Tulala akong sa living room. Zachary is busy washing the dishes. Kakatapos lang namin kumain.
I can’t stop thinking about the twins. Lucian and Lucius’s parents died. Zachary continued telling me that their parents also died from a plane crash. It’s almost the same as my parents’ death. The only difference was that... their bodies were never found. Nag-crash ang plane sa karagatan at never nang nahanap ang katawan ng mga magulang nila.
Of course, they don’t know if it’s an actual accident or someone was behind it as well just like in my case. Walang ibang ebidensya na may tao sa likod noon dahil hindi na-retrieve ang katawan ng mga magulang nila.
I feel bad for them. I see myself in them. Maybe that’s why they were both so nice to me. They probably heard what happened to my parents and also feel bad for me. I just hope that they are no longer having a hard time because of what happened... unlike me.
Because they don’t deserve the pain. I just don’t kn
“Someone is stalking me for the past weeks or months or I don’t know where it started! He has a number of stolen shots of me, my Tita Cecil, and my cousin, inside our houses. Now he has Manang Cinda! Klaus, please...” pagmamakaawa ko kay Klaus nang magkita kami. “Ms. Salazar, please calm down for now. I’ll help you. I’ll help you again, just... calm down, alright?” “I can’t calm down. I’m scared. I can’t do this alone. I don’t know who to trust anymore. So, please. Do something, Klaus...” I fall on my knees as I start crying. Hindi ako tumuloy sa condo dahil agad akong nakipagkita kay Klaus after ng tawag ko sa kaniya. I had no choice. I need his help again. I still don’t know if I can fully trust him again, but I will take the risk one more time. I am just this desperate for help. “I am continuing the investigation, Ms. Salazar. Even after our partnership ended, I still swore that I will continue helping you until I cover the truth. I promised Gillia
I remain standing near the door where Dr. Ricaforte went out. He was cold and emotionless. Hindi ako makagalaw dahil sa takot at sakit na nararamdaman ko dala ng kung paano niya na lang ako tignan kanina. It’s as if he really had had enough. Sinubukan ko iyong tanggalin sa isipan ko hanggang sa makarating ako sa meeting place namin ni Klaus. Instead of hurting myself by thinking about Zachary’s anger towards me, I just tried to focus on our plans. Sa ngayon, kailangan ko munang malaman kung ano ang kalagayan ni Manang Cinda. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako tinatawagan ulit ng stalker na ‘yon. While Klaus is doing his best to keep an eye on Tita Cecil and Aeliares with his men. I also asked him to tell Gil some minor details about their security cameras in their house. That they should replace the cameras or perhaps remove them for now. I just hope that Gil won’t get suspicious about it. But it’s also possible given that he already had his suspicions befor
Magdamag akong umiyak sa k’warto ko pagkauwing pagkauwi ko. Wala akong oras para rito pero ito ako ngayon, iyak nang iyak dahil sa bwisit na lalaking ‘yon. Kung mahal na mahal niya naman pala si Dr. Therese, ay sana hindi na siya pumayag na magpakasal sa akin! Wala rin naman akong balak na pilitin siya noon dahil mas makakabuti ‘yon dahil ayaw ko naman sa kaniya noong una. Ngayon... ewan ko na. I love him too much and I am starting to get annoyed by this fact. Dahil ang hirap hirap niyang hindian. Dahil nagsisimula na akong umasa at maging makasarili. Kahit alam kong hindi naman siya masaya sa akin. Sakit ng ulo lang ang dulot ko. I am not a wife material and he has been in love with someone else for all those years. Na nakakaya niyang hindi pansinin ang insulto ng babaeng ‘yon sa mama ko at... sa akin, dahil lang sa may sakit siya. Wala naman dapat akong pakialam kung maniwala siya sa sinabi ni Dr. Therese, pero nakakainis dahil nasasaktan ako ngayon. Hindi
