I can’t help but think how small the University is. I mean, out of all the students there, it’s really the guy who I bumped into earlier? It could just be a coincidence, but how crazy of a coincidence is that?
I quickly looked away from him. It’s like all I did ever since he came is to stare at him. Not because I find him attractive or what, but because I just really got surprised by this circumstance.I felt Daisy kick my feet under the table. I tried to ignore her. I don’t want the people in this table to think we have our own world, when we have everyone here we should be talking to.“You were the guy I bumped into earlier,” I mumbled, my eyes focused on my now half-empty glass.“Yeah, I think it’s me,” the guy replied. I was not looking but I could tell he was smiling. “I’m Zandrey,” he introduced. I saw his hand in front of me. I got confused for a while, but then I realized he was trying to offer his hand for a handshake.I shook his hand. “I’m Aira.”He looked at me and continued smiling. I tried to smile as well but I feel like it looked like a fake one so I just stopped trying and took my hand back.“How was the activity?” Dominic asked laughingly at Zandrey.“Yeah, I lost my ID. I almost couldn’t take it, man,” I heard him reply.“Right!” I accidentally raised my voice upon saying that everyone’s eyes landed on me. I bit my lower lip in embarrassment.“What was it?” Zandrey queried.“Oh, yeah. When we bumped earlier, you kind of left your ID on the floor. It probably fell. I had it with me, but I forgot to leave it at the lost and found. I’m so sorry about that. I totally forgot about it,” I rambled on and on. “In fact, I have it with me,” I added as I reached for my bag but I realized it wasn’t the bag I had earlier.“Oh, thank you,” he said. “I thought I would have to get a new one. You know how crazy the process is for getting a new ID.”“Yeah, I know,” I agreed. “Sorry, I put it safely in the pocket of my bag, but it’s currently not with me. I left it in Daisy’s car.”“No worries. I’ll get it later,” he said with a smile. I just nodded.When I looked around, I realized how the people in this table are watching us.“Meant to be, don’t you think?” Daisy teased. There she goes again with her wiggling eyebrows.“Shut up,” I mouthed, but she just laughed.“Alright, let’s order!” Jamie announced.Finally! I am cheering inside of my head.We ordered some food, ate, and talked the entire time. Well, most of the time, it’s the other guys who did the talking. I just say a word whenever someone asks me something. At this point, I really want to go home, but I know I can’t do it easily.The girls wanted to go to the karaoke after eating. Everyone agreed and were so excited, including Daisy. Now it’s even harder to leave.As planned, we went to the karaoke after eating. It was just a few blocks from the cafe so everyone decided to just walk there. Plus, it’s going to be hard to find a parking spot for anyone who brought their cars.I almost rolled my eyes upon seeing everyone walking with their partners. Not that I envy them or what. It’s just such an eye-sore seeing how clingy they are to the guys.“Hi,” I heard Zandrey say. There’s no need for me to see his face, I already know he’s smiling by the sound of his voice. He is such a smiling guy. He kept on smiling the entire time that I was starting to wonder how his jaw was. “You are really quiet, huh?” And he’s very talkative too.I paid a quick glance at him and just shrugged. I heard him chucke.“You’re an Architecture student, right?” He asked. “Is it hard?”This time, I decided to humor him. I’m not really the talkative person, unless it’s Daisy.“Kind of,” I responded. “Especially if you don't really like your course,” I added.“Oh? You don’t like Architecture? Why did you take it when you don’t like it in the first place?”“It’s what my Dad wants.”“So if that's something your Dad wants, you should follow? What about what you want?”I laughed sarcastically. “He’s the law at home.”“That’s too bad,” he commented. I laughed because yes, it was too bad. Sometimes I just laugh at certain circumstances. “What does your Mom say?”“She’s gone.”“Where did she go?” He asked curiously. I shoot him a weirded look. “Oh, stupid,” he murmured to himself. He probably didn’t get what I initially meant. “I’m sorry. I have been studying the entire day and I think my mind forgets to function sometimes.”“Why did you come here when you have so much to study for?” I asked, trying to dismiss the previous topic.“I just thought it would be fun,” he answered casually.I wish everyone had the luxury of time to have fun.So we went to this KTV bar and rented a room huge enough to accommodate all of us. Good thing Francis knew someone from here so we were able to book the room for us. It’s Friday and usually KTV bars are full. Connections really allow you to pull strings.Jamie went inside first and was able to get the microphone for herself. She was quick to choose a song and had it entered. She even chose the one with high notes. Unfortunately for us, her voice isn’t as pleasant to the ears. Beside her was Francis, who’s trying to suppress his laughg while listening to her. They occupied the two-seater sofa at the corner. The rest of us are sitting on the long sofa.Nathalie was sitting at the farthest corner, beside Dominic. Next to Dominic was Daisy. Jed was sitting beside Daisy and Zandrey was sitting beside Jed. I am the one at the other edge of the sofa.