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Cole's P.O.V.
"Cole! Wake up."
"Cole!"
I jolt up.
"Cole!" I hear my mum yell.
"Fuck." I curse under my breath. Cole sleepily opens his eyes and turns to me. "Cole get on the bed now." I whisper to him sternly.
His eyebrows knit together in confusion.
"I'm coming mum!" I yell out to her, at the same time informing Xavier of the situation. He quickly gets up and slides under the covers of my bed.
I open my door and see my mum standing there.
"Uh...hi." I say, feeling a bit dozy as I pretend that everything is normal.
"You need to get to school Cole, your sister is up already." She explains.
"Oh yeah, sorry." I say, placing a hand behind my
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Cole's P.O.V.I enter the school grounds.I'm so nervous.I quickly go to the bathroom to see how I look.My reflection stares back at me. It looks so alone and just dead."I need to re-dye my hair." I say to myself. The brown roots are coming back through the blue."Xavier can choose the next colour. " I smile at the thought.I gather all my courage and get to class. I have psychology. I enter the room, all eyes stare at me. Some scared, some judgemental. I will never understand why people are afraid of me, ever since I have gone to school people had been scared or afraid. I'm a nice person. Do I look scary?I walk trying to avoid glances, I sit in my usual seat which is left untouched."Well, look who decided to show up. Mr.
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Cole's P.O.V.We exit the hospital and drive off to my house. It's a still kind of day where the trees don't sway and the sky is a little orange but had blotches of pink. Whilst I drive I feel as though everything around us is still and we are the only thing moving.The tyres crawl up onto the driveway and we get out. He immediately plonks down on the couch."Tired?" I ask.He nods his head as his lips set into a hard line. A bit of time passes before his eyes light up and turn towards mine.I tilt my head in anticipation."Let's dye your hair now!" He exclaims, his energy reclaiming his lethargic limbs. I agree with him enthusiastically."I'll go grab all the colours we have! Stay there." I run past him but not before I briskly hold his hand.I go into my sister's room and check the very same shelf that I checked before. All the colours are still there, except the blue
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Cole's P.O.V.It's been a week since Xavier's last treatment and he's been really sluggish lately. Looks like the treatment is really affecting him now. I have been going to school, kind of cautiously as Shawn stills kind of wants me dead. The message he sent is still weighing heavily down on me. When will he strike? The question is constantly on my mind. As I go to school my mum takes care of Xavier. I am so thankful she is understanding. Xavier sometimes wonders about his parents, they have called back many times, but I tell Xavier not to answer it as him just seeing their names on his phone screen makes him nervous, how can he talk to them?It's not best that they get in contact either as his parents are toxic. They made him feel so unsure of himself and that isn't what caring parents should do. I'm glad he is more comfortable now, even though he is deathly sick.
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Cole's P.O.V.We drive into the school parking lot and sit in the car.I am so nervous. I just want to break down and cry, I want to tell Xavier to watch out, I want to tell him everything, but he has too much to worry about right now, I wouldn't want to put more stress on him."Cole, you seem really nervous, why?" He speaks, with doe eyes and eyebrows knitted together."I'm not, it's okay." I reply, not looking at him. I may have been too blunt."Is it me?" He softly asks. A hint of sadness in his tone."What, no of course not." I reply, still not looking at him. I can't bring myself to. Keeping secrets from him is too much for me to bear. What a fucking coward I am.My sight becomes blurry, warm tears roll down my cheeks as my jaw clenches along with my fis
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Xavier's P.O.V.He then rushes out of the car."What's wrong with him?" I ask myself."Did I do anything wrong?" I start to panic.I don't want to lose the one person in my life who I can trust. Maybe I could've never trusted him. Maybe he was just pretending all this time. But for what?My head is a mess. School is starting soon, but I'm so worried about Cole. I decide to call him up before I go.The phone rings."This number is temporarily unavailable at the moment-" I hang up. My throat hurts, it constricts and chokes me as burning tears threaten to slither down my face.I decide to send him a text, I don't want him to think that he is alone. I can't give up so easily.X: Cole please don't suffer in silence, I don'
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Xavier's P.O.V.I just stand there.Cole walks me to his car.He sees the tears continue to roll down my cheeks, I can't hide anything now."It's stupid." I say looking away from him and out the car window, now sat in his car. My bottom lip curls under my top lip and my eyebrows scrunch together."Xavier, nothing you say is stupid trust me." He says.I decide to give in. I can't see him like this, and I can't nuture this pain anymore."I drew you in art today..."He smiles."Me? Aw that's sweet, but why are you crying?" He asks."...well, I put everything into it Cole, I...I coloured everything, and I went to go put the pencils away, but, but it was gone, it disappeared, I had a mini meltdown Cole. I wa
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Cole's P.O.V."Please go back to school though, I'll see you later." He then leaves.Shit, I never told him about Shawn, I was going to tell him about the message and everything, but when he got in the car, he looked more distressed than me, I completely forgot.I don't want to go against what Xavier wants. I'll go to school, just for a bit though. But I can't bring myself to drive off. The fear of going to school is weighing on me. I hang my head and watch as my tears patter on my clothes.I exhale shakily. I wish I had Xavier next to me. I look back at the hospital and see Xavier isn't there. He must be in therapy now. I imagine him, strong as he is, going through this.'Exactly.'Great, just what I need.'Look at you, scared of words? Words on a scr
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Cole's P.O.V.Semira looks so nervous. She reminds me of Xavier when I saw him introduce himself. It curdles weird uneasy feelings in me. I decide to ignore them for now."And where are you from Semira? Because you don't sound like you are from here." The teacher asks, laughing at her own joke, I don't even know if it was a joke."Um London. I'm from London, in England." She speaks."Okay, anything else you want to share with the class?" The teacher adds.Semira shakes her head, still looking down at the ground. Her long hair droops over her features."Okay head back to your seat. Semira everybody, make sure to keep her company and show her around the school." Where was this kindness with Xavier?Semira walks back to her seat and l
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