“I’m sorry for everything I said,” tahimik niyang sambit habang hinahaplos nang marahan ang buhok ko. Nakayakap pa rin ako sa kaniya at hindi siya bumibitaw. Every time I would try to move away from him, he would pull me back in embrace me more and tighter. It’s as if he doesn’t want to let me go. Pero aalis ako. I have decided that I will leave for now. I need to escape for now. I need to prioritize my well-being and my mental health... and staying here... won’t help me achieve that. Staying here only caused me pain. It caused me to lose someone. I need to leave. Nanatili akong tahimik na nakahilig sa dibdib niya dahil ayaw niya akong pakawalan. Mas lalo akong mahihirapan nito umalis. Ayaw kong umasa pero sa mga ginagawa niya, sa ilang mga sinasabi niya... parang ayos lang na umasa ako... I need to remind myself that he’s in love with someone else. “I’m sorry... that Reese insulted your mother...” I shift on my position when he said t
Nagising ako na wala na si Dr. Ricaforte sa tabi ko. I was already in my bedroom. May iniwan siyang note doon na need niya nang umalis kasi may duty pa siya but he cooked me breakfast. It was a sweet gesture and we had a great night, but I couldn’t even lift my lips to smile a bit. Instead, I can feel my heart aching. Maybe because I still can’t stay here anymore. At least for now. I want to be away for a while. At hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kaniya. Hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang idadahilan ko sa pag-alis para lang mapapayag siya. Knowing him, he wouldn’t allow me to go unless it’s really important and if my reason is valid and... true. It’s hard to lie to someone you love. But it’s harder to stay here when all I could feel and experience are pain, heartaches, and loss. I know that it’s best to stay away from him, from them... from everything. Tinapos ko ang mga kailangan kong gawin para sa araw na ‘yon. Nag-impake ako ng mga damit at gamit ko. The rest o
“I’m... sorry,” sambit ko at tinanggal ang hawak niya sa kamay ko. Inangat niya ang mukha niya at tinignan ako. Nagmamakaawa ang mga mata niya. Why is he making me hope? This is so unfair. Mas lalong ayaw kong mag-stay rito dahil baka hindi ko na talaga mapigilan ang sarili ko at umasa na... na baka mahal niya rin ako. Even though, it’s as clear as the sun that he’s in love with someone else. MJ, he’s in love with someone else. I repeat it to myself to remind me of my place. Wala ako sa lugar para umasa. “I can’t stay here. I’m sorry, Dr. Ricaforte...” paglilinaw ko. He looks like he’s about to cry. Parang tambol na hinahataw ang puso ko at para rin itong pinipiga sa sobrang sakit. It’s making me hard to breathe. Ayaw kong ipahalata sa kaniya na nasasaktan ko. He shouldn’t know. He must not find out that I am in love with him. “Flight ko na bukas. My grandfather already sent me my ticket. I can’t defy him, Dr. Ricaforte. He ne
[ Flashback ] Saglit kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko. Flashes of memories from that night immediately flowed in my head. My heart was burning because of pain, disappointment, and above all... anger. It had been a few days since what happened but it still felt like it happened just yesterday. Sobrang linaw pa rin sa isip ko kung paano sumabog ang eroplanong sinasakyan ng mga magulang ko at kung paano ‘yon bumagsak sa kung saan. Their bodies in the morgue stayed in my head. But I didn’t cry. I knew I was supposed to cry to feel the pain more at least let go of the pain, but I couldn’t. I just felt empty and lifeless. Para akong isang manika na naka-display lang, walang buhay. I was breathing but not alive. I felt the everything, but it was also as if I felt nothing. “Ms. Salazar, I will be asking you again. What happened that night?” tanong ng isang inspector sa akin pero nanatili akong tahimik na nakapikit sa aking upuan. Nasa loob ako ngayon ng
[ Flashback continues ]I did what I wanted. Hindi ako pumunta sa funeral ng mga magulang ko. I just know that their bodies have been cremated already yesterday. Ngayon ang funeral nila pero hindi ko gustong pumunta. Not because I don’t want to mourn their death, but because I don’t want to see everyone.Katulad ng sabi ni Lolo, ayaw kong makita ang buong pamilya namin. I feel empty and miserable pero hindi ko iyon gustong ipakita sa kanila dahil ayaw makita nila ako na mahina. Because I’m not that kind of person. At ayaw kong panghinaan ng loob.I am still planning to avenge my parents or at least seek justice for their death. I know they were killed and covered it up as an accident. I refused to tel that to the authorities because I don’t trust anyone of them. I couldn’t even tell my family about it because I know how convinced they were that what happened was indeed an accident.Halos pagabi na nang dumating ako roon pero