“Do you drink?” Asked Zandrey. They ordered a few bottles of beer. I’m sure they will order more later.Do I drink? Yes. Before, I didn't really drink becuase I pledged not to, for health reasons. But some stressful things drove me to try drinking. For one, I almost failed one of my Math subjects. Good thing I was able to ace the rest of my exams during the finals. My classmates during that time wanted to drink as their way of relieving stress. I went with them, with the goal of forgetting about the stress academics caused me. And I did enjoy it. Since then, I learned to drink, but not to the point of getting drunk. I only drink occasionally, and this time is one of those times.I’m so stressed. I’m also exhausted from studying so much. If it wasn’t for my father, I would’ve given up and just stayed at home, in my room, where I don’t have to deal with other things.I looked at Zandrey with a neutral face. “Sometimes,” I answered.The beer they ordered arrived and I saw Zandrey got one and opened it. I was kind of surprised when he gave it to me. I tried to hide it though. I don’t want him to think he has such an effect on me.“Thanks,” I murmured, before bringing it to my mouth.Few moments later, the girls became even louder. They’re now taking their turns with the microphone. I didn’t join them in singing and just sat there, listening to them even if it’s getting hard for my ears.“Why did you agree to join this group date?” Zandrey asked. Well, him being here still has some silver lining. At least he could divert my attention from these gals singing their hearts out.Feeling a bit tipsy, I answered, “Daisy begged me to be here. And well, because of the free food."I heard him laugh. “So you don’t have a boyfriend?”I looked at him with an arched brow. “Are you flirting with me?”He chuckled again. “I was just asking if you have a boyfriend.”“Why would I be here if I have a boyfriend?”“Good point,” he said laughingly.I made a face when I heard Daisy singing. I feel like my eardrums will explode any minute now. She’s clearly drunk. Ugh. Now who’s going to drive me home?Then I remembered Zandrey’s ID. “Do you want to get your ID?” I whispered. I realized he wouldn’t hear me because of the loud music and well, Daisy’s voice. So I repeated what I asked a bit loudly, “do you want to get your ID?”“How about later? Before we go home?” He replied.“How about now?” I negotiated. I just really need to get out of this room right now. It’s really hurting my ears. “Their voices are making my ears bleed,” I added.He laughed at what I said. In the end, he agreed to get it. We told them we’re just going out to get his ID and well, they couldn’t care less. They have their own worlds now. So we just went out of the room.I confidently went out of the room, but upon getting out, I almost tripped. Apparently, my head’s spinning now.Zandrey was quick to help me, “You’re drunk,” he stated.“Not really,” I said and he chuckled. I don’t even know what’s funny about what I said. Or is it the way I said it?We got out of the building with him trying to keep me to my feet. I can still walk and maybe he’s just a gentleman trying to make sure I won't fall.We were able to get to where Daisy parked the car to get his ID. Thankfully, I didn’t trip or fall. I was even quickly able to spot her car.I'm usually smart when it comes to other things. But right now, I just feel so stupid because I realized I didn’t ask for the key, so I started laughing. Maybe it’s the alcohol. I don’t usually laugh this loud.“Why?" I heard him ask.“I’m so stupid,” I replied, still laughing a little. “I don’t have her car keys.”Zandrey stared at me for a few seconds. Maybe he couldn’t believe how stupid I am right now.“I’m so sorry,” I said. I tried to stop myself from laughing and it really took so much effort.“No, it’s okay,” he replied with a smile. “You’re fun when you’re drunk.”“I’m not drunk,” I battled. “Are you drunk?”“I’m not. I only drank two bottles,” he answered. My eyes grew wide. Am I the only one who drank so much beer? My alcohol tolerance isn’t that low, so I’m quite sure I drank a lot.“Am I supposed to pay for all the drinks I consumed?” I asked and he chuckled again.“Don’t think about it,” he replied, still with a smile.Isn’t he tired from smiling too much?“Do you want to go back inside?” He queried.I thought about it. I wanted to get inside because it’s getting cold here, but I don’t want to hear them singing again. What should I sacrifice- my skin or my ears?In the end, I chose to shake my head. “Can we stay here for a while? I don’t want to risk my ears just yet,” I said and he laughed again. “Really? Am I that funny?” I finally asked. He laughed at me a few times since we came here and it’s really making me wonder if he finds me funny or what. I saw him try to suppress a grin.“Maybe?” He said. I frowned at him and just leaned my back on Daisy’s car. Zandrey followed and copied what I did.I looked at his face, and I’m basically looking up. “You’re tall,” I stated. “How tall are you?”I’m not usually talkative, but I guess it’s the alcohol speaking.“5’11,” he answered.“That’s okay.”“How about you?” He questioned. “Let me guess, 5’2?”“I’m not that short,” I uttered. “Add 1 inch.”“So you’re 5’3.”“Correct!" I exclaimed. I heard him chuckle again, but I just chose to ignore it. He must be having so much fun with me- something other people don’t really feel when I’m with them.We were just leaning on the car’s door when I heard a familiar voice. I turned around and tried to search where the voice was coming from. And I was right, it was Charles. He was talking to someone on the phone while walking towards the car next to Daisy’s.I quickly hid myself behind the car. I also pulled Zandrey to hide with me.“Why are we hiding?” He whispered, but I just shushed him. I can’t talk and risk being seen by Charles.I waited for Charles to be gone from our sight before I tried to peek. I just had to check if he’s really gone now.“Why are we-”“Oh God,” I muttered. Just when I was going to face him from checking Charles, his face was also close to mine.His lips accidentally brushed the side of my lips!“Oh my God,” I repeated.We stared at each other, our eyes both wide and surprised.Holy crap. Did we just almost kissed?!Zandrey's words made me awake for hours at night. It bothered me for the past few days. I couldn't even look at him when he's around. Seeing him just reminds me of all the words he murmured that damn night. He was well aware that I'm not allowed to engage on any sexual stuff. Yet he teased me and made me restless for nights. I wanted to do the same thing to him, but I didn't have the chance. I was busy with the kids and there's no way I can do that. "What's with your face?" Daisy asked. She's here at home to visit me and the baby. Everybody's at work since it's a weekday. She said she's not busy so I just let her.She's carrying Andrew right now and she really loves holding the baby. I feel like she doesn't want to be away from him. She keeps on smelling his head- which really smells so good. She wouldn't want to let him go even when he's already sleeping. I wonder if she's not getting tired from holding him. The baby's growing so fast and he's heavier now, but she doesn't seem to
"Let me do it," Zandrey whispered when we heard Baby Andrew crying. I'm not sure what the time is right now. I just know that the sun is still not up. Thankfully, it's the start of Zandrey's day off that's why he's here. He just got home after a long duty at the hospital a few hours ago. But even if he's tired from work, he still insisted on taking care of the baby. But i couldn't just let him do all the work when he's exhausted from work. "No, let me," I insisted. He already stood up, but I followed. "You're exhausted. Go back to bed and sleep," I commanded. I'm not even sure if I sound firm enough for him to follow. There are quite a lot of people who gets intimidated when I talk. But I guess Zandrey is the exception. I remember back in college, when we first met, we got so well already. On normal situations, that would not happen because I'm not even friendly and I easily feel discomfort when I'm with people I'm not close with. That's why I don't have that much friends. Weird
Good thing I gave birth naturally, so we only stayed in the hospital for a few days. The recovery was still quite hard, but I was glad we're finally home. Zandrey wanted to hire additional help to assist me in taking care of Baby Andrew, but I insisted on not doing that for now. I'm on maternity leave and Mom Emily's here to help so I know I can handle it. Maybe when I go back to work, that's when we'll hire another help. Because I'm sure it will be quite handful to juggle work and take care of kids at the same time. But I still want to be as hands on as possible. I dom't have to think about it for now. I still have months to think about that. We haven't yet discuss the topic that we left off last time. Maybe he was waiting for me to open the topic first, since I was the one who asked for more time. It has been on my head for days. The question just kept on coming back. "Are you okay?" Mommy Emily asked. Andrew just fell asleep and I was supposed to sleep as well but I could
"Can we please... make this work?" It kept on rewinding on my head. Dad, Mom, and Daisy are still around but it was like it's just us here. It was like we were oblivious with our surroundings. I know this time will come- that we need to talk about us. We have 3 kids, and we have to be firm on where this is really heading us. In my mind, I was okay with just being co-parents. We were working it out. I believe we have been great parents the past months. But maybe we cannot just stay like this forever. Because there are kids involved. But I don't think I was ready for any talk about this, or was I? Maybd I was running away from that fact. Maybe I'm a coward. Maybe I don't have the bones to face all of these because I was scared of where this would lead us. But because of the never ending questions, I can't help but also wonder. Can we really make this work? I looked around and it seemed like all the people inside have sensed where our talk is going. "Can we take Baby
The pain was doubling each time. I could feel beads of sweat forming on my neck and forehead. I have inhaled-exhaled hundreds of times, but the pain was still there. I expected the extent of the pain because I've done this before. But god, experiencing it again for the second time does not make you used to the pain.Everything fucking hurts.Being in labor hurts so much. I was trying my best not to push here, even if I wanted to. I can feel the baby's already crowning. I don't want to give birth to my child here. Not when this car is not sanitized or whatever. But it really hurts, and Daisy must know because of the way I'm holding her hand- like it's my source of strength. I know she's hurting too but she's not saying anything. This is the only way I get to distract myself from the pain."I can't do it anymore," I cried. I actually can, but words are rumbling on my head. I don't know what to think or say anymore. The pain was taking over me entirely."We're almost there, Ai," Daisy mu
I've been feeling so heavy lately. I could feel how close the baby's arrival is. With that, I am not allowed to be left alone. Everybody is taking turns to stay with me. Even Daisy would sometimes volunteer to accompany me, especially on nights when Zandrey is at work. All our stuff are also already packed and ready. We are just waiting for it to happen, and we'll be good to go. It's still past noon, and Daisy is currently with me because everyone is at work. Mommy Emily volunteered as well to be with me but she won't be here until tomorrow. Zandrey was supposed to be here, but he was needed at the hospital because his colleague was involved in an accident and can't go to work, so he covered for him. "Everything should start from small, right?" Daisy murmured. We're talkig about her plans of establishing her own company. She's been researching a lot these days and I could see the skeleton of her plans and it's a really good progress. I'm so proud of her. "Of course," I replie