her. I saw the look on her face after I called her Squirt and it broke my heart.

“I love you so much, Brees. Let’s cuddle by the fire with some hot cocoa,” is what I wanted to say.

But instead, I am pretty sure I called her Squirt several more times and I rejected her offer to bring me to the New Orleans Saints game this Sunday. This was torture. I acted like a complete idiot around her and I should have been ashamed.

My plan tonight was to head over to Isadora’s and let her know that Brees and I were in love and that I could no longer see her. She said that she would be alone, but it didn't matter. I had to talk to her.

When I arrived she had on music and the lights were low. She had board games out and food. I knew immediately that she thought this was a date.

”Izzy, I need to talk with you and it’s kind of important,” I said.

We walked into the living room.

”Of course we can talk, but can we spend some time together before I head out to Italy for a week?” She sked.

I agreed and sat on the cushions she had around the living room table.

”So I am not sure if I told you, but my dad is really sick. He has been doing good however and mom says he should be out of the woods soon. But it’s hard not being there for him, you know?” she said.

My heart felt like this was not the moment to break things off, so I digressed for a bit as we played board games and talked. As the night went on, we truly were having fun.

“Keegan, you know we are all alone right?” she asked, moving closer to me.

”I did know this. You have told me several times since I have been here,” I said.

”Then why aren’t you kissing me? I feel like you never want to make out. Can we at least do that before I go?” she asked, grabbing at my collar.

”Izzy, I have to tell you something. I don’t want to hurt you though,” I said, grabbing her hands.

“Umm, ok. Is this about Brees?” She asked.

”Yeah it is. I have been really thinking about her a lot lately and I think I am going to give this relationship another shot,” I said.

She lowered her head and covered her face with her hands.

“I understand Keegan. Brees was literally the love of your life when I got here. It hurts but I am glad you will be happy,” she said, moving to the couch.

She began to cry. I felt so incredibly awful. I moved to the couch and held her while she sobbed. Why am I always breaking someone’s heart?

“Izzy, I am truly so sorry. You should not have been a casualty of this,” I said.

She didn’t speak, she just cried. I held her for what seemed like forever. I don’t remember when, but somehow I fell asleep holding her. I awoke to chatter at the door. It sounded like Brees.

Holy shit! Did I stay the night at Isadora’